Is There Love
Back School
Part 9's
I'm glad I got home from the hospital today. I let out a long sigh, inhaling the strong\-strong aroma from my room after opening the door. I miss my room. I went into the room and sat down on the bed. Even though I have gone home, today I was advised to get enough rest by the doctor after three days in the hospital.
Indeed, I still feel a little dizzy and limp. Yes, I admit it was myself, torturing myself a week in my room. I remember the incident, it still hurts.
“I'll find you Zhi, I won't believe you've been said to be dead. I didn't see it, so why would I believe it? Don't we? I'm not wrong, am I, like this? I'm sure you're alive.” I stared at the smiling Kenzhi photo on my phone screen.
“Kenzhi, I miss you.” I grabbed my phone, I felt like I was getting some relief and answers.
“Drrrttt, ddrrrrttt, drrtttt.” I felt my phone vibrate with a ring.
“Kak Gavin,” mumbled I saw the screen of the phone that lights up indicating an incoming call.
“Halo,” sapaku open conversation.
“Hallo, Ryn. You've gone home?” I heard Gavin's voice across the street asking.
“Eh yes, this afternoon home. I just got here, why brother?” my many.
“It's okay. How are you doing? Is it better?” ask brother Gavin.
“Yes, I've been better, even I've been cured. Tomorrow is also school again,” I replied.
“Yes already, just rest, I'll close the phone. Happy break,” he said across.
“Iya, thanks. I will rest,” I replied.
A few seconds later the phone was shut down by Gavin. In my heart I feel like something's been shut down by Gavin, but that's it. I don't want to think about him.
*****
This morning I prepared as usual, wearing a white-gray uniform wrapped in a light-blue sweatshirt jacket, then knee-length white socks, and black pantofel shoes. Not forgetting, I polished my face with a thin make up and a black bando coiled on the head adorned my unraveled shoulder-length hair. I took my backpack over the study table, and put some books in my bag.
I remember Sasa, how is he? I hadn't communicated with him all this time. I can't wait to meet her, how will she express when she looks at me.
After that, was he angry with me? Or feel guilty? Ah, naw. I was wrong, I scolded him and kept him quiet all this time. I know, the real intentions are good. It's just that I'm not calm and still emotional. I guess I'm not entirely guilty either. I just don't want Kenzhi to be called non-existent, because I'm sure Kenzhi is alive.
I let out a long sigh, then turned to look at the mirror checking that something was lacking or not. After making sure nothing was lacking, I went out of the room and went downstairs.
“Waahhh, what a beauty my sister is. If you weren't my sister, I would've been looking for her,” sly brother Alby who saw me coming down the stairs to the dining room.
I saw Brother Alby sitting in the chair facing the dining table taking a piece of bread and smearing it with chocolate jam. I dragged the chair next to Alby's sister, back a few pauses and sat down.
“Do not tease me. I won't get carried away just because of a change like that. It has expired the time of its use,” I said as I took a piece of fresh bread, then smeared it with my favorite strobery jam.
“Don't underestimate me like that, out there a lot of women like me.” Brother Alby immediately feed the bread containing chocolate jam into his mouth while remaining calm.
“Already, early in the morning already noisily. Don't eat while talking, choking later.” Mother who came while carrying a tray containing three glasses of milk advised. After putting it on the desk, mom sat down to join me and brother Alby.
“Where's evidence? Try where? Expiry is still used. It's already 2019, the technology is advanced, and you still use it?” my tease.
I gobbled bread in my hand, then took a glass of milk that my mother had brought. Brother Alby who also sipped a glass of milk choked.
“Told you, don't eat while talking. Choking too right?” Mother glanced at Brother Alby cynically, but did not digubrisnya.
“You're the only one who doesn't know. Later, when the time comes, I'll take it home. You and my mom will be surprised. In fact, Raisa alone lost beautiful.” Brother Alby said it steadily.
“Haha, that's impossible. Mammy? Do you believe it? It looks like Brother has a fever, Mother has to check it,” I said chuckling.
“Do not mock me. What I say is true,” said brother Albydefend.
“Unfortunately, I absolutely do not believe.” I gulped down the remaining milk in half a glass.
“ Just see later. I must have proved it.” Brother Alby glanced at me with half a cynic.
“Try it,” my challenge.
“Alby, said you had to leave this morning? There's an appointment with a friend, right? And you're Ryn, you have to go to school, right? The sun is almost plentiful, the chickens are ready to feed, and you still want to make a fuss? What time is it? Don't blame Mom if you're late!” Me and Albu's brother lowered their heads, there was a furious hue on mom's face.
I glanced at the clock in my hand, almost seven o'clock. I have to leave immediately.
“Aaaa, Mother is right. I have to leave immediately, I say goodbye Mother.” I got up from my seat, then kissed the back of my mother's hand and ran out.
*****
Until school, I stopped for a while in the corridor. I sat in a long chair while adjusting my breathing. I was tired of running too, fortunately I was quick to arrive. If it's a little late, surely the gate has been closed, security guard. I can't imagine if I'm late. I had to beg\-please first to open the door, then after entering, scolded him as well.
Apparently, the school is already very crowded. Many students passed through the corridor. Many have also gathered in the field. Some of the football team\-team members from other schools as well as my school, look busy practicing in the field.
There are also those who are discussing with his team, but not infrequently also who look fun to chat with his friends while snacking. Teachers, and event organizers are also seen being preoccupied with their respective work parts.
“This, drink. You must be thirsty.” I heard from my right side the voice of a stranger. I looked at him, and I found Gavin's brother in a sports uniform standing up while thrusting a bottle of mineral water at me.
“Take, and quick drink.” Gavin's brother is pushing him closer.
