LOVE AND CERTAINTY

LOVE AND CERTAINTY
Accepting the Reality



After a few days of school, today was my first day off alone. Nurul did not go to school because he was sick. And today coincides with the parent/pupil guardian meeting.


So that students and teachers are free from teaching and learning.


While waiting for the meeting to end, I went to the school backyard. There's a little hut covered in straw. Facing to the north with a blue mountain view.


I walked towards that hut.


The atmosphere of silence created, reminded me of the incident this morning.


The incident where I just entered this gate. Seeing my friends walking side by side with their parents. I just walk alone. Because my mom was late for school. He must first ask his employer for permission to work.


I don't feel my tears dripping down my little cheeks.


"Why do you have to split up?


Maybe, if you guys are together, my mom doesn't have to bash her bones at work. From early morning to late afternoon. Dad, why the hell did you leave us, and divorce my mom?" while I was crying.


"Do you not think, if your actions are, I am the victim," grumbling with my frustration.


"I hurt Dad, I hurt Mom, it hurts my heart to see other people happy with their parents. Sometimes I'm tired mom, after tired of going home from school I have to work again until almost night," still sobbing.


Indeed, after father left us, I had to fight hard to help mother meet our needs. Sufficient my school fees. Even though I got a scholarship, but there are also many needs of my school that must be purchased. Finally, I decided to work at my uncle's place after school.


Suddenly there was a helping hand giving her handkerchief.


"Zen," I said in shock.


"From when he's here," my mind spoke.


"Remove your tears. Ugly knows that you are crying," Zen smiled as he sat next to me.


Why indeed? If I don't cry, I'm beautiful. You usually look at me full of strange looks. But he smiled at me, right? The heart of Diana.


"Hey, I'm sorry I heard all you said" said Zen, looking straight ahead.


She had actually been sitting from earlier behind this hut, yet Diana was unaware of its existence.


"You should be grateful. Don't blame the situation,"


zen suddenly.


" Yes, sorry..." While showing a face teasing him. And gave her warm smile.


I was embarrassed too. Since when was she nice to me, smile sweetly at me. Except, when it happened at the workshop last time. And he just laughed at me.


"Can... I talk?" said later.


I just nodded.


"To my knowledge, when a couple split up. That means they are no longer compatible in running the household," he said calmly.


"And if the relationship continues, it will hurt each other for the feelings of both. So did your mom and dad."


I'm speechless. Justifying what Zen said.


"Didn't they think about my broken feelings?" many enthusiast.


"Hey, relax. It's not just your heart as a child that feels hurt. But, for both parents, it is also hard to make this decision. Who the hell wants a divorce, everyone dreams of getting married only once in a lifetime" he said, breathing out.


"Happy to be with a partner for the rest of his life, that is the ideal of everyone. No one would deny that.


But if God has another will, and there is no match in it, what is it to defend?"


Zen looked at me as if asking.


Like a hard slap to myself. "What's possible?" remembering something. I once caught my mother shedding her tears. But he was trying hard in front of me. "So, he's also sick of getting through all this."


Suddenly Zen raised my head.


"Well, wakefulness. Your mother was also ill in this decision. Try to be proud of both your parents.


Don't challenge the child from a broken home, you're a broken kid" he looked at me with a smile.


"You must be vigorous, strong as a rock. Sturdy as the triple cement, strong, sturdy and tough. hahaa.." laughed as he raised his hands in encouragement.


I can only give a smile, while raising my hand also shows my spirit. And accept all reality with sincerity.


Seriate...