Like Rubbish

Impersonated me.

We have now reached my house. I said my greetings and mother immediately approached while answering my greetings. The door is open. Mom was half shocked to see me coming home with Mr. Doni.

This is the first time I've brought a man home.

I let Mr. Doni in. The three of us sat on a carpet.

I'll introduce Mr. Doni to mom. They seem to throw smiles at each other.

We ate together and afterwards we talked.

"Sorry, Mr. Doni, we're going home for the first time but we can't welcome you very well." Say mother.

"No problem mom. Please just call me Doni, I'm not good."

"Well, son of Doni. Thank you very much for being kind to the Saints, take all the food with you again."

"Sama-sama Ma'am. That's not how good."

The Maghrib Adhan. We pray together, Mr. Doni as his priest. It feels very different, the prayers I usually do become more beautiful and delicious. But thankfully, that warmth did not disturb my specialness. It actually increases the enjoyment when carrying it out.

Finished praying together, Mr. Doni also paid his way home. It felt empty when the man left this house. Could he have already taken this heart ?

***

When Sunday greeted, Mr. Doni invited me and my mother to go outside for a walk. He took us to a beautiful garden. After that we were taken to the mall to shop.

I had subtly rejected it, but again the man was pushy.

I look so happy with Mr. Doni's special treatment of him. It seems that Mr. Doni has also managed to take the heart of mother.

I am happy to see my loved ones so close.

As time went on, I also admired the figure of Mr. Doni. Perhaps this sense of awe has turned into a feeling of love. But I realize, I feel very low if I have to be juxtaposed with a Mr. Doni. That man is so perfect that while I, I do not deserve him at all.

Satisfied with walking, shopping and eating, Mr. Doni also drove us home. He stopped by first and we talked.

"Mom actually I want to propose to Saints to be my wife." Suddenly Mr. Doni put out words that worked to keep me and mom fixated.

"I love my mother's son very much. I'm sure Saints can be the right companion for me."

"Mother is very happy if son Doni can be mother's daughter-in-law. But I leave all the decisions to the Saints." Obviously mother.

Mr. Doni turned his eyes to me, as if asking for an answer.

"You answer when you're ready." Mr. Doni is very wise and understanding.

He was also pleased. Inside my bedroom my mind was still floating and spinning. What should I do ? I'm honestly very happy with Mr. Doni's proposal. But like I said, I feel unworthy of him. I'm a dirty woman. Mr. Doni is so good, he should have gotten the best woman anyway.

Three days later, the night as usual Mr. Doni came to my house again. I said that I made a decision.

I spoke to her four eyes, mother deliberately entered the room so that I could freely discuss the application issue.

"Sorry sir. I cannot accept my father's proposal. I'm really sorry."

"But the reason why ? I'm sure you also have special feelings for me."

"I don't deserve my father. I'm a dirty woman."

"What do you mean ?"

I take a deep breath. I decided to be honest with him. The rest I just let go. Not that I want to open disgrace, but Mr. Doni is entitled to know.

"Actually, I'm no longer a virgin. I am so dirty, so dirty. You should marry a good woman." I tried hard when I explained it.

Mr. Doni was silent for a moment.He seemed to think. He also breathed.

"Thank you for being honest." Mr. Doni paused his sentence.

"I didn't choose wrong. I will continue to marry you Saints."

"Listen to you sir. I haven't told you all about my past. You should know right from me, from A to Z. I used to say.." I haven't finished talking, Mr. Doni cut it.

"That's enough. I don't want to know your past that much. For me, you have dared to be honest like this, I am happy. I am proud that you are a good woman. I'm still determined to propose to you. Do you want to marry me Saints ?" mr. Doni has firmly asked me to return.

What a beautiful word that comes from his lips. Makes me calmer. Without thinking, I accepted his proposal.

"alright. I'm willing, sir." I answered with complete confidence.

"Alhamdulillah. From now on, call me. We'll be married soon." Mr. Doni threw his sweet smile.

"Good on." I also returned it.

Right now I feel like I am the happiest woman.