Like Rubbish

Painful.

Indah had picked up her mother and also Sharif to live with her according to Toso's orders. Actually the two in-laws Sharif did not mind if his son-in-law and his besi live with them but Indah insisted on bringing her mother and sister. After all, Sharif and Bu Ayu would not want to bother Syarif's parents-in-law.

"Why did the Saints go home and not tell mom ?" there was a sorrow on Bu Ayu's face.

"Have not disturbed the Holy Mother again, will she now have a husband." Lovely deliberately hid the embarrassing incident from her mother.

"But my mother's feelings aren't calm ? I'm just afraid something might happen to you."

"That's just mom's feelings. I'm sure Mbak Suci wouldn't do anything about Doni's mas loving him so much."

"But mother here will definitely add to your and Toso's burden. Plus Sharif will also trouble you."

"Don't feel awkward. My husband is also a very nice person even though he seems to be judes. He himself told his mother and Sharif to stay in this house. I also want to take care of my mother and sister. Did you forget that I love you too ?" hugged his mother tightly.

Do you think only your favorite children love my mother and sister ? me and Toso are also able to take care of you. And not only Doni who has a good daughter-in-law predicate. My husband is no less good than the husband of the saint.

There is envy in another corner of the heart Beautiful.

***

Saints have prepared as perfectly as possible to welcome the return of Doni. Make her husband's favorite food and dress up pretty.

Warmly welcome the Doni mas and provide the best service so that his mood is calmer. That way I can get him to talk carefully and explain everything to Doni's mas. That's what I have to do.

With full confidence the Saints devised a plan to restore Doni's good side and improve their relationship.

But until the sun hides, Doni does not come home. Though usually at least 5 pm already at home.

The saint continued to wait until he finally fell asleep on the sofa room. At midnight, Doni went home.

He also came home.

Doni glanced at his sleeping wife. There is no guilt or pity for the Saints. Only anger leads to the hatred that is in Doni's heart right now. Such is the name of man sometimes his feelings and thoughts can change over time.

Doni entered the bathroom and when he came out of there he saw his wife was up on the sofa.

"I'm sorry I fell asleep I just realized you came home from hearing water." Saints smiled but Doni didn't care.

Finished changing clothes Doni lying on the bed did not greet his wife first. It was as if there was no one else in the room. The saint immediately approached and sat down next to him.

"Mas laper ? I was in my favorite mas but surely now it's cold, let me first angetin yes mas." Touching Doni's hand and getting pushed away again.

"For a moment, my mother." Trying not to put into the heart what Doni has done.

The saint was about to stand up however....

"Not to ! I've eaten."

"If so now take a break. I won't bother you anymore."

"What does Toso really say ?" asking but not talking.

"Mas...That toso has slandered me. I never once seduced him. On the contrary, it was he who did this to me."

"That's why I don't have to ask anymore. I already know the facts because I saw it myself."

"But what you see is not a fact that actually happens. I'm be..."

"Have you ever been a comfort woman ? sell a moment's love to every man who comes ?" asking by crucifying the Holy Word.

Sacred speechless. Not unwilling to answer but feeling uncomfortable remembering his past.

"Answer !" he sat and looked at his wife.

"That means it is true..hahaha !!! you're very good at hiding your true identity."

Suci was now staring at Doni's laughing yet contemptuous face for him.

"But that was before. I've now changed and want to bury deep in my past." Vegetation in his words.

"Why would I be interested in a woman like you ? why didn't you ever tell me about this ?"

"Did you remember the time before I accepted your application ? I've wanted to tell you all about my life and my past but I didn't want to hear and say that I would accept. Is all that just bullshit ?" already glazed.

"You mean it's all my fault ? but it's true too.I was wrong ! I'm a fool because I might want to marry you. But I never thought that you were such a dirty woman. I thought you did it with a guy you liked not for the money ! and that's so gross !"

Doni screaming.

"Sorry, maybe it's my fault because I'm shameless. A lowly woman like me shouldn't get a man like a mas." It's been crying tears.

"I'm disgusted at you Saints ! you're a dirty woman. You know rubbish ? that's how you look in my eyes now." Get out of bed and leave the Saints.

Brakkk !!! the door was closed very loudly signifying Doni's growing anger.

Sacred fell silent and only her tears spoke explaining all the sorrow and deep wounds in her heart. He hugged it tightly to give him a place to complain. At least even though it was an inanimate object but Saints felt that someone was accompanying him when facing pain.

Like shit.

It's not the first time I've heard those words. But when the person I love who says it then sounds multiplied more slicing hearts. I was dirty and despicable but now I want to change. Didn't you see it Doni's mason ?

With the flow of memories from the past, it reappeared in the Sacred mind.

He shouldn't have decided to continue working with the venomous woman. At least now maybe Doni won't insult him. But regret did come later he never thought it would be like this.

For 5 years Sacred was trapped in that black world. Accompanying the beautiful men whether it is still single or already married. Deliberately checking himself with liquor to make it easier to carry out his work. Still, when he realized regret and self-loathing was always haunting. But the shadow of his family and his father's debt compels him to keep choosing the despicable job.

He wanted to stop, but there was a lot of doubt in his heart.

If you stop and try to change it is useless because most people will still look down on it. Better just keep going. That was the beginning of his thinking but as time rolled he was getting more and more steady to get out of blasphemy. Especially when his mother found out and immediately lay in the Hospital, Suci was increasingly convinced by his decision.

"Mr Santi I want to quit this job. Mom is in a lot of pain and needs me." Saints ventured to make their point.

"What ? don't you really need money ?"

"Everybody needs money. I want to make money for my family. Maybe I'll try selling or applying at the store or whatever as long as it's halal."

"Wouldn't that not pay enough for your father's debts ?"

"The debt is a little more. I'm sure I can pay for it later even without having to work here."

Santi thought long enough.

"Well, but on this last night you're working, then all the money you can get in my pocket !"

"Alright mbak. Thank you for letting me leave this place."

"Yes.had served your last guest well by now !"

Go Holy wherever you want. I don't need you much anymore. Now those guys are tired of you and want new toys.

After being free from the abominable place, Suci worked in a clothing store for two years and decided to move to Bandung for several reasons. This is where he met Doni. Getting to know, falling in love and getting married.

*And now this is when I atone for all my sins in the past. I hope that Doni mas can come back to accept my shortcomings*.