I'll call your Husband's Love

Eps. 71. The Tilting of Neighbors

The night is getting late, but Tamara still finds it very difficult to calm Chia down.

The toddler was incessantly crying as if something had not been fulfilled, so he became very agitated.

Various ways Tamara has done, but Chia's crying only had to stop for a while and returned to crying a few minutes later. That's just the next.

"Mama ... mama .. mama." Only that call kept coming from Chia's lips as she cried.

"Dear Chia, this is mama, son. You always called my mom. Mama's here with you, honey." The sobbing now also could not be held coming from Tamara herself. He increasingly realized that what Chia called 'Mama' was not him, but Yuri.

If previously Chia looks happy with her, but her crying that can not be stopped that night, makes Tamara increasingly unable to stem her regret. The fleshly blood she had painstakingly delivered from her own womb and had not understood anything, as if she was very angry and also could not forgive all her mistakes.

With tears in her eyes, Tamara carried Chia and carried her out to the porch. He was very hopeful, getting fresh air outside the house could make Chia feel calmer.

"Well, it's a little hotter here, honey. Chia don't cry anymore! Mama will carry you all night long, as long as you don't fuss." Tamara can smile a little relieved, because Chia looks a little calm when there on the terrace.

That calmness also did not last long felt by Tamara. A few minutes later, Chia cried again and continued to arch her body while pointing towards the exit.

"Mama ... mama .. mama." Those words kept coming from her tiny lips.

Hearing Chia's never-ending cries, two neighbors next to Tamara's nearest house, came to look there, curious about Chia's condition.

"Chia why, Jeng Tamara? I heard you crying." The neighbor asked Tamara and looked curious.

"No idea, Jeng. From this afternoon my son cried continuously and was very unsettled. In fact, he's not sick. The body is not hot either" Tamara replied with a visibly anxious face, afraid that something might happen to her daughter if her cries could not stop.

"Mama ... mama .. mama." Chia also continued to call out the call, while continuing to point at the exit.

"Who, who is Chia's mama, Jeng Tamara? She's her own mother again, but why is she still calling?" The woman, Tamara's neighbor, smiled sneered.

"The one Chia called Mama was Yuri, right? Former baby sitter who is now a mother Chia continued." The other neighbor replied also with a nyinyir tone.

"Yes sure! Wrong himself from the first do not pay attention to his own children."

The two women whispered to each other while looking at Tamara with ridiculed looks.

"Yes, if the child during the baby does not want to be breastfed, that is .. will not want to be close to his own biological mother." Both are chuckling.

"Busy cheating, children themselves are not taken care of. Now rasain tuh, his own flesh and blood hates him, "the woman's insinuation is more striking.

Tamara grunted angrily at the sneers of her two neighbors, who blatantly mocked her.

"God! You two take care of your own business! No need to be with someone else!" tamara snapped, very upset to hear the taunts of her two neighbors.

"Go from my house right now!" throw Tamara away with her tone of voice rising and her eyes twinkling gave a very sharp look.

"Ahh .. The mouth of the neighbor! Mouth-mouth comberan, it's all garbage!" Tamara was very angry and still continued to curse herself, even though the two people were no longer in the area of her house.

Enraged and upset, Tamara brings Chia back into her home. The skewed talk of his neighbor, making various feelings raging in his mind.

Although he knew all this time the neighbors secretly did always make himself a gossip, only this time he heard it directly, even from his closest neighbors.

As the night went on, Chia continued to cry. Tamara is gone now. There was no longer any way he could do to calm the little boy.

Slowly Tamara laid Chia's body on her bed. With tears in her eyes, Tamara sat on the side of the bed and left Chia alone there.

"What else should I do to calm Chia down? Yes, God .. why is everything like this. My mistake was really big, but am I also wrong if I try to fix it?" tamara Sesal. The tears were now pouring down his cheeks. Chia's never-ending cries also carried the deepest cry in Tamara's heart.

For a moment, Tamara suddenly looked at a closet in her daughter's room. She recalled, when Chia was a baby, the closet was used by Yuri to store her clothes.

Tamara rushed to her feet from her seat and opened the closet. Not a lot of clothes in it. Only some needs such as bed linen, pillowcases, blankets and towels are stored there.

Tamara crouched down and checked the bottom shelf in the closet. He tried to comment on the smile when he found an old Yuri shirt there.

While carrying the shirt in her hand, Tamara again approached Chia who was still crying on the bed.

"Chia, Mama found this in the closet." Tamara brought the dress closer to Chia and the little girl's hand grabbed it.

By the time the clothes were already in Chia's hands, no matter what the cause, Chia's cries immediately came to a halt.

"Mama ..mama ...." Those words came back. However, this time there were no more cries coming out from Chia's tiny lips anymore.

While holding onto Yuri's old clothes, Chia slept on the bed and drank milk from her bottle. Quite tired from continuing to cry, the innocent boy finally fell asleep as well.

Tamara stared at her daughter's face. After various efforts, it turns out that only a used shirt belonging to Yuri can finally calm the toddler.

"Yuri .. I gave up and you won it all." Tamara grumbled to herself, not knowing who to spill the disappointment to.

Without doing much, Yuri was able to take the attention of her daughter. He is increasingly aware that Yuri has been the closest to Chia and gives her sincere affection.

"I have no hope of living in this city. My name's already smeared, I can't get a job here. Those who should love me don't think I exist either." Tamara muttered to herself. Without having to be expressed again, the regret was as if it was going to kill him already.

While rubbing Chia's head, Tamara also spread her body beside Chia. His gaze was empty, various tremors were raging in his heart.

From the nightstand, Tamara's hand grabbed her phone. From the gallery album on the phone, Tamara opened her old photos with Pandu.

"Mas Pandu, I no longer want to apologize from you. My mistake is too big for you to forgive. Whatever I do, maybe it won't make up for all my mistakes."

All night, Tamara could not close her eyes. Although Chia had calmed down, it was now her feelings that were increasingly unsettled. He felt useless in that city.