Love is Not Finished

CHAPTER 64: Papa is Angry

As usual, I went home by bus.

During the trip, I took a nap covering my body with a Bram jacket.

When I got home, I went straight to my room. It felt so exhausting and heavy today for me.

I thought over and over and remembered what had happened since meeting Bram. Time seemed to pass so quickly, without pause for me to realize what had happened.

The old Zanu, so different from the present Zanu. I felt like I walked into a very different world with Bram.

It could be a wrong move that could be fatal and regretful. Bram's high-class life plus the spice gangster or mafia style, can endanger myself.

And am I living this just because of love?

Or because of just my own fear of one word loss?

Or am I still too early to know this? How do I get out of this zone, one that makes me comfortable but dangerous?

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I got out of bed and went downstairs. I saw Papa and Mama watching tv. This is my chance to talk.

"Father Mama, Zanu wants to talk seriously," I said very carefully.

"Yes son, what does Zanu want to say? About his college, huh? Or does Zanu need a car right away?" papa said.

I saw the look on my curious mother's face. I sat on the couch between Mom and Dad.

"Not that. Look Pa, Ma, there's this guy who likes Zanu so much, he's a final-level senior on campus. Name's Bram. In a few months he wants to graduate. After graduation, he went straight to America where his parents lived" I said, and kept quiet for a moment to see Papa and Mama's reaction.

"Cowok who stopped by our house that night, son?" ask Mama.

"Yes Ma. That's the man" I replied.

"Hhmmm, Mama, look at her nice and polite person,"

"Trus Zanu, go on," Papa said briefly.

"She, she's going to propose to Zanu Pa, if Papa Mama doesn't mind. Fiancee used to be okay too," I said with fear.

Huh!! My mom and dad were shocked when they heard my story.

"Zanu. You just finished High School, just entered college. It's not that Papa's willing not to date first, focus on college. Papa's making money isn't for you to date but let you be a person!" said Papa with a little anger.

"Pa, listen to Zanu's explanation first. Where has your relationship gone, son?" ask Mama in a soft voice.

"Not where Ma is, Zanu is still fine. But Zanu admitted, he was good with Zanu. The time is not right yet" I replied.

"Well, you know Zanu. Why ask us again? All men are so Zanu, good because there is a want. Anyway Papa doesn't want to know, you have to finish college first and work!" papa said still with his anger.

"Pa.., our Zanu is only conveying the wishes of the man. Yes, it's natural that Zanu asks us. That guy wants to marry our son Pa, not date us. Try it, Papa's got a good taste of Zanu's words," Mama defended me and it's true what Mama said.

"Yes Pa, he wants to marry Zanu. But if Papa doesn't accept it yet, he asks for a fiancee first. Let him be calm while he's in America" I tried to speak quietly and calmly.

"No fiancee Zanu! If later he turns out not your soul mate, Papa and Mama so embarrassed in the eyes of people. If he's really serious about you, he'll have to wait until you finish college and work. Then Papa will receive and give blessing, remember that Zanu! Set a good example for your sister!" papa said with his anger.

Papa stepped straight into his room. Maybe you should calm your mind first.

"Already Zanu, what your Papa said is true. We cannot give hope to others without certainty. Mama is sure, if she is a match with Zanu, surely she will come someday. But if not, then he'll go. And Zanu must open his heart to other men. Now just focus on your lecture, son," said my mother gave advice.

"Alright Ma.., but as long as he's still here, can Zanu walk with him?" my many.

"Hhmm, actually can't son. For fear of things happening that harm you as a woman. But if you can take good care of yourself and do nothing profane, that's okay. Just go but don't meet often" replied Mama.

It was good to hear what Mom said just now. Mama didn't hold me back too much but had to be able to limit herself.

"Thank you Ma,"

"Son, do you like that guy? Mama saw the guy was really nice. And saucy yes, ha.ha.ha." said Mama while joking.

"Ah Mom. You know what is cute. She's nice indeed Ma, but lately likes to be possessive. I don't know why he's like that. To be sure, Zanu really likes him Ma, hopefully he is the soul mate of Zanu ya Ma,"

"Aamiin, I hope he's the best for Zanu. Mama can only pray, only Zanu knows what the person is like. Mama also hopes your sister Zuri gets a good soul mate too, so Mama can be calm and not sad to see you suffer," said Mama Lirih.

"Mama don't be sad. Zanu will focus on college and work, so that he can live well and can take Mama Papa for a walk,"

"You don't think about Mama with Papa just yet. Think of your life ahead of Zanu, because this life is not as beautiful as we imagine. Especially after marriage, there are many things that we must pay attention to. Especially economic problems, it's the main trigger for the breakdown of one family. Later you will understand if you have started to grow up," said Mama again.

"Yes, Ma, Zanu already knows all of your advice. Just practice. Oiya, Bram's coming here tomorrow, Ma, take Zanu to Vincent's fiancee's show,"

"Huh?! Vincent was your ex, right? How soon to marry her? Why would Bram know Vincent?" ask Mama.

"The story of Ma. Tomorrow can Zanu go with Bram?" askaku.

"May, if you want to go anywhere, then" replied Mama.

"But permission to Papa how is Ma? Fear Papa does not want to give permission and even angry,"

"Later Mama will explain to Papa and persuade him. May Papa's heart soften a little,"

"OKAY. Thank you Ma. Zanu to the top first yes, want to prepare clothes for the party tomorrow," I said.

"His cool clothes are a little, so that Mama's children look beautiful and fit in Bram's clothing so no shame,"

"Mama, start again.., yes definitely wear nice clothes Ma," I replied as I moved up to the top floor.

Bram, I'm sorry. My parents didn't approve of any fiancee or marriage for us.

I hope you can wait until the time comes.

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