LOLLIPOPS

LOLLIPOP 37

My lips whistled, finally all the flavors that had been developing in my heart came out already. Relieved? For sure. My heart felt lighter, the burden of feeling that I had been keeping out like a boom of time. I don't need what Om Sammy thinks of me. What I believe in and what I understand my love for her has taken over my whole heart and mind. For that I choose to bring it all out in front of the owner of my heart.

Be detested?

Chastised?

I don't give a shit. All I know is I have to be true to my heart and to her.

"April," his speech stopped

I felt the tip of his fingers touch my face, wiping the tears on both my cheeks.

"I'm sorry Om.... Should be able to keep your distance. But Om is also helpless."

Deg

Whatdoes thatmean?

I lifted my face, looked into the eyes of the man. Sammy looked at me and closed his eyes, he looked very frustrated.

"Om.." call me soft

"Om to admit, if Om's attention is too excessive. Om also realized that it was not a reasonable form of attention for his ponakannya." cut it.

My eyes widened, still with a single tear in both of my eyes.

Does that mean......

"Om don't know since when did you start to go deeper into Om's heart. But.... You managed to make Om comfortable to be next to you" he said.

Deg

"Om, so?"

The man laughed awkwardly then covered his face with his palm. He looks a lot more fucked up than I am.

"It should be more mature for this. However, just like you it feels so claustrophobic. Om also loves you Pril, not as Ommu, but as a man loves a woman."

I closed my mouth with my fingers. Hearing Om Sammy's words automatically my eyes blurred by tears. When I want to throw away this feeling, I really want to get rid of it. But...... Now then?

What should I do if I know the man I love has the same feelings?

My logic continued to rebel when suddenly my heart was moved and this body approached it and embraced it.

Lord, let me enjoy this feeling with her.

Really, hearing his expression was like finding a cure as well as a poison in this heart wound. I am happy and painful at the same time.

I hugged her tightly!

"Pril, but we can't be together. You're Om's nephew. Anyone would not approve of our relationship "

"April, we......" Sammy tried to let go of my embrace.

"Of! Please, forget that reality first. Let me have Om, even if only for tonight." cut me back sobbing.

"April....."

Om Sammy tightened his hold and gently kissed my forehead. I can only enjoy the touch of his lips. He stuck it on long enough. Until I could feel his breath in my crown.

Please God stop the time for us.

"Om dear to you, Pril.." whispered

"April is also dear Om, very dear Om.." I said no less slowly.

We hugged each other tighter. I felt my tears getting wet on my cheeks.

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"April.jp..."

I heard a baritone voice call my name. I want to be scared but my throat feels stuck. My energy just evaporated. Even opening my eyelids is not easy.

"April.." The voice was heard again. This time my body was shaken.

I slowly opened my eyes. Glare light hit my eyes through the cracks of the walls of this cottage.

My head feels heavy. I don't know what happened, the last I know I was still in Om Sammy's arms. Huh uh?

Am I dreaming?

"Pril.." call him again.

"Om, april why?"

"You're hot, let's get out of this cabin" said Sammy in a panic.

I'm not able to respond to anything. He really looks panicked. The man took me and took me out of the cottage.

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