Love is Not Finished

CHAPTER 21: Stop by

The hot sun stings my skin.

The third day is finished. It's time to go home to each other's place.

Prita and I walked towards the bus stop, passing by the side street of the Rectorate building. I accidentally saw that Chairman with Sari again. I don't know what else they're talking about.

I walked stealthily behind Prita's body, so as not to be seen or seen by Bram.

My guess turned out to be wrong. Bram looked and called me. Ouch...!

"Zanu! Come here for a minute!" shout Bram.

I even accelerated my footsteps and left Prita behind.

"Zanu, you're called Chief tuh!" said Prita.

I shut up and keep walking. Frankly, I can't see Bram with that Sari. Don't know why, it's better to avoid it.

Bram didn't stay still, he chased and pulled my hand.

"Zanu! I've been calling you, why are you silent?!" bram said in a slightly upset tone.

"What else is the Chairman?! Ospek is done, so no more campus arrangements are applied outside ospek hours! I'll shut up or go!" I don't know why I'm so mad at Bram.

"You why Zanu? I'm just calling you, because there's something I want to talk about" replied Bram who was confused by my attitude and speech.

"Yes!! The chairman wants to talk about the girl, right? I told you, I don't want to deal with this anymore. After all, what does this have to do with you guys?! I'm just a junior who just went to college, nothing more!" I said with a trembling voice.

Zanu! What's wrong with you, wake up Zanu. Don't be ashamed, ouch! Go home, Zanu, do not continue again. The sound of my heart eases a little of the emotions I've already poured out.

I'm silent for a moment.

Why am I so angry with him? Bram's not my girlfriend. And not necessarily he called me to discuss the girl?

I was ashamed and wanted to drown myself. Then I walked quickly and ran away leaving Bram, Prita and the girl there.

I've arrived at the bus stop. Luckily I found the bus immediately and thankfully there was still an empty bench. I sat down and thoughtfully remembered the incident just now.

Suddenly my tears shed on their own.

It's strange! Why do I shed tears? What's wrong with me?

I was afraid of losing. Maybe it's because I once felt lost with the person I never had, my brother.

And that feeling seemed to repeat itself when I met Bram.

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Not waiting for a long time, finally the bus arrived at the next stop. I got off and walked to the boarding house.

Arriving at the boarding house, I headed straight for my room on the second floor. Then I fell on the bed and my hand reached for the blue diary on the table.

Write,

Bang, if only you were still around, I would like to tell you again about what is going on in my life.

I found a figure similar to Brother, his name is Bram. I didn't want to go near her, but fate always brought me and Bram together over and over again. I don't want to know her, because I'm afraid of losing her again.

I closed the diary and went to sleep.

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Geck! Geck! Geck!

"Zanu! Zanu! Open the door dong,"

Prita's voice was behind my door. I sat down for a while and walked a little further towards the door.

Then I opened the door. Prita barged in. Prita's breath was panting, as if something was happening.

"Zanu, why did you go first? I live alone, it's not good to know the atmosphere," said Prita.

"I'm sorry Prita, I didn't mean that. I don't know, I had mixed feelings and all I could do was just go away from there. Once again I'm sorry Prita," I said.

"Alright Zanu, this time I'm sorry for you. If there's anything you can confide in me. So in the future I can understand that suddenly there is something unexpected about your attitude,"

"Thank you Prita. For now, I can't tell you anything. About the Chairman, I was just in a dilemma. To start a story I don't know,"

"Yes it's okay. Oiya, there's the Chairman waiting for you in the living room. You meet first,"

I'm shocked! Why is Bram here? Did he want to talk about that? Or is he angry?

There are a lot of questions in my head.

"Already Zanu, you meet the Chairman first. About what he wants to talk about later, you just answer. When do you want to keep avoiding?" said Prita.

I nodded and went to the wardrobe. I changed the ospek's clothes with a shirt. I trim my hair and distinguish thin on my face so as not to look tangled.

