LOLLIPOPS

LOLLIPOP 47

...Hold tight to those who are dear, for when it is time to let go, there is nothing we can do but let go....

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"April! You go out first dong. Granted Om's explanation first." persuaded Om Sammy to knock on my door for a number of times. He just drove Karin to his apartment.

I'm still tight-lipped.

I've never been this angry with her. I trusted him so much. There was not the slightest bit of suspicion from me for him.

And what did I find?

The man had a girlfriend in Germany.

Is it because we're bloodless and there's no way we can be together, and then Sammy's free to play me? Invited me to date as long as my parents weren't here.

Meaning what?

Could it be that he thought of myself as just a distraction to her?

He only needs women as long as his girlfriend is far away?

And stupidly, I was so easy to play with his fake love!

I know, there's nothing I can expect from our forbidden relationship. But at least, I did not ruin the sincerity of my love with betrayal . I really can't accept this.

Why isn't he honest?

"Pril, plis open the door!"

Only silence is created. I'm lazy to respond to Om Sammy's rant.

"Om knows you definitely don't want to listen to Om's explanation. But Om will keep saying. Karin is indeed Om's girlfriend but indeed since a long time our relationship has no clarity, Om has no longer loved him for a long time. Many times Om has asked to break up from him, but he always threatens to kill himself. At first Om thought he was just threatening, but it turned out that he was really reckless to do that. He tried to cut his veins. That's what makes Om finally unable to leave him. Om is now looking for a way to get away from him.. That's why I came and lived in Indonesia.. Nor did he expect he would......."

"There's no point in explaining all that" as I said from the inside.

My eyes were blurred by tears. This reality..... Why is it so quick to wake me up from my dream!

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That night I went back to my contract. I saw my friends busy with their phones. Ratih must be chatting with his Boss, Sinta must be with Rafael his girlfriend, while Grace I don't know the woman is still difficult to find a date he said. Looking at them, made the corner of my heart sob again. Our Love Stories are equally complicated, but at least they still have a gap to be together. While me?

Luck is again getting away from me. When is it my turn, Lord? Do I not deserve to be happy?

Who's this house guy I can ask for advice?

"Hey you guys are all together but busy by yourself. Yes, people say, hape it can make the far so close and the near so far" I said

"Where are you from Pril, back and forth like that BT kayak." said Sinta.

"How's your dear Sammy Om doing?" grace Syndicate.

I wanted to cry, I wanted to tell a story. But it feels free..... This pain I'm looking for, I want it. Everything from the start was wrong, and I knew it would eventually hurt like this

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