Lembayung Dusk
A Beginning..
Mom Twilight
"ins.. Don't you miss your son? " Inaq asked when he visited me in Mataram.Sambil held a small 2-year-old Dusk, who had grown up healthy and handsome.
"Mah..ma.ma.ma..am. . " His babble, while stretching out both hands hoping I reach out and hold her.
I just fell silent, not responding to all the adorable behavior of Dusk. The two eyeballs with gray irises were twinkling when they saw me. He thrashed and wanted to get down from the sling inaq.
Dusk approached me.
I'm still not flinching. Then he took my hand and shook it. "Mama.ma.a..a.ma.mama.. "
While holding back crying until my throat hurts.I ended up holding her for a while, looking and admiring the beautiful look of my son. Just like a foreign baby.
Deg.
Suddenly I remembered my treatment when he was a baby.. Soon I'll drop my son. But he whined he wanted me to carry him again.
"Senjaaa... here son.. papuq have a toy for Dusk.. tuh see there.. many right? Twilight play first yaa. papuq same mom want to talk for a while. "
My son nodded his head leaping cheerfully at the toy that was on the table. Then he happily played it.
In the span of 2 years.we met several times , despite longing.but I still with this cold attitude.
Unlike most mothers who do not hesitate to give love to their children.
Deep down, I wanted to hug my son and kiss him affectionately. But the shadow when I used to be.I who intentionally, with all my depression, ever impulsively cover the face of Dusk with a pillow. Fortunately, it was known by Inaq..
Shadow after shadow I often hurt her, making me afraid..Fear of the horrible event repeating itself. Dusk grew without affection from me.
Call it cruel.My maternal instinct only grows in the heart, without action and shows it. .I used to be really unstable.. At the age of me who is still in the teenage years, I was faced with situations and conditions that are still out of expectations.Being a mother.
It should be nice to welcome him here, right? but really, this fear defeats the happiness that is desired.
"This is going to Italy.. " I said, to the inaq who was watching Dusk who was running around while playing a toy plane.
Inaq was aghast, "What's In? you don't make it up! then how's your son? "
"In will overtake the man naq.. Dusk can be here with inaq."
Inaq grunting. "Where's the cost? do you know the cost of going abroad? "
"In's been working, ma'am, and In knows someone who can take In there. "
"But In.. "
"It's been almost 3 years ma'am.. In will hold her accountable. "
"Do you think that going all the way there you can guarantee that he will be responsible for you and your child?he also has a family.. " Obviously inaq with a soft tone.
"In already take care of passports, visas, and others ma'am.. "
"Astaghfirullah In. Why are you so stubborn? "
"In wants to ask for clarity of our relationship inaq. that way he can directly talaq In if he does not want to be responsible."
We did marry siri while in Jakarta, and ka Nazam as a guardian.
Therefore, in the past, amaq forced me to merariq. because the dowry to be given by Dimas was quite large. Under the pretext I have been treated from childhood..
"As for you In. inaq can only resign, may you always be in His protection!"
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"I've got a passport and a Schengen visa, and this is a savings book with 50 million.. " Boss Carlos threw some small books containing his passport, visa, passbook and some health papers, and others.
"You already know the consequences if in 2-3 weeks do not return, right? "
"Dad boss.. " I nodded. And took everything that was thrown by the boss I worked for and put it all in my bag.
Boss Carlos is the owner of the nightclub where I work, I'm here working as a waitress delivering a variety of illegal drinks to every table and room.
If they think I'm going to open BO, the answer is of course NO!
Although many offered my services at a fantastic price, but I was not tempted at all. My job is to deliver drinks and accompany them to drinks.
"If it doesn't come back in 3 weeks.. Your debt will be doubled to 10 times the cost I have incurred now.The total is all 90 million.40 million for the cost of buying a round-trip air ticket, making a passport, a visa, and so on,insurance and other, 50 million money in savings for financial proof you have when later checked at the airport! "
I took a long breath. It's been my decision.I'm determined to find her no matter what..
"Thank you boss.. " My words are flat.
"Tungguuu.. you are very beautiful. Why during work here you are not open BO only? a lot of people are crazy about you!your husband must have thrown you out! " Boss Carlos approached me, then stroked my hand.
Cihh. hisisku in heart.
I threw his hands rough, and he was not his angry but grinning and displaying his sly smile.
Old man!
"I'll excuse the boss.. " I stepped out of his room in a hurry and the old man just laughed thunderously.
I didn't think it was a start...
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Hello readers...
In this chapter in the explanation In had married the series with his father Twilight yaaa. ga in the story in detail because later ngabisin Ayung same story as Dusk.hehhe.. author so thought to make a sequel to his story Baiq Indrawati full of twists and turns of life.. because his impression is cruel bgt make a story about his mother Dusk here and no happy2nya. huhhhu.. sorry author yaa Iin. There is a time when you will be happy...
In the next chapter inspired by the true story of the Indonesian who had experienced terrible events in 2001...
Sorry for any lack of author writing stories. But this is just a fictitious yaa. despite being inspired but everything is just a essay.
Happy Reading's... 💕💕💕