"Well that's dong, and and little let the Chairman become more like you, hi.hi.hi..," Prita started teasing me.

"No, I want to talk about something. It has nothing to do with me. I'll help you make a drink later, "tankis Prita.

"alright. But promise don't tempt me in front of the Chairman,"

"Calm down, you solve the problem first. Let's go down,"

I nodded and walked out of the room with Prita. After coming down the stairs, I went straight to the living room and Prita to the kitchen.

I saw Bram sitting there calling someone with his cell phone. I heard Bram talking about coconuts and chocolate plants.

He suddenly looked at me. Reflex he instantly turned off the phone.

"Hi Zanu's. Are you all right?" bram said with a soft voice greeting me.

"Alhamdulillah is fine, Chief," I replied without looking at him.

"Sorry about that. I'm mistaken. Because it doesn't immediately explain what I meant to call you earlier," Bram said to the point.

"Oh yes, Chairman, it's okay" I replied flatly.

"You can't, off campus don't call me Chairman?" ask Bram.

I nodded and sat directly in front of him.

"Zanu, I called you, because I wanted to take you home. I just wanted to meet you with my friend. So that in the future he does not expect much to approach me continuously. All this time he's been roaring to and fro and threatening anyone who comes near me. I'm uncomfortable and don't like it that way" Bram sighed for a moment.

"So, with you, the problem can be solved. I can calm down and live my days without any more burden. Because beyond this, there's a lot more work to be done even off campus,"

Silent mood. I saw Bram talking very seriously and wanted to say something behind the look in his eyes.

"Trus, am I just a shield to solve Brother's problem? We just got to know Kak and I was just in college. It also still follows ospek," I said with the courage to explain my current position.

"Yes, I know that. I want you to be a part of my life. I want to always see you. I don't know, for sure I liked you from the beginning we met," said Bram Lirih.

OMG!! Did he just express his feelings? Does he really like me? Does that mean we're going out?

I'm surprised I'm not playing. And I have a lot of questions in my head.

How could he, he like me?

Relax Zanu! You don't be tacky, just listen to her explanation.

"Maybe it's too soon for you. But, will you be my girlfriend?"

Bram looked at my face and at the same time looked into my eyes in an unusual way.

The deg! I was panicking and nervous.

What answer should I tell Bram? Why so fast? Ouch...

"How is Zanu, will you accept me?" ask Bram expectantly.

I'm rattled. I was confused by my own feelings. What answer would I give to Bram? I don't want him to be disappointed and I don't want to lose him either.

God please...

"Zanu's? What was? Is something wrong?" ask Bram again.

"No, nothing's wrong. It's just it's too sudden and I need time. It's hard to explain. It's also if you want to accept and hear my story later" I replied.

"alright. Its alright. Even if you don't accept me, it doesn't matter, even if I feel sad. But, allow me to always be able to see you. And I'll listen to whatever your story is later" said Bram melow..

"Yes, sorry. I also could not date when I was in college, but did not know what the future was like," I replied.

At first glance, I remember Vincent. Yup! Vincent also likes me and there was a feeling of guilt when I broke off the relationship. Will my story repeat itself?

I don't want to lose anymore.

"Oke Zanu, I understand and understand. Let us go like this. Just flowed. But, can I be sure, you like me too right?" ask Bram.

"Yes" I answered briefly.

"Thank God, that one word alone is enough to make me feel relieved. Thank you Zanu,"

Bram smile. It looks happy on his face. And I'm also relieved to say "Yes", even if it's just one word.

"Alright Zanu, I go home first. Sorry about that again. Can I take you home once?"

"Yes, brother, may be," I replied while bowing in shame.

"Bye Zanu,"

Bram stepped out and I drove him to the front porch. He got on his bike and looked at me for a moment with a smile.

She passed until she disappeared from my sight.

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