LIKA LIKU THE ACTOR

3. DISDAIN

since that debate mas dani so rarely pick up on the grounds his son is sick and I can not do anything if mas dani on behalf of his child

now that I am 25 years old I started thinking about my future, my father added that now he is sickly and always asked about marriage and my answer is still the same "not yet ready" actually in my heart is ready to be born inner only the candidate who is not ready how not because the prospective person I love now still belongs to another woman

for years I held back and was patient it felt like this heart was eager to rebel with a state of unending dark relations but when I tried to escape defeat and get out of this zone my heart seemed locked as if there was a rope that binds hard to remove like a black shackle that envelops my life.this body once went far but this selfish heart held back with a hope.

1 week passed there was no news from mas dani even just WA did not exist. my heart ached and wanted me to contact dani mas but this hand held the courage I shrunk immediately remember the dani mas who was married and it would cause problems

and in the end my frustration could not be contained anymore.all I could do was make WALL in WA

"not until I'm determined" I wrote in WA status.

and it's true that not long ago dani contacted me and asked the news and where as if not feel guilty because it has been 1 week silence me

drett.

my phone got a notification that was none other than mas dani

"bian. where? later dani mas pick up ya. mas kangen".a short message from dani mas

I smiled thinly in my heart happy matchless but on the other hand I was still upset because 1 week there was no news

"yes".that's the only short answer to my message

finally the clock came home when it was melfri and solboy had not come home because they still had a little work so I borrowed the key boarding melfri and I went home first with mas dani

as usual mas dani waited for me in the front parking lot without saying I immediately went up and dani mas also drove his motorbike to the boarding house melfri. arriving at the boarding house my frustration was unbearable and a small debate began to occur

" you are outrageous mas. 1 week you have no news. You consider me what? just for the impingement of doang. hah? I shouted loudly while pointing at mas dani

as usual, he always spoke relaxed

" you were horrified once dear. not so. mas dani again there is masalab and at home the child dani dani dani again sick".

" but can't you tell me. it doesn't take 1 minute to connect with me. Don't give much reason? if you don't want to say it". squeak me as I throw a small punch to the chest dani mas

" you calm down first dani dani netakan what happened". he said seemed to hold my body continues to beat his body

" quietly you say.You think I'm cheap that you can wear as you please? if there's a button you call me if you don't need you to lose your news? inget ya mas do not make me determined". threatened me while pointing dani mas

dani calmly replied

" yes. mas dani tau mas dani wrong. mas dani apologize yes because yesterday mas dani kalut.you know that the problem at home is a lot. once again dani dani apologize. mas dani dear bian".he said as if to kiss my forehead

somehow getting a kiss from the dani mas I became a meltdown my heart that had been in revolt became weak helpless

in the end I also returned a kiss of dani mas and the struggle that had hit each other turned into a romantic situation and it made me float instantly touch after touch of mas dani incubated in my body

our hot attractions were not long after the state of affairs that made us unable to linger doing the delicious thing but it made me feel satisfied and more affectionate with mas dani. Before long melfri and solboy come with joking as usual there must be aja that happens when where they both go home really funny. the clock shows at 11 when the mas dani came home I happened to nginep in the boarding house melfri so mas dani did not deliver me that night. with a cheerful and happy heart I also fell asleep soundly already dapet yang dani mas oh world as if mine and dani mas...

in the morning as usual we went to work together at set 8. because of the short distance so we were shaking 3 using a solboy motor when we arrived in the cafeteria we sat down and ordered the drink into our routine every morning

" anyap ", replied mama radit. yes we call mama radit because her son named radit we are also close to him.

really delicious coffee and a cigarette is not usually but this morning is so delicious

BRAKKKK

the sound of buzzing at the table made my daydream

"you crazy times yes.morning to riot".I shouted to the person who kicked the table who was none other than a friend from a different department

"traditional dong".the answer is relaxed

"babs. you think this is where my grandmother lo seeank jidal lo kicked that. beon".

melfri and solboy only looked with sharp eyes as they were also shocked

"aiss. sensi very Nyai. mentang-tang was delicious was malem & segitnya". he said cynically while glancing

"you mean what? talk don't hang out early in the morning. bangs..t". I said with emotion.

" halah do not belaga holy lo. the deceased is the same as me than you so the actor.what's good is just delicious dapet doang but heart aches.karma lo later".

my anger is unstoppable anymore it feels like these tears will trickle down hearing this depraved man's statement

" just take care of your own business.I also ogah lo. ngaca". ketusku sculpt emotions

" if the actor yes still the actor.there is no price in the eyes of people. lu who ngaca belah self. men you embat kayak do not do. you do not pity his baby. emg you don't have a heart. trash ". answer her with behind emotions

melfri and Solboy tried to defend me and broke up our quarrel until I finally just kept quiet while holding back tears that would soon drip from the corner of my eyes with a troubled heart and trembling body I try to hold back the anger in me and decide to leave that place

although it is common for me to suffer insults and scorn from people especially from friends mas dani but this time the insults were painful and bitter

because it is still slapped with the words of a friend mas dani me so not the spirit of work even rest I do not eat or to the cafeteria I just sleep in my cubical without doing anything. melfri, I just sleep in my cubical without doing anything,solboy and Lola were also astonished and worried but I still did not want to get off my bench until the time to come home at 8

dreettt.

My phone rang and it was definitely from the dani mas who was waiting for me in the front parking lot. somehow I was so lazy to move even I was lazy to meet mas dani because my mood was not good. I did not reply to the message mas dani just read it and I also no longer in the mood met mas dani finally I decided to walk through the side road to melfri place

arriving there it turns out mas dani is already in front of the boarding house and I was caught with him without feeling guilty I also continued my steps to the room melfri although mas dani called me I still go to his room without looking dani mas. swiftly dani grabbed my hand

" what is this? why else?". she asked curiously

" it's okay mas. I'm just tired and tired".I replied weakly

" no. no this must be something wrong"., he said, holding me back from going into Melfri's room

I was just speechless because I was so tired that just answering questions was not energy. finally we sat in front of the room melfri not much we talked about but the point is I started to get tired of this situation and it feels like I want to give up

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