I Want to Be Happy, too
Episode 17's
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"I can ask for help not the same a Pandi, to redecorate it all from others."
"For sure, I can't expose the ugliness of others.Especially it's a foreign thing in society."
"Let's be calm, I'm not as bad as you think.Hopefully what your decision will be, that's best for you." he continued.
"Yeah......."
Without feeling me and a Pandi had been chatting almost an era.Until finally the bell sign home was ringing back.Sign if the overtime came home.
A Pandi and I immediately broke away and I immediately ran to the cafeteria to wait for Asih tea.
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Arriving at the rented, I immediately locked myself in the room.I cried as it happened.Because I still do not believe what is happening to me now.
I feel like I was struck by lightning in broad daylight.The men I have admired, I appreciate, I respect and I love with all my heart, my friends have lied to me so far.
I was determined to find concrete evidence and would tell all of it to her parents.
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Two days after the incident, my husband came home from Java.I acted as usual and pretended not to know what really happened.
However, when I saw his face my feelings were very painful and broken and it had an effect on my attitude towards him.
Maybe he also felt strange about my attitude today, but I know my husband's attitude towards bodo whatever it is.
What pisses me off is, he's always busy with his HP and never gets out of his grip.
"You from last night kept busy with your HP, to the point that your wife was kept quiet like this" I said.
He looked shocked looking at me and spoke rather rudely this time at her.
"We're the reason, since last night you've been cold to me?"
Instead of answering her questions, I prefer to leave her and get out of the house.I went straight to Naya's tea place to calm down.
Fortunately at that time, Teh Naya was in a saung behind her contract.
I approached him with a bent face.
"Hey......"
"You why? You seem to be upset, tell me the same."
"Gard tea, I'm dizzy again.I want to eat something fruitful and spicy." My reply distracts.
Since there was no way I could tell an excuse, why am I now upset.
"Yes, how about we make noodles aja.Atau you want us to buy seblak aja in the gang mangis." invite him.
"I want some tea,"
"Oh yeah, where's the kid? I didn't see him before." I continued.
"She's staying at her aunt's house again, let's go.Once in a while I'm enjoying my solitude" she said with a smile.
We immediately got out of our seats and headed straight to the rented tea Naya to pick up the bike.
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"Where are you from? Play go so.I've been nunguin you're alone." said Dani when I just arrived at the contract.
"I've gone to buy snacks with Naya tea, besides you yourself must be busy with your HP." said I.
I opened the fridge to get some groceries for us to eat in the afternoon.
I chose to avoid it and busy myself in the kitchen making food for both of us.When in fact my heart was crying to complain all my complaints at this time.
However, I also thought back to.On whom I will complain, there is no way I complain to his parents.Especially to Dani's family, there is no way I can complain,later they even thought I was slandering his son.Because now I still do not get strong evidence.
If I tell it to each other, equally I tell the ugliness and throat of my own husband.I'm afraid, there will be Dani as a gossip material.
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"Let's eat.." take me to Dani who is watching TV in the room.
We both ate as usual in the living room.Just the silence created, I feel lazy to talk to him now.
"The saute is less salt than a little more," he said.
"Yes, don't eat if it's not good.Eat with each other, '" I said.
His eyes immediately looked at me, maybe he was surprised by the answer I gave him.Because usually, I always be meek and polite when leafing in front of him.
But now the story is different, I can no longer behave like I used to.
He finally grabbed the omelette and ate with it.
After I finished eating, I immediately washed the dirty things.And cleaned the clothes that I washed this morning.
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In the evening, I chose to play at Naya's tea house with Nila's mother, coincidentally after the magrib prayer she approached me and invited me to gather at her rented Naya tea.
I felt a little consolation when I was in the middle of the two of them.They told me a lot of things that were enough to make me laugh and entertain.
I no longer care about the husband who is now alone in the rented.If in the past, when Dani came home from his overseas time I spent a lot in the rented with him.
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"Where did you come from, at this hour just came home?" ask her.
"Yes, you know for yourself, so Miss Nila invited me to play with her tea contract" I replied.
"Yes, you should be here, not even in the house of others." he said.
"I'm used to it, when you're there like to play with them both.At the same time you also like to be busy with your HP." I reply.
I went straight into the room and prepared to go to sleep, I no longer cared about him and chose to hide in the blanket.
I heard him lock the front door and go straight into the room.He tried to hug me, but I immediately pulled him over.
"I want to sleep, I feel hot....."
He immediately let go of his embrace and slept his back to me.
I don't want to be this cold to her, however, I don't lie to my feelings and heart right now.It's hard for me to be ordinary when I'm around her.
