I'll wait for your promise

This is Taste 1

My decision to go home was already unanimous. Unbeknownst to Disa I bought a ticket. I also tidied up the items gradually so that he did not suspect anything. My current emotions had indeed subsided, but I was still reluctant to talk to him. After dinner I went back to my room. This is the right time to clean the clothes that will be brought. Disa hasn't come home yet. The girl had been going to Sanu's house since this afternoon. The bag I was ready to carry was hidden under the bed. My twin would not be able to see because it was covered in lace.

Suddenly someone opened the door of the room loudly. I can't be sniveled. He walked over quickly to me with an angry face. I pretended to ignore him, he stood in front of me.

“Dif, why didn't you say you wanted to go home?” Asked Disa, annoyed.

“Why should I say?” I looked at him for a moment. Back to clothes.

“Can we go home together? You can leave me alone.” Eyes glazed.

“You also have the heart to hurt your brother.” Tidy up the thesis files on the table.

“Dif, I'm sorry for hurting your heart. But I didn't mean to take Sanu. I didn't know she liked me too. Ever since I saw her on Facebook, I started to like her. But I kept it a secret because he was approaching you at the time. And..”

“Udah should not be continued. I already know everything from your diary.” I cut the explanation.

“Diary???” Squeeze his forehead.

“Iya. I read everything. I accidentally found it in your suitcase when I borrowed a jacket. At first I didn't care and kept Sanu. I'm trying to make Sanu like me. But when I saw what happened back then, my heart broke. I can't believe why she would prefer you over me who's always with her. I'm the one who fought, but why did you get his love!” I looked up, looking at Disa. Tears have flooded my cheeks.

Cana held both my hands. “Dif, I'll tell Sanu, for him to choose you. I'm willing. I'm sincerely married as long as you are happy.”

“Iya. I am the happy one. Not Sanu. Why would I marry him, if his love is for you. What I want his love. Not his body.”

“Dif, I'm sorry. I was wrong for not being honest with you. Now what can I do to make you forgive me?” Disa's crying.

“I don't know Dis either. All I know now, I want to be alone and away from you guys.”

“Keep how about Om, Aunt, Dad, Mom and more. They must be asking why you came home alone?”

“Tell them if your research is not done, while I have to report to the Lecturer immediately. As smart as you lie, you are already good at lying to me. So it can definitely lie to them.”

“Difa, I never intend to lie to you in the least. I just don't dare say my feelings.”

“Same, done it. I want to tidy up my things.” I let go of Disa's grip. Removing tears and returning to clothing.

He sat at the end of the bed, looking at me. Mournfully.

How did he know I was going home? Definitely Dayat. Yes, Dayat. Only he knows my plan. And he's also the one who bought the ticket, my mind.

~*~

A week after I came home, Disa also came home. At that time I was able to accept Disa better. I wanted to talk to him even for the most important thing. Since returning from Jakarta, Disa was very excited to work on the script. Almost every night he stayed up in front of the laptop. During the day he spent more time in the library.

During the phone call, Mas Vino said that the Sanu family will come next month to propose to Disa. He also proposed to me the same day. I was surprised to hear that news. Vino can't propose to me. I don't want to marry him. Maybe this is the right time to tell the truth. I hesitantly asked to break up on the grounds that I still love other people and just make him a place of impingement. The man across the phone was furious and his words began to get rough. I try to understand his feelings. It's only natural that he's so angry. All this time he's been sincerely in love with me, but I hurt him. Mas Vino forced me to tell him who I had always loved. But I dare not say it. I can't say that that guy was Sanu. I don't want him to hate Sanu, just like I hate Disa. I am prepared for the risks I face. I'd be willing if that man really hated me, rather than the marriage happening without love.

~*~

The day of application has arrived. The Sanu family came. Mas Vino and his parents also came. There is a different taste when entertaining them. A disappointed look was seen in the eyes of Mas Vino and his Parents. Even the glasses guy refused to see me. I realize I hurt them and it's a risk I have to bear.

While everyone was eating, I ventured to approach Mas Vino who was sitting under a mango tree. He knew I was coming, but wouldn't look at me. My heart is pounding. Don't know what to say. I sat next to him, and he quickly left. I greeted him, but it was not answered. I approached him again when I took a drink. He also avoided. I tried to approach both of his parents. They did the same thing, ignoring me. Now I can feel what Disa felt when I was angry with her. It's really painful. I was hurt, and I hurt other people too.

Happiness radiated on Sanu and Disa's face.  Hatred was on Mas Vino's face. Dayat's right. Maybe, if I was honest from the beginning the man who had been my lover would not be this angry. Maybe the wound won't go too deep. Mistakes that Disa has made, why do I have to repeat again? I should have learned a lesson from my troubles with Disa. Honesty in the beginning is better, than too long hidden will be a deeper wound. O Allah, this is a very valuable lesson for me and I will not repeat it again, my mind.

I'm determined to apologize directly to Mas Vino and his parents. I approached them when I gathered.

　

　

　

　

　

　

　

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