LIKA LIKU THE ACTOR
10. PLINPLANTS
a week has passed since mas Dani returned from Bandung our relationship was back like before could not freely to chat or nelfon because mas Dani's position is at home the reason why back home is because his son is sick but I don't mind that as long as Dani's still telling me.
I don't know why that day my feelings were erratic. empty. silence is not because mas Dani is back in his house but this feeling comes suddenly as if there is a strong desire in this self a freedom, want to be loved. in note, in, loved in the sense of having healthy partners and relationships.sometimes people see as if there is envy in the heart "why I am not like other people who have healthy relationships" that's what's in my head. The longing to have his fullness makes this heart empty and a little claustrophobic when I remember real life is very inversely proportional.
" ahhhh. be it ". I said a long sigh
dretttt.
instantly my daydreams caved in to hear the tone of the incoming message on my phone
"where is bian?.later tonight mas Dani pick up huh?".that's a short message from mas Dani
I don't know why it was my first time in our relationship I was so lazy to meet mas Dani but what can I do
" yes" I answered briefly
time showed at 20:00 pm it was time to go home but I was really uncomfortable with the situation but still I forced to smile. I met Dani's mas in the parking lot and I was directly in the anter to the melfri boarding house
arriving at the boarding house I immediately broke through to the melfri room without waiting for Dani mas who was parking the motorbike
" you why bian?". asked mas Dani sighed my way
" it's okay mas".I replied casually with a flat face
" no. must something go wrong? from earlier, did Dani notice that you were quiet and pouting a lot? wh why? ". ask her repeatedly
" what the hell. I said no yes no. I'm tired of not looking for trouble".I replied a bit snapped
" oh so. ya already dani go home". threatened him while releasing his hand grip
I glared with annoyance but even though I was BeTe but my heart did not let go when Dani mas came home, I immediately followed and hugged her
" don't be angry mas. let's go in". said me softly when my heart could not immediately mas Dani silent but hear my appeal finally he wanted to go into the boarding melfri
inside there is already a solboy. melfri and Lola they are joking and we also join them. yes if joking with them there is no end to it there must be aja that makes laugh
time passed and the clock had shown at 23:00 finally mas Dani pamit home, I also as usual deliver him to the front
" be careful" I said in a soft tone
" yes, dear. mas Dani came home".he replied with a smile while rubbing my head
Mas Dani also drove with his motorbike after missing from my sight I went into the room melfri and finally I was able to rest in peace
.......
as bright as usual I was sitting in the stall enjoying coffee and cigarettes before going into the office suddenly my mind floated out of what I was thinking at that moment which obviously I felt like yesterday, the thing I really want to get is clear attention and relationships
" have I been saturated".I said in my heart
" ahhhhhh, I don't know ". I said, shaking my head trying to get a little bit lost while cleaning up my stuff and preparing to go into the office.
it's been 20:00 but Dani mas not WA and I also took the initiative to WA mas Dani first without hesitation
" mas. pick me up not mas". wrote me in the message WA
there was no long reply from Dani
"sorry bian mas Dani again there is a job.may come home late. bian wait mas Dani in kostan" so the contents of the message mas Dani and I also agree
I came home with melfri and solboy in the street we talked in jest
" Lo why the hell? how come lately it's been like moody". asked solboy
" the time is no".I replied in wonder
" yes. You are a lot quiet and less passionate or there is a problem Sama mas Dani ya?" sob melfri curious
" do not swear".
arriving at the boarding house I immediately cleaned up and I went to sleep without using the night cream first. my friends may be surprised but they don't ask much just their whispering makes me feel like they're talking about me
in my eighth sleep, I woke up to the sound of a melfri alarm that was right near my ear
kringgg.
" ahh. fucking tuh alarm" I screamed while reaching hp melfri and I immediately turned it off
immediately my eyes opened and remembered something "mas Dani". I was immediately aghast and I hurriedly saw my phone when it showed at 05.00 no phone or incoming message from Mas Dani
" brengs.k.bold him he broke his promise and didn't call or WA tell me".
I opened my WA message and immediately I sent a short message to mas Dani I no longer care who he wants with whom now or again with his wife I am not afraid anymore.
