Love Om Duda

Nesyria

I sat by the beach alone staring

the beach waves are not so big, this is where I always calm down

my mind. I don't know how else my relationship with Alex is going to be for now,

even today there are more who need Alex to be in charge with

pregnancy Adeline.

“God, I have to how,” I said slowly

looking up at the sky.

It's very hard for me to keep up, to be honest

until now, I have never contacted my family, not even my sister

I was in Jakarta and I never gave him any news. Want to feel

I complained to them but it was impossible because I didn't want to

made my parents worry about me and for my sister I'm honest with you

still feel such a deep heartache.

“What's up here?” ask someone in the back, I

I looked back and saw who was talking to me.

“Sorry who? Have we ever been before?” much

while looking at the man standing in front of me. I looked at him from above

downstairs remembering what I've known before.

“No, we've never known before. It's just

I want to greet you because it's not good for women to be alone on the beach

while daydreaming what if there will be a demon that enters your body,” said

the man then laughed after that.

“I don't think the jokes are funny why you laugh, though,

and it's like I dong want to just let me daydream,” said I with

little bittersweet.

But the man just nodded while holding back

laugh,”I think you're new huh? Because I just saw you here

now,” he said back.

“Can be said so and better you soon

get out of here because with your presence so nod myself to

alone,” I said then I turned my body and stared at the beach water with the waves

not so big, white sand that so spoil the eyes.

“Are you sad?” ask the man again,

but instead of me answering, I just kept quiet while closing my eyes

enjoying the sea breeze is so very refreshing different in Jakarta

most of them are already filled with air pollution.

“Include my name Candra, whose name are you? Coincidentally

I'm here to be alone, too. I was decided by my lover

because my boyfriend prefers candidates chosen by his parents,”

said it.

I looked at him, and I looked into his eyes

it was as if his words were true and did not lie or fabricate, his eyes

also the sadness is so deep.

“Nesya, that's my name and you can call me Nes

or whatever you want to call me. Why is it so sad

aren't you a man who can get any woman at any time

according to your taste,” I said.

Candra just smiled wryly,”It's not that easy Nes,

I love him so much and we've planned everything, we've

we have been in a relationship for 8 years and our relationship has gone too far

why would he leave me so alone,” said Candra.

“Then what should you do next? If

the fact that your woman prefers her candidate chosen by her parents,”

my spoken.

“That's why I'm confused for now, to be honest

my mind is very messed up,” he said.

I looked at Candra and smiled,”Life in the world

it is fun for those who can overcome the problem but

not with me, Ndra, my life is much more complicated than what you've been through

right now, if you really love your woman then go after her

his parents and don't delay it I'm sure you can get through it all

this,” my words.

Candra who doesn't understand my problem just

gnashing his forehead,”Do you have a problem that is so aloof

inhere? Do I know your problem, sorry maybe this is presumptuous but who

know I can help you,” said Candra.

I shook my head,”The problem is very complicated

Ndra and if I tell you that it's too long. I was like running away from

my family and dealing with my problems alone here, to be honest, I'm very

feeling miserable, first I lost my son twice and secondly every

being in a relationship with someone I love that there is only failure,

I don't know if I'm confused too,” I said and smiled.

“Sorry if I confide in my problems to you, even though we

you have to be sure and your woman will believe you truly love

himself. Be the man in charge of Ndra, and I'm sure your age

it's easier than me and maybe you guys still have a long journey

before stepping into a more serious level try to talk about everything with

okay and later whatever the decision will make you feel satisfied

although not as you expect,” said me and my hand stretched out patting

his shoulders slowly.

It was late afternoon, I decided

to go back to the villa because I don't want Alex to come back later

villa will be looking for me. I walked quietly by the beach, because

more and more people come to see the sunset

this afternoon. A breeze blew against my body, I just hit

dress up to the knees with short sleeves until cold air begins to enter

into my body.

“If you go out have to wear a jacket

cold,” said someone and he also gave me his suit so I wouldn't

coldness. Yeah, who else if not Alex, out of nowhere she knows I exist

down here. Now Alex hugged my waist to get closer to him again.

“Where do you know if I am here?” my many.

“I'm a lot of spies dear so I can find out

where are you, why are you out alone anyway? Why don't you

ask to be with aunt,” said Alex.

I'm just shaking my head,”I want to be alone,

so I better go alone to enjoy the cool air on the beach,”

I said so, because honestly I'm still angry with Alex.

“Darling I'm sorry, don't be angry again dong,”

said Alex.

“You should first fix your relationship with

your family and Adeline Lex, I honestly don't want everything to be

it's a big deal and it's going to put my life back on as it was yesterday because it's honest

only I am still afraid of the incident at that time,” I said.

“Well if it wants you Nes, I'll do it

just so you can be next to me forever and not Adeline who is in

beside me,” he said.

“Whatever it is only God knows in the future Lex,

after all, if we are a match, we will still be united even though we are

far apart,” I said, and turned to Alex and tried to smile

to him.

I know exactly what I'm doing this is

my decision was a big mistake, somehow I accepted Alex when he asked

I'm engaged to this because I don't want to hurt Alex anymore

he's been good to me all along. This is how Alex

knowing I'm sure he'll also feel a lot of pain, forgive me

I'm the one I have to do and I'm gonna try to love him and

looking ahead if Alex's parents agree with this relationship then I will

stay married to her and throw my feelings on Rehan all this time

hurt me already.

“Nes, if one day I keep my promise then

promise me you won't leave me or come back together

jerk man, promise me Nes,” said Alex looking at me seriously, and

I can only nod.

“Yes, I promise I will never leave you

Lex, but if the opposite happens then accept it and never

Lex's sorry. Maybe it's our way of life,” I said, for some reason

I had a bad feeling about my relationship with Alex and I said

this is so that Alex will not misunderstand me or blame him

by oneself.

“Alright, maybe tomorrow I have to go to Jakarta

meet my parents and ask them to approve of our relationship, and you

here waiting,” he said happily, I tried to smile even though I

you can guess they'll never agree even if Alex squeaks in and

Alex will remain on the lookout for both of his parents.

It is true that people say that they are related to people

rich is always a lot of trouble to be faced, maybe because I just

an ordinary man who has nothing, Alex has everything

the difference between us has proven that we are not destined

joint. If that's my problem with Alex then my problem with Rehan first

because of his ex-wife, where Rehan re-married to him but I didn't

ever knew about it and it made me angry that no one even knew

telling me about it was all silent, even though I was already her fiance

isn't that outrageous.