LOVE AND CERTAINTY

Expressing Feelings

"Sorry, Brother Tania. Brother can be sure, if between me and Zen there is nothing. We're just limited... Guys!" my words demonstrated when Zen said a friend to me.

"Yes, isn't it Zen?" I want to make sure of my feelings.

Two different faces appear. Tania looks happy with what I said. As for Zen, he looked disappointed with what I said.

But why is he disappointed, it is true that he only considers me a friend.

"Is there something wrong with my words?" it was my mind that felt strange when Zen's hand even pulled my hand violently. He was like he was angry with me.

Then, I took me away from Tania who seemed to be excited to hear my status with Zen.

"After coming home, I'll wait for you in the back hut of the school!" tell Zen to me. He spoke while continuing to pull my hand behind him.

"You what?" ask me who is still hesitant to see him later or not.

I walk like a man who makes a mistake, every eye that looks at my hand is pulled by Zen, as if assuming I am the troublemaker.

"Get your hands off!" my orders to Zen. Instantly our footsteps stopped.

Suddenly, the entrance bell rang.

I ran ahead of Zen without looking back.

***

I went through lesson after lesson in the first hour. Although there had been some lesson chapters left behind, fortunately yesterday afternoon I borrowed Nurul's book and copied it carefully.

After the first hour of study was over, it was time to rest.

I decided to enjoy the coolness of the park while finishing my food.

Beside me, Nurul was enjoying her snacks that she bought earlier from the canteen.

From a distance, Adrian and Zen were sitting on a park bench.

Adrian smiled at me as I looked at them. Though I mean, I want to enjoy staring at the charm of the Iceman from a distance.

"Haha... Iceman!" it was still very amused when I said it.

Unexpectedly without me noticing, Adrian was already sitting tight in front of me.

"Diana, do you want to be my girlfriend?" adrian surprised me. Without further ado, she told me love.

"Uhukk ..uhukk.." I choked on my food. Again I was made to smile clumsy with the behavior of Adrian.

I was very uncomfortable with Adrian. Especially next to me, Nurul was paying attention to this incident. Nurul's face looks very disappointed with what Adrian said to me, like holding back his tears that will flow.

I often feel the situation as it is now. Adrian's attitude is excessive to me, especially when I was with Nurul or Zen.

But this time it's far beyond the limit, it's far more risky than my friendship with Nurul.

I tried to make sure to Nurul with my head.

However, Nurul only gave a disappointed smile to me.

Added Zen's glare fluttering from a distance. As if he didn't want to miss a word that came out of Adrian's mouth.

It's true what Zen told me, when I was having lunch with Zen. He once said that Adrian is the type of man who is easy to express his feelings.

"Douh... How is this?" my mind is worried about this situation.

"Haha..you're kidding me, Adrian." I laughed trying to melt the gripping atmosphere.

"We want to be attacked by a tiger, pake gripping! haha" Author.

"Well, author doesn't understand so I am!" Diana.

"Yes, I've never been there!" Authors.

Hihi...why is the Author so confiding?😅

Resume...

"Seriously, In. I like you, I like your personality. I fell in love when..."

Not even Adrian finish his words, I immediately cut it.

"Already, Adrian. We're still in school, we still have a future we have to achieve. My passion was only to achieve my ideals and dreams" I subtly rejected Adrian.

"I'm more comfortable being a friend and best friend to you, Adrian.

One day you will find the best person to be your friend.

At present, our obligation is only to study seriously, in order to get a bright future so that we can be happy and happy for the people we care about," I reminded Adrian.

Adrian looks down because he may feel disappointed and embarrassed by all the words I said.

Adrian realized that all this time, he was playing too much with the heart of women.

He was too arrogant, because he felt proud to have conquered many women. In fact, the real obligation as a student is to learn and learn.

Because life is not just for playing. But it takes a struggle to get real happiness.

Because the next lesson hours will start soon.

I saw the look on Nurul's face that looked slightly pleased. Maybe, I feel relieved because I rejected Adrian.

Adrian was like that too, it seemed like he could understand why I rejected him.

"So my wish came up, to be able to unite Adrian and Nurul, yes!" my thinking.

My matchmaker soul is out! hehe Diana's

***

After today finished teaching and learning in my class, finally the time that was waiting to go home arrived.

"Diana, come with me!" zen's command as it passed left me and Nurul who were packing the textbooks today.

"Nur, you go home first, yes. I have some business to do first" I told Nurul.

"You don't papa, Di. Should I go home alone?" ask Nurul to worry about me.

"No papa, really. I must be fine.

I'm sorry, I can't go home with you" I assured Nurul.

Nurul finally went home alone.

Meanwhile, I set my foot where Zen asked for it this morning.

After reaching the hut behind the school, I saw Zen standing staring at the mountains that looked beautiful from a distance.

I sat in that hut, right behind Zen.

"Zen, I have to go home. I have to work!" I said find a reason to avoid this meeting.

"I asked for permission from Brother Fadly. Don't look for unimportant excuses!" zen replied as if knowing my heart would find excuses through my work.

Finally, I just sat sweetly behind Zen, with no more rebuttal coming out of my mouth.

"Can you wait for me?" Zen began his serious conversation with me, but still stood behind me.

"I'm still waiting for you, too" I replied innocently.

"I mean, I want you to take care of your heart just for me. I know you love me, right?" zen asked as he turned his body then looked at me very fixedly.

"What?" I was surprised by what Zen suddenly said.

"Zen, I realize who I am. I won't expect more from you. Time and time again I've gotten reassurance from you, you just think of me as a friend right, Zen?" I made sure to Zen.

"No, Diana," said Zen and sat down beside me.

"I said it just to keep my feelings. I want to have you at the right time. Tied you up at the time you should. I only want to be with you when Ijab Qobul is spoken" Zen explained to me.

"What the hell, Zen. That's the adult's talk," I said trying to cover up my pleasure because it turned out my love was avenged.

"I'm serious, Diana. I thought I'd say it later after we graduated. But hearing Adrian express his feelings, I felt like I didn't want to lose you" Zen said, holding both of my hands.

"After Zen, did you hear what I said to Adrian?" my elak still doesn't want to show my true feelings.

"Again, I know how you'll be paired with Tania."

The deg!

Zen was not expecting Diana to know about this match.

"But that's just a plan, Di," persuaded Zen so I could accept the reason.

"I don't want my father to rule my life.

I try not to express my feelings, because I don't want your name in my heart. I just want to be close to you as your most beautiful friend. And become your priest after the Lord gives His blessing."

"You mean?" I am the only one who does not understand Zen's words.

"Yes, I chose to be close to you without status, not that I was just giving you false hope. But, I'm afraid this love is just a mere monkey love. That can change when this heart is bored" Zen reassured me.

"You know that I've never had a relationship with a woman?" ask Zen.

I just nodded, because I knew, "Who the hell doesn't know Zen's cold attitude?" my inner.

"Yes, it's because I just want to keep one name in my heart. I just want to write your name in the depths of my heart.

Being the first and last love in my love journey" Zen said.

I was just pensive, remembering the events of today.

"When I am ordinary, neither is beautiful. But why would two men at once express their feelings on the same day again!" my inner.

"Di, will you wait for me until I finish my studies?" Zen asked me again.

"I....."

Seriate...