I Need Restu

Ten

What happened made me think more and more about what this was, whether this was the impact of my mistake when urging bang irham to get married, somehow explaining to everyone, correct all these misunderstandings. Sometimes I feel tired, I feel alone, but what I want in the word I can only leave it to the Creator.

The day I and bang irham went through there were only stories that we heard, people told from mouth to mouth to come here without knowing the truth. I can only be quiet and patient when I will answer everything.

Today was the day I was going to do a follow-up test at one of the biggest hospitals in the city, but bang irham forbade me to continue the test, she told me to be a total housewife.

The thing that scared him was the shift schedule that clashed between me and bang irham so it was likely that our time for the two would be a bit.

" deck, it's best not to take a test today" pinta bang irham told me after dawn prayers

"but how bang, dear if not in this continue will remain two more stages" I said with a look of disbelief in the decision of bang irham, I said, wasn't it all good before there was no talk of work, but what's possible is that I thought about what's best for both of us going forward, not when we both work together will have a little time to be together, I admit.

At first it felt heavy but finally I followed what bang irham said.

day after day I and bang irham went through, many things happened many things that we have to do, for example adjusting each other, succumbing to each other does not stand on our own ego.

Apparently like this wedding, we who have just run a few days of marriage should understand each other and understand how that is many years.

the next day I and bang irham visited the mother-in-law's house, the intention of the heart to want to meditate turned out to get new problems again, but here I am grateful bang irham tried to explain impartially.

Mother "why not be a job, why not continue the test, is that not the original goal?" that's my response when I told her why it didn't work

"it's not like that ma'am, if we work together the possibility of our time will be very minimal to meet" said bang irham

"but why, so you'll work alone? Why high school if not work" said the mother again, here I'm a little offended not work is my decision, high school problems or anything is not the right of the mother, but the, being a housewife with high school does not matter whether a mother should have the knowledge to guide her children later, not the mother is the first madrasah of a child, not the mother is the first madrassa of a child, ah it is useless I argue will not solve the problem but will add new problems again.

"this is purely an irham ma'am decision, melia actually wants to work, but irham forbid. Irham is still able to provide melia bu insya Allah" said bang irham in despair

"but what about the mother, automatically everything will be to melia, mother how?" again mother does not accept, maybe mother's intention here is the salary bang irham

"it's true that now my wife's melia ma'am but that doesn't mean I'm forgetting my responsibility to mom, please understand ma'am" said bang irham

"have it, it's up to you. Free cape cape mom sent you anyway who enjoyed your salary instead of mother instead of your wife and in-laws" said the mother

Astagfirullah, I can only stroke the chest looking bang irham began to emotion, what does this mother mean, I can't possibly be that greedy.

"As for the deck to go home," said bang irham invited me home to prevent a commotion, I who initially wanted to answer my intentions and immediately say goodbye to the mother and father who had just returned.

What is the meaning of this mother's speech, is not bang irham has an obligation to support me, I am now the responsibility of bang irham.

After we arrived at the house bang irham tried to calm me down not to listen to what mom said, maybe here the mother feels rivaled that all this time all and everything financial problems her son and other mothers who set it up, he said, now there is another woman in her child's life who will be a priority maybe here the mother feels in the duakan and can not accept, she said, I try to digest what bang irham said and yes I feel that what bang irham said is true as well, maybe here I am the one who has to give up a little bit, a little understanding and breastfed with mother, hopefully in the future I can continue to be patient with the mother's behavior even though sometimes painful.

"please be patient with the mother deck, hopefully in the future you can understand everything" bang irham told me upon our arrival at home

"well bang, I hope I can continue to be patient with my mother and continue to understand" I said

"yes thank you deck, brother will try to explain to the mother slowly land" said bang irham

"yes, I understand very well"

I just hope that in the future mom understands a little and does not act. I don't know where my patience will be.

Here I am still in a dilemma still have not received the decision bang irham so that I do not work I am still trying to accept, here I need a support instead of dropping my mental, even dropping my mental, who does not want to work, I also want to enjoy the money of my own hard work without helping anyone but do not I have to listen to what irham said, he is now my husband, my husband, my priest my heaven is on him my baktu has moved on to him. What irham said, what he decided was the best for us, it is impossible for him to decide something without thinking about the impact ahead.

Now my job and bang irham apparently increased, not only to pursue the blessing and forgiveness of my parents, but also to try to explain and understand what my mother-in-law wants, she said, here we have to work hard and be patient.

Sometimes I think we can do all this can we finish all of this, want to scream as hard as possible, want to feel like disappearing but what my day, whatever, our marriage is still a corn and even a matter of days but the trials we face are increasing, not yet finished one problem plus one problem

It turns out that I forgot, I still have God, He is where I will take care of everything I face, is not as good as the solution is to submit to the Creator