I Can Without You

54. Cloudless

The news of the Awan crash has really been a heavy blow to Surya and his family. They all never thought at all that the Cloud would have an accident and even declared lost as it is today. Wulan even got sick because he thought too much about the state of the clouds that are still missing and unknown to their existence.

Shofi who is pregnant young is actually no less hit. But Shofi realized that at this time he should not feel depressed, because it could affect the condition of the fetus that is being contained. So as much as possible Shofi tried to keep thinking calm and not too soluble in his sadness.

There are still Keinan who really need to be calmed and strengthened by Shofi at this time. Not to mention the health condition of her mother-in-law who was very declining. That was why Shofi put aside his own sadness at the moment and tried as much as possible to remain calm.

Three days have passed since the accident. The search process for Awan is still continued by the police and SAR team. But until now there is still no news about the existence of the cloud.

"Ma, eat first yes," Shofi said as he walked over to Wulan's bed.

Shofi brought a tray containing a plate of food and a glass of water for Wulan. Shofi puts the tray he brought on the nightstand and helps Wulan to get out of her sleep.

"Mom is not a laper, Shof," rejected Wulan weakly.

Since the news of Shofi's pregnancy, Wulan's attitude towards Shofi has indeed been much better. It was no longer as cold as before. Moreover, Wulan admitted, Shofi is a good wife and daughter-in-law. Polite, diligent, obedient, and not much behavior as well.

"No, I can't say that, Ma. Mama should eat even if only a little. Let Mama get well and healthy again soon" said Shofi, taking back the tray he had placed on the nightstand.

"Shofi bribe Mama, yes. Let's open his mouth, Ma," Shofi pinta.

Inevitably Wulan finally opened his mouth and received a bribe from Shofi. Shofi fed Wulan painstakingly and patiently.

A few moments later,

"Udah, Shof. Mama's full" Wulan said as Shofi tried to feed her again.

"But just a little, Ma. Not half of it yet. One more time, Ma. Just this one," said Shofi.

"No, Shof. Mama is full," refused Wulan.

"Yes, that's it. Mama drinks first, yeah. I took Mama's medicine" Shofi said in the end.

Shofi handed Wulan a glass of water. Shofi then put the plate he held onto the nightstand and then took Wulan's medicine in the drawer of the nightstand.

"Diminished the medicine, Ma," Shofi said, adding that he had taken the medicine.

Wulan received the medicine from Shofi then took it. Shofi takes over the glass held by Wulan then puts it on the nightstand.

"Thank you, Shof," said Wulan.

"Yes, Ma. Equally," Shofi replied with a smile.

"Shofi, you if you want to go home to your mother, Mama does not forbid really," said Wulan suddenly.

Wulan thought that the absence of Clouds in this house right now, would make Shofi feel uncomfortable. So maybe Shofi wants to go home first to his mother so he can calm himself as well.

Shofi smiled gently. Wulan's hand was held above the lap.

"Shofi same Keinan stay here, Ma. Shofi same Keinan want to nemenin Mama with Papa. Let's go home later, Mas Awan, he can see all of us gathered waiting for the return of Mas Awan," replied Shofi.

"The Cloud Service must be found soon, Ma. Mas Awan must be fine, and he must be back in this house soon, ", Shofi assured his mother-in-law.

Wulan then hugged Shofi. Behind Wulan's back, Shofi silently wiped away the tears that had also flowed down his cheeks.

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Tonight, Shofi and Keinan had already laid their bodies both on the bed. Shofi hugged his son's body.

"Mother" call Keinan.

"Yes, baby," Shofi replied.

"Kei kangen with Papa," said Keinan.

Without the command of both eyes Shofi immediately drain the clear circle back. But Shofi immediately removed it. As much as possible Shofi did not want to show his cry in front of his son.

"Yes, honey. Mother also misses Papa," replied Shofi with a slightly trembling voice.

Shofi further tightened his embrace to Keinan. Kissed the top of his son's head.

"We're doing it together, baby. May Allah SWT always protect Papa, wherever Papa is at this time. And hopefully Papa will also be found soon and can be reunited with all of us. Aamiin," continued Shofi, teaching Keinan to pray.

"Aamiinu. Yes, Bun. Kei also always do'ain like that for Papa," Keinan replied.

"Pinter's son Mother," praised Shofi, who kissed Keinan's head again.

"Udah ya, now Kei bobok, it's already malem. Tomorrow let's not bad luck waking up for his morning prayer."

"Yes, Bun."

"Berdo'a first, baby."

Keinan then raised both of his palms and read the do'a before going to bed.

"Good night, Mother. Kei love Mommy. Sama dedek too," said Keinan who then kissed Shofi's cheek and gently stroked Shofi's stomach.

Shofi smiled gently.

"Good night, dear brother Kei. Mother same grandpa also very dear brother Keinan," replied Shofi who then also kissed Keinan forehead.

Keinan then began to close his eyes. And it did not take long, Keinan was finally asleep in his sleep.

Shofi's tears are back. He gently rubbed his stomach which had begun to bulge it. Usually before sleeping like this Clouds will always rub his stomach with a lot of affection. And only then could Shofi sleep soundly.

But now, inevitably Shofi had to get used to this for a while without the presence of the Clouds just yet. Although it feels heavy. But Shofi must be able to stay and show his attitude that he is fine. For the sake of his son, Keinan. For the sake of her mother-in-law who was sick from being too shocked. And for all his other family as well.