I Want to Be Happy, too

Episode 30's

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I tried to let go of her embrace and hit her hand that was clutching my hand so firmly.

"Regardless of me,"

"Have you no satisfaction in making me like this.Please let me go home this time, I'm tired and fed up with your attitude."

"I really didn't mean to lie to you.So I just thought, if I said the same you later you would even think things to me." he explained.

"You're so funny, that there's a weirdo.With you doing like that, it makes me think badly of you."

"Now all I want is to go home.I want to calm my mind first."

"We are both adults, we already know what is good and not for us.I realize, I have no right to your heart.So you should think carefully now,take where our relationship is going to go in the future." I continued.

"Why are you talking like that?" Dani immediately let go of her embrace.

"It's not natural that right now, I assume that the reason you married me was just to cover the other side of your life?" my many.

''You're wrong, not like that.

''Is it wrong? Keep what?''

Dani was silent and did not answer the question I asked.

''You can't answer that, can you? Never mind, I'm tired.I've forgiven you so many times and given you a chance."

"But what? You just keep repeating it again and I feel like I just gave you a chance to repeat the same mistake.''

''So, I beg you.Let me go, I also want to be happy.

"What you're saying is not true, there I'm even very grateful because even though you've known my dark side all this time, you still stick with me and don't leave me."

"Just try if someone else, he must have left me before."

"Heh, you always say the same words.But they are all inversely proportional to the reality that is happening now."

I immediately got out of my seat and went straight out of the contract.Dani had grabbed my hand and held me.However, with all my strength I immediately brushed it off.

I myself do not know, should go where now.I try to hold back my tears so as not to go out and be seen by my rented neighbor.

Almost about 500 meters I just stopped and looked around me.And now I was near the mosque which was near the grocery store where I used to shop.

I decided to go inside the mosque and there was a kiyai who just came out.

"You want to come in?" ask her.

"Yes sir," replied me with a heavy voice.

"It looks like you're not doing well right now and it's true that you're coming to the right place" he said.

"Whatever the problem, whatever it may be.Return to your Lord, only Allah S.W.T is the almighty knowing all the contents of your heart."

"Yes sir......"

He also came out and let me in.He also had time to show me his ablution place.

What the father said was very true, maybe all this time I had gone too far with my god.Until I forgot, my main complaint place.

Immediately I rushed to take ablution and after that I went inside.

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"O Allah, forgive the servant who has stayed away from you.Hamba khilaf, the servant is very sinful."

"O Allah, the servant knows and is very sure.No problem befalls the life of the servant beyond the limits of the ability of the servant.Hamba is also sure, you will always be there for the servant to the end."

"O Allah, ask me now to strengthen the heart of the servant.Help the heart of the servant, describe the servant and strengthen the mentality of this servant.I am not sure that I will bear it all alone,I feel weak now.Give me strength to face the test from you."

I poured out all my sadness while hugging my hands.The tears that I had been holding back from spilling were instantly unbearable.

After I felt calm and relieved, I decided to sleep in this mosque tonight.

I don't want to see Dani, I've been quite disappointed and hurt by her.In my mind now is I want to go home to my house.

However, I am afraid that my return will create new problems again.And for both my parents are worried, especially I know my mother has a history of weak heart disease.

I can't possibly tell her now, that there will even be a chance for my mother to fall ill.

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"Son is a blanket" said the father as I sat pensively.

I was shocked because I was not aware of his arrival.

"Yes sir, thank you....."

"It looks like tonight you don't want to go home, it's okay to sleep here.Later you'll lock it from the outside,"

"But if you want, you can sleep in the father's house for tonight.It just so happens that there is a wife and granddaughter of the father also at home." he continued.

"Of course you can sir, I'm embarrassed now.I'm even bothering you tonight,"

"It's okay, son, besides we are fellow Muslims should help each other, right?"

Hearing his words just now, I immediately agreed and followed him from behind.

It turned out that his house was not far from the mosque.Only, this is the first time for me to pass this road.

"That's my father's house, which is green cet" he said, pointing to his house.

"Yes sir......"

We both finally arrived at his house which was actually very good.Although not so big, but I could feel the warmth when I saw it.

Not long after, there was a middle-aged woman who opened the door from the inside.She initially looked surprised by my presence, but a moment later she oun smiled at me.

"Geezer has come home too" said one daughter.

"Who's this cake?" ask the boy.

"Whoa first, Grandpa will explain inside."

"Nurma." said the boy, extending his hand.

"Naima,"

"Sister's name is very good" he said with a smile.

"Yes already, because you guys are already acquainted.We should just go straight in, it's already night." invite grandfather.

Grandpa's wife immediately embraced my hands and brought me inside.We also sat in the living room which was also made a family room.

"Sit down, son" said the grandmother.

"Sir, why is this boy the same father?" ask the grandmother.