Is There Love
The Same Wound
The Part 11
All the way home I kept quiet, Brother Gavin was the same. I'm still thinking about what I saw at the police station. It felt like he had been punched a thousand times. It hurts, it hurts so much. I can't believe, should I lose Kenzhi this way? To see it the last time I couldn't.
I'm so sorry, why I used to be so stupid. I was too busy thinking about other people's opinions of myself, I raised my ego too much, and I ignored my feelings to be honest. I closed the room for Kenzhi in my life, until now I lost him.
If only time could play out for a while, I wouldn't have made the same mistake. I'll change it, and I won't waste Kenzhi in my life.
“Sorry, the result is not what you expected. I know you're very sad now, I'm sorry. I've disappointed you,” Gavin said opening the conversation.
“It's okay. Brother has tried, I'm sorry to bother you too often. Brother has kept his promise, it is more than enough for me. I've committed before, whatever the result I should be able to accept.”I turned to look at Brother Gavin with a small smile.
“Alright, I understand.” Brother Gavin gave a short sigh, and I only replied with a small smile. A few minutes later Gavin stopped his car.
“Aa, have you arrived? Oh, where is this?” When I opened the car door, it was not in front of my house. I looked at Gavin's brother, but he was no longer beside me.
“Come out,” said brother Gavin who is now outside the car near the door I sit. He knocked on the car glass a few times.
“I .. yes,” I said briefly then got out of the car.
“Where are we? Where are we going?” many confused.
“Just calm down, I won't fuck around. I just want to make up for your disappointment,” he replied and then smiled a small smile. I didn't answer, just a small smile.
“Don't worry, I've asked your mother's permission to go home a little late.” Brother Gavin is now staring with a calming look. I just kept quiet, I couldn't answer. Moreover, mother has allowed, rejected it I think impossible.
I admit, I'm actually really tired. Not because of school today, but because of Kenzhi. My brain and my heart could not stop thinking about it, tears welled up my eyes were struggling to get out, but I was still questioning it. I wanted to hug my beloved doll at home immediately, so I could vent my fatigue and spill my burden right now there.
It was getting dark, and now I was out of nowhere. What I see now, is a large garden. Many colorful flower trees, various types along the way.
“Come with me,” take Brother Gavin. I nodded small.
While walking, I observed around. Colorful lights look to decorate the garden. There is a cherry blossom tree design whose flowers shine because of the small lights inside the flower petals. There are also tree fakes decorated with colorful lantern balloons.
Then a small pond in the middle there is a fountain, and on the edge of the pool decorated with small lights arranged in a neatly circular stand.
Me and brother Gavin then stopped at the park bench, and sat there.
“Sometimes, someone who goes makes a fragile soul who loves him. Sometimes, deep feelings make people hurt. But, a belief can arouse a fragile soul, also a wounded feeling.” I kept quiet, my eyes focused on the front. Gavin's words just now were very much in my condition, and more precisely to me an insinuation.
“I know, at this time you are very disappointed, you feel very tired, and tears are nourished by those struggling eyes, always on her. I'm sorry, I can't help much, I don't mean to interfere in your personal affairs, I'm just trying to help find a way out, but it failed. I'm sorry Ryn.” Brother Gavin looked seriously at me.
I turned to look at Brother Gavin, the more obvious his serious face became. I was still silent, not knowing what to say. My mind was raging, I still felt a chill in my heart.
Every word that Gavin said reminded me of Kenzhi. I could no longer hold back my tears, I could no longer hold back the sadness that had been held back. I covered my face with both hands, and I sobbed in my tears. Brother Gavin grabbed me in his warm embrace.
“Kak, what's my fault? Why would I lose someone I love? Why is this happening to me?” I still sob.
“Ryn, I understand how you feel. I, too, have felt it,” he said.
“If tears calm you, then cry. But remember, tears alone cannot solve the problem.” Brother Gavin raised my head, then looked at him deeply.
“Don't keep crying. Over time the tears are getting sicker, he will continue to make wounds as the tears fall.” Brother Gavin rubbed my tears slowly, he still looked at me with the same gaze. Although I still hiccup, but it's not like that. I held both hands on my cheeks, and we looked at each other.
“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you sadder.” Gavin pulled both hands. I did not answer, and immediately turned to look ahead.
“I used to be here a lot. This is my faforit place with a friend of mine. Since we were kids, we loved playing around here. Until Junior High, we were still here after school. I like her, she's a tough lady. His style is tomboyish and courageous, being a distinctive feature in him. But I'm losing it now.
When we were in second grade, she moved to Australia. I don't know why he moved. She told me suddenly, and I could only say goodbye. This is the last time I remember that day. As a sign of farewell, I gave her a silver necklace with a hello kitty. She was so happy, then hugged me for a while before leaving.
A few days after he got there, we were still communicating well. A week later, we lost communication. Suddenly my father heard the news of a mass fire at the house where my best friend lived. Because of the midnight incident, many people died and few survived. It must be in a state of severe injury. My best friend and his family were also listed as victims of the fire, reportedly dying in the tragedy. Even his body was not found, and most likely charred in a fire.
I who heard the news did not believe it at all, and did not want to believe it at all.. I've been devastated since his departure. I'm still pretty sure, if he's alive. Although my father was looking for evidence, and it is true that in the fire the victim was allegedly charred and turned to ashes because no body was found, also because of the fire is very large. But, I still whistled staunchly denying it. Until now, I still hope to see him again.
She's the only woman important to me after mom. Actually, my relationship with my father wasn't so good since a long time ago. I used to hate him and blame him because when mom died, dad was still busy working. But everything changed, ever since my best friend. He who made me trust again with father, he also who mended my relationship with father.” Gavin's long story is sad, too. The point is the same, we lost a loved one, but it sounds more depressing than me.
“Are you really sure Kenzhi is gone? Do you believe about the thing you saw earlier?” I looked at Gavin.
“Why does he ask like that? What does it mean?” my thinking.
“Why does Big Brother ask like that?” askaku.
“Not to be answered, I now know the answer,”. I smiled a little and then looked back to the front.
“Ryn, our fate is the same. We both lost loved ones. But that doesn't mean we become really weak because of it, does it? We don't have to give up on one problem either, do we? I'm sure, in the new life we will meet the people we love,” said brother Gavin with a small smile.
“Kak Gavin is right, we can't just give up.” I confirmed Gavin's words, then smiled slightly.
“Other people don't necessarily understand us, and they sometimes just want to know. It's hard to trust someone in life,”.
“True, I also feel the same way,” said brother Gavin.
“You know, this is the first time I've come back here since my best friend and I split up. And, there are only two women that I brought here,” said Kak Gavin then sighed shortly.
“Oh yes? Must they be lucky? Who are they?” my many.
“The first is my best friend, and the second is you.” I turned to look at Brother Gavin as soon as I heard my name called.
“Really? In that case, I am one of the lucky women.” I looked at him while smiling. Gavin didn't answer, he just returned my smile.
