LIKA LIKU THE ACTOR

8. RESIGNEDLY

Today Sunday coincidentally is my schedule Off work wake up in the morning not like my body usually feels pegel. my pain and my head were also a little dizzy so much that I straightened my body but all the homework was waiting for me. as usual if my holiday activities at home is ironing clothes that look like a mountain not can not hire people to iron but because it is not neat so I am lazy to pay people ironing because every ironing me always complain this is in because it is less neat.

with a little lethargy I woke up washing my face and breakfast that had been prepared when I finished eating me to the room and pecking a cigarette while daydreaming not long ago I finally went to the kitchen to take clothes that want to iron. does not feel 4 hours more I finish my iron

"Alhamdulillah endnua finished as well". I said while stretching my body because of sore sitting too long

after I finished all I was lying in the room while daydreaming and my mind floated thinking back to yesterday's events empty to cover my heart again there was a deep regret in my heart somehow and it slightly choked my chest

"do I have to end this forbidden relationship of mine' I said in my heart while moaning pain

I'm very aware what I'm doing is wrong but my affection is very great for mas dani I have not been willing to lose mas dani vow for anything but the circumstances do not allow me once with dani

"would my struggle have been in vain all this time?". I said once more in my heart.Oh this heart cries but these tears did not come out at all only my chest was a little tight in the making

POV mas dani

" fri. where? dani to kost huh?" I said on the phone to Melfri

" oh, may mas. but bian is not here mas". replied melfri

" nothing fri. mas dani want to say the same lo". I replied back to melfri

"okay". replied melfri slightly objected

1 hour later I arrived at the melfri boarding house I went straight in and chatted with melfri

" mas dani is going to bandung fri".

melfri temen near bian

" huh. why mas? want to move?". said melfri

" maybe while mas dani want there fri. because there is a little problem there".

" have you said the same bian?". said melfri asked again

" not yet. later dani dani tell you". I said with a long sigh

I also began to tell melfri about the problem that I experienced the same bian maybe melfri also already know but I keep telling her about everything that has happened

it is very complicated and I myself am confused by the problems I face but I am sorry to see the bian who suffers so much. I was selfish on the one hand I could not let my son be a brokenhome child but on the other hand I also love the same bian somehow I have to choose all feels complicated plus the problem my family feels like my head's about to break 8.

it has been a few days I did not contact bian actually I miss bian very much but because of the problems and busyness I did not have time to contact her. that morning I could not stand it anymore I finally started that chat bian

" bian. went to work today, right? bian sorry mas dani today mas dani want to go to bandung. probably will stay there for a while. sorry if mas dani is wrong". wrote me in the message and immediately I sent

there is no answer just read it. I just let out a long sigh of what might be bian no longer want to see me again

drett.

incoming messages from my lover

" yes" only 1 word is a reply from bian. there is no more word I just fell silent and resigned in case you really do not forgive me

POVs bian

my heart was broken when I got a message from mas dani when she said she wanted to stay in bandung and could not meet me

" he wants to go to bandung and leave me after everything that happened". I said in my heart while shedding tears

during the break I took melfri to the cafeteria next to where mas dani was hanging out in the hope that I could meet mas dani. I ordered coffee and toast while enjoying food I also occasionally glanced to the road with full hope dani mas come but already as long as hours dani mas dani has not come too. I still continue to hope he came by taking a deep breath I continued to focus on my HP and cigarettes to the extent that I did not listen to melfri who was talking to me again.

time has shown 7 o'clock that means the break time was over melfri also invited me back to the office but my legs seemed heavy to step away from the place

" you first aja mak. I still want to whip again". I said to melfri

" yeah I've done nothing first huh?". replied melfri while stepping away from me

15 Minutes passed and did not show her nose with a feeling of sadness and weakness I returned to the office. this mixed feeling rattled my heart as if I could not bear all these feelings.I sat in a cubical and was silent for a moment

" i can't stand it anymore". I said in my heart by holding back tears that I really can't stand

it was time to go home but until this moment mas dani still did not tell me whether he had left or not.

" where are you mas. are you no longer concerned with my feelings".

" heii. come home". said melfri makes me a little surprised in daydreaming

" come on".answerku limp

along the way I was constantly thinking about mas dani. My mind was filled with question marks even though I was always hurt but my love beat everything

arriving at the boarding house I rushed to change clothes and plan to immediately rest because my body and soul were tired, especially my heart was broken

tok ..tok ..

the door melfri in the corner from the outside I do not feel who is knocking on the door because I am too tired, but suddenly my eyes widened because the coming was none other than mas dani. I was immediately aghast and did not expect that the one in front of me was the one I had been waiting for

I was silent while holding back tears as well as mas dani was silent with a smile

" what's here? not to bandung? what's it doing here?" pekikku misbehaved with feelings of sadness.happy mixed

" what the hell is it if you can't come here". replied mas dani pretended to be angry and left the room

I could no longer bear to put aside my selfishness and immediately I chased mas dani while I hugged and cried so and the drama ended after melfri and friends cheered me from the inside chamber.

after talking for a long time and mas dani explained the details of his departure to bandung finally I was a little calm to hear it but also sad because it would be far from the dani mas. the same thing with their friends is also sad whether the solboy he cried because he felt lost the figure of dani mas. mas dani already have a wife but in terms of friendship mas dani very care and also close to my friends then it is not denied if they feel lost just like me.

after talking, sad and joking for quite a long time and time has also shown midnight we also rest including mas dani. melfri allow mas dani nginep because tomorrow mas dani want to go.

in the darkness of the room we cried and shared our feelings

" bian take care of yourself, dani mas dear bian". while crying and hugging me

" yes mas. I also love mas dani".I replied back to his embrace

" whatever happens mas dani will continue to fight for our love. mas dani promise".

" yes mas".i replied as soon as I forgot the heavy things that happened to me yesterday-yesterday which was caused by dani mas and it was all because of my love for dani mas. after that we fell asleep too

melfri alarm sounds at 7 we woke up, I immediately took a shower and got ready melfri and solboy had left first while I was still sitting there with a dani mas

" mas. take care of yourself well yes.whatever happens you must contact me do not like yesterday".

" yes, bian is also heart".

we cuddled. I don't know if I'm happy or sad my feelings have been erratic after all the events that have happened to me these few weeks that I know now I'm very happy to be close to mas dani and I resigned to what happened to me and forgot what happened to me these few days so easily