"good yes mas.you said tell me to wait at the boarding house but you did not come here. even tell me you do not exist.want you what? it's enough your patience".when I sent my message directly and it turns out only 1 ceklos and that means hp mas Dani is not activated. I was getting furious and angry but want me to vent to where and to whom, I can only be silent to withstand the turmoil in this heart that is always and always because of the PLINPLAN man.
because the time showed at 06.00 I decided to take a shower and shampoo so that my head was a little calm, I rushed to the bathroom with a cigarette while urinating while smoking. 15 Minutes passed I had finished my bath immediately and after that I made coffee and immediately pecked again a cigarette in together drinking black coffee. after almost 7 o'clock Melfri woke up and he immediately took a shower as well as a solboy.
In the office I still think mas Dani who until now did not tell me at all, I tried to see my phone again and the message I sent to mas Dani still keep checking one. it's pissed that's Tara's not her but I can't vent her
" i have to how God. I want to end this, but I love the same man".I groan in my heart
rest arrived.I decided to go to the cafeteria with melfri and solboy but when in the elevator hp me reads there is a message in
" sorry bian. mas Dani soy sauce overslept in the office. hp mas Dani also lowbat is new active. once again sorry yes dear". a message from mas Dani apologized but immediately annoyed I was missing who had been excited now to be calm.
". yes mas. later to the boarding house melfri ya". wrote me briefly
" yes baby".answered a message from Dani
I sighed deeply like a freshness arising in my chest the energy that had just disappeared again all of it just because Dani mas told me.
night came and when he came home, I was ready to go home but Dani did not tell me
" all right, if you don't call me let me call you".
without a second thought I immediately made a call to mas Dani but not in the lift
" okay. once again".he took a deep breath
the end of his second call was answered
" where are you, mas? I've come home. pick me up". katakh is a little angry
" i'm sorry bian. mas Dani's a lot of work. MAS Dani promised later to melfri ya. bian wait there'. Answer at the end of the phone
" halah. later deny again like last night. if mas Dani emang can not come yes say aja".my words are upset
" no bian. mas Dani promised yes. mas Dani worked for a while" he said again
I immediately closed the phone without giving a greeting which means I was angry again
drettttt dretttt
incoming call from Dani mas
" yes, why?"ask me pissed
" don't be angry bian. mas Dani promised yes, but mas Dani did work first perkerjan mas Dani ya".he said in a soft tone
" okay.but watch out for more lies".I said a little demeaning my intonation
I also went home with melfri and solboy and when I arrived at the boarding house I immediately cleaned my body and sat on the floor mats smoking a cigarette while chatting with two of my friends.
the clock has shown at 10:30 but Dani mas never come immediately my annoyance hit back then I took HP and I chat mas Dani
" where are you mas? not being here? ". write me and directly I send to mas Dani it turns directly in the read and there is a reply immediately
"sorry bian once again mas Dani can not go there because the work mas Dani not finished". reply mas Dani with sad emoji
my emotions peaked I also reciprocated his WA back
" what do you mean, mas? mas would have promised the same bian want to come here why many reasons" I wrote and directly I sent to mas Dani
suddenly my phone rang and it was a call from Dani's mas immediately I picked up
" why do the promises continue.can not be people do not PLINPLAN?" I said without saying hello
" denger used to be bian. mas Dani was really busy there was a problem in the office".
" there is no reason mas. mas may not have a moment to find me".
"please you understand that Dani once could not? ". he said a little loudly
" oh. I don't understand Dani. I don't understand how I've been for 2 years. huh? ". i shouted involuntarily as my tears fell down my cheeks
" yes it is up to you, mas Dani tired ", he said casually
after his last words I was stunned and I immediately turned off hp I immediately removed DP WA and turned off hp while holding back tears, unconsciously my two friends were watching me
" Lo why nyai? how crying?" ask soft solboy
" it's nothing". I said still pouting
I was silent for a long time while smoking my heart so hurt hearing the last words of Dani mas, that, I didn't think about why he could do that much to me for 2 days he lied to me completely and now he says "grandfather"
" what the f..CK". I shouted while slamming my cigarette and I immediately cried while hugging my own feet
" heh Lo why? dong's story?". said melfri shocked
" yes, why Lo ? don't dong dong later I'm crying' said solboy added
I continued to cry incessantly and after a while I finally told my problems in as much detail as possible to my friends
" yes, no need to cry again, if he loves you, he must be samperin elo ko". said melfri while stroking my back
" yes it's useless Lo pee Lo for the sake of someone like him who PLINPLAN it. loss. huh Mak? there's still us".Solboy comforted me
after the words of my friends I was a little calm and relieved but suddenly
tock..
" who is it. it's been a gini night lest the mas have a kost". melfri said as he headed to the door and to his surprise I was the person behind the door that was mas Dani who I hated
" you mas? how can it be here not work? " ask me confused
