Love is Not Finished

CHAPTER 148: Hollow

"Alright Brother, Zanu first. Don't forget to tell me, brother, if you want to go to America later. Zanu tipped the letter, "my Faculty building is near.

"Yes Zanu, I'll go to your class if you don't meet somewhere else" replied Ibas.

I replied with a smile and felt my heart plump, relieved and happy. I can't wait to tell Bram about my daily life in the mail. And tell me about how much I miss him.

When I got to class, I sat in the back row. I don't know why my attention was on Ricard sitting in the front row. He did not seem to be reprimanding me or looking at me.

Maybe today he's badmood again.

Today's school went on as usual and again I don't have any friends. While in college, I was more alone. Not that arrogant or not willing to blend in with others, but already in the beginning I was always with Bram. So between me and my college friends don't know each other and they don't want to get close.

Maybe there are some of them who are upset to see my closeness with Bram. Or they don't want to disturb Bram's life and maybe they are keeping a distance from me because of the guard from Bram through his bodyguard. I don't know..

"Hei Zanu, you want to go home? I take yuk," said Ricard who suddenly was beside me.

I was shocked and confused as to what to answer.

"I'm sorry, I took Ricard's bus, I refused.

"Alright, I go first, yes" Ricard smiled and immediately walked ahead. There was not the slightest hint of disappointed look on his face.

I walked off campus to the stop. A few minutes later, the bus arrived. I went up and luckily there was still an empty bench.

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Arriving at the boarding house, I saw a foreign car parked in the garage. The main door of the living room was already open and there was a sound of laughter from within. I think positively thinking, there could be friends or family of boarding children who stop by. I hurried to walk into the hostel through the side door. My body and mind are tired.

Upon entering the kitchen, it was seen that Sasa came while carrying a tray of drinking water.

"Hei Zanu, how long have you been coming home?" Any additional courses?" ask Kak Sasa while putting the tray and wash your hands.

"No, my sister, today is a bit long lecture. Who's guest is it, brother?" I want to go to the stairs.

"That's Ricard, he told us that Mami came home this morning. Now he's at his house. It turns out that his son is cool too, we did not continue to hear the story," replied Kak Siska enthusiastically. It seems he was happy with the presence of Ricard.

"Oiya already duli Kak, Zanu wants to go to the room. Tired of the body, maybe another catch of the wind,"

"Zanu, tomorrow our plan is to go to Mami's house. You come, yes" asked Siska.

"Okay, look at Zanu's lecture schedule. If you clash, sorry you can't follow" I replied.

"Okay, it's okay,"

I set my foot to go upstairs. There was still laughter from friends with Ricard who was in the living room.

Arriving at the room, I put the bag down and immediately lay down on the mattress. It feels relieved to be able to pamper this body on a soft mattress.

I remember the family in Prn. I miss feeling like I wanted to meet. Two days later I was able to return home.

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I woke up at five o'clock in the afternoon. I set foot to go to the bathroom for ablution, then pray ashar.

After praying, taking a shower and changing clothes, I went downstairs to the kitchen to get some drinking water.

"Hei Zanu, did you fall asleep? Earlier Ricard nanyain you know," said Kak Rosi who suddenly entered the kitchen. He picked up the glass near me standing.

"Yes Kak, today the terrace is tired. The body wants to sleep. Ricard's home?" ask pleasantries. I already know that Ricard has come home because there is no more joyous sound boarding boy.

"It has. Oiya, tomorrow's the plan we all want to visit Mami at her house. We agreed to go there at four in the afternoon. Mami's house is not too far from here, so we can just walk," Rosi took the drinking water in the teapot.

"Okay, look at Zanu tomorrow. Today it feels bad, "I replied.

"Yes Zanu, it's okay. Hopefully tomorrow you can come along, get well soon, yes" Rosi passed while carrying a glass of drinking water.

I also took the water and brought it to the front porch through the side door. The swimming pool is always empty. Remembering my memories with Prita who once chatted and swam in the pool. Not expecting now to have passed and it will not be possible to repeat itself.

I sat on the front porch and drank water while looking out. Angkot, buses and public vehicles are busy back and forth outside the fence boarding Mami. Remembering Bram who led me to this front porch, chatting and waiting. The memories are still sharp in my mind. The more you remember, the more sad it becomes. Plus Bram had no communication with me today.

Why doesn't Bram call me anymore? Did something happen? Or is he trying to forget me?

On the day of entering the magrib, I went straight into the boarding house and waited for the Adhan in the room. Lately I have been lazy to interact with others, feeling my heart is still empty.

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Time changes, day after day has passed with the same routine every day between the boarding house and campus. I couldn't go see Mami, because there was a group assignment off campus. I didn't see Ricard on campus either.

The day I was waiting to come, I went home to the city of Prn. As usual, Papa picked me up at the terminal.

"How was Zanu son's lecture?" ask my dad while driving.

"Alhamdulillah good Pa. Yesterday Zanu had a group assignment off campus. It turns out exciting too, a lot of knowledge that Zanu can get from there," answered me enthusiastically.

"What task is that?" ask Papa again.

"To Lawyer Pa's office, looking for criminal data and solutions to handle the case. Zanu got case data on premeditated murder,"

"Ih spooky. Was Zanu not afraid of handling that? Not to mention the strange case," Papa shuddered at my words.

"No Pa, will be accompanied by a Lecturer. Later we are given the freedom to argue as long as we can answer questions from lawyers. If our answer is wrong or not in accordance with the contents of the criminal law, the lawyer immediately explained including the solution. Make Zanu even mengasikkan Pa, the brain so honed and become a cool challenge,"

"Well, while Zanu said it was safe, Papa was supportive. Oiya, how's Bram doing? Have you been to America?" asked my father to switch the conversation.

The deg! What do I answer to Papa? There was no word from Bram who had been there for almost a week.

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