“Thanks.” I looked at him with a smile, grabbed the bottle and drank it.
“Sama-sama, I go first.” Brother Gavin returned my smile then ran towards the field.
I walked through the school corridor towards Sasa's class. I got there and checked into the classroom, but I didn't find the nose. Suddenly I felt a hand holding both shoulders, I decided to turn around.
“Doorr.” I was surprised, my heart was beating fast, and I found Sasa looking at me with a chuckling laugh.
“It turns out you haven't changed. Still fucked,” taunted Sasa.
“Your base. Just make me hang.” I clenched my hand and pointed it at Sasa.
“Sorry.” I saw Sasa curling his two middle fingers.
“Come, come with me.” I wrapped my right arm around Sasa's left incline, then dragged him out.
“Eh, uh. Where am I going?” ask Sasa.
“Today is not a lesson, is it? Let's go to the cafeteria, and eat together,” take me with you while raising both eyebrows and smiling.
“Waah, if that's what I want. C'mon fast! I am hungry,” said Sasa who is now one step ahead of me.
Arriving at the handbag, Sasa and I ordered the meatballs and swept a look for a seat.
“Aha, that's it,” said I and Sasa almost together when he saw in the corner of the canteen there was an empty chair. Sasa and I hurried to sit in the corner of the cafeteria waiting for orders to arrive.
“I will treat you, so you can eat as much.” Without looking at Sasa's face, I took out a small packet of crackers and opened it.
“Totally? In what order is this? I'm being suspicious?” Sasa's face looked at me suspiciously.
“No. There's no order, it's just that I want to apologize. Sorry, because of the incident at that time I became scolded you, then drove out.” I feel ashamed to say it.
“Ah, stop. It's over, I'm not angry. Forget it,” he said as he opened a pack of fried beans, then put it in his mouth.
“Stay I feel guilty, forgive me.” I looked at him with a half-glassed look.
“Iya, yes. All right, I'm sorry. I don't want to remember that incident either. I know, your feelings must have been shattered back then. But this is Ryn's life, every soul will definitely feel death.
Don't be sad, even if Kenzhi can't keep you company anymore, but he's still in your deepest heart. He will live there, with you on every footing.” Sasa devoured the fried beans again.
I felt a little bit offended, I understood the meaning of his words. But, let. I don't want to argue, because it means good. It's just that I don't accept, if Kenzhi is meant to be gone.
“Yes, that's right. I will learn to rise from the fall. I can't be sad, right ? Thank you, your words were so touching. I became overwhelmed to hear it,”, I said accompanied by a soft smile.
“Hey, I'm speaking right. Don't poke me like that,” said Sasa did not accept.
“No. I'm kidding, I'm sorry. I don't think about it anymore. I ... I .. will learn to accept it. You are right Sa, Kenzhi will still be in my heart at the most, and will never be forgotten.” I'm trying to say what I don't want to say.
It's just that it's true at the end. He is in my heart and will never forget. I looked at Sasa while trying to smile as usual.
“Once dong, must be strong!” sasa said encouragingly. I just returned with a smile.
“Waah, look at this meatball I'm drooling. It feels like I want to go fast,” said Sasa while swallowing saliva when he saw two bowls of meatballs brought our shirts.
“Eat only, but do not equal the bowls. I just reminded her, afraid to forget. The meat is already abis, uh the lap is also ketelen,” my ledek while pouring soy sauce into the meatball bowl in front of me.
“Yee, what am I? If I have the power like the movies, maybe not just the bowl, the wagon all I swallow,” Sasa said as he poured the sauce into his bowl.
“All you sell,” my chirps.
“Crazy! What am I a creature? I'm still sane Ryn times, when my countrymen are greedy too. I'm not a cannibal,” he said half-callingly.
“Home times,” sahutku. Sasa and I ate it. We spent a bowl of meatballs and a glass of iced tea.
“Nplus no? I still pay?” godaku's.
“Em ... for a while this is not. Maybe later go home from school can, let's just pack two bowls.” Sasa looked at me with a soft look.
“Eh, can't. I'll only pay for it if it's eaten here, if you take it home, pay for yourself.” I looked at him half cynically.
“Yee, don't be mad. Change that cynical look, I'm just kidding. Quick pay! I will wait outside,” said Sasa half-reigning.
“Why are you so commanding me like this?” I looked at him lazily.
“And you ate. Don't tell me, the wallet is missing.” Sasa looked at me with a suspicious look, as his right index finger pointed towards me.
“No, I paid. Take it easy, “ I said then showed my wallet in Sasa's view.
“So dong. All right, I'm out, and you pay.” With a big smile, Sasa left me. I just smiled a little and shook my head at Sasa's behavior.
I went to the cashier to pay for my food and Sasa. Turning around, I put in my wallet change. I was shocked when I hit someone in front of me. I feel ashamed of it. I retreated backwards, wanting to know who I hit. Two steps back, I lost my balance. I almost fell on the floor, but my body was held fast by the person in front of me.
I saw the face of the one who was holding me back, he was Gavin's brother. My heart was beating faster, there was nervousness in my heart as I looked at him. We kept quiet, and looked at each other for a moment, before Gavin finally helped me up.
“Sorry, next time be careful when walking.” I saw for a moment the face of Gavin's brother who showed a nervous hue.
“Thank you, next time I'll be more careful.” I lowered my head, not daring to look at him. My cheeks are hot, I feel so ashamed. Many of the students around looked at us.
“I ... I .. will go.” I looked at her for a while while smiling a little.
“I ... will also be ahead,” reply while smiling.
I was shocked again, for some reason I was being misbehaved. For the second time, I collided with Gavin's brother before leaving. Without saying anything, I took a step back, then took a step to the right of the front and just passed by.
