HIM, MY BEST FRIEND

I end it all

Plaque!

I looked up at the source of the sound. I was really surprised to learn that Nina slapped Harry in public.

"Mine!" I approached him directly.

"I didn't know, Har. You are so bad! You can do this all the same Riri. Riri is also our friend! That's how you want to be General Champion until you get to do this to Riri?" Nina pointed at Harry's face with emotion.

"Nin, it's Nin, shame." I took Nina's hand from there.

I've never seen Nina this angry. Once, he was angry. At that time our class children pried a PKL teacher to tears. He immediately kicked down the table and scolded the entire class. But at that time he was not this angry. Now I don't even feel like I know him.

"Sorry, yeah. I made you angry like this" I regretted.

"No, Ri. It's not your fault. Harry is outrageous. I often hear him say he wants to kill you. But I can't believe he's using this cunning way."

"What do you mean?" many confused.

"Yes, he's playing with your feelings. Let's go down and not make it."

Oh my God, is this really?

"But why that woman? Even to be your footwear she doesn't pantes," Nina grumbled her teeth.

I took a deep breath. Trying to put in a lot of oxygen so my brain can work properly.

Is that why he approached me all this time? I am his friend. Just for the sake of an ambition to be number one, he could do this to me. Fix, I'll end it all today. This relationship not only hurt me, but my friends as well.

***Writtenness all this time

after all this time we've been together

this is the end of the love story

I was always proud of in front of them

I don't know where I hid my shame

Now I have to get through

it's my lonely day without you anymore

let me now stand against time

'to forget you

though grievous

but I survived

End of Love Story - Glenn Fredly***

...

"I ask for your time, Har," I said softly, without looking at him as he walked past my front row.

"Go back to school" I continued without seeing him.

He paused for a moment, then continued his steps without responding to my words just now.

I knew he was thinking, I just had to wait for his answer by deeds.

...

The lesson hours are up for today. A really exhausting day.

"Ri, there is Ahmad at the door" whispered Kurnia from the back bench.

I looked in the direction Kurnia meant. Sure enough, Ahmad was already standing there while fixing the location of his glasses.

"Well, is he there?" ask Kurnia again. "No longer waiting for you, right?"

"I don't know."

"But you want the same thing I said this morning, right?"

"Good!"

"I'll end it all, Om. I'm sorry, I got you involved in all this" I said.

"What do you mean?"

"I want to end my relationship with Harry."

Kurnia.

"Maybe it's better" he said in the end.

"But that means our friendship will end. I'm really sorry, Om. It's all because of me, "I pretend to put all my books and stationery on the table because Bu Neni started to notice us.

Actually, I know, not only did Ms. Neni notice me, but the whole school.

It's not unusual for them to whisper, even to deliberately raise their voices when talking about me. And as usual, I don't care.

"It wasn't your fault. It was the Coward's fault. He ruined our friendship. And I don't need a friend like him" said Kurnia.

I didn't say anything until Harry finished leading the prayer and greeting our Class Guardians.

"Ri, I'm anter home, yeah. I brought the car," Ahmad said with a smile as I arrived in front of him.

"I'm sorry, Madame. Today I need to first. Maybe tomorrow or another day" I said regretfully.

"Yes, deh. No pa pa," he said still with a smile. He doesn't want to force.

I patted her shoulder.

"Yes first." I waved as I began to step away from him.

Kurnia walked to line me without a word. When we got to the front gate, we stopped.

"Good luck, yeah. May he be given the best path" he said, rubbing my hair.

"Thank's yes, Om." I wanted to cry, grateful to have a best friend.

I started walking home. Kurnia was waiting for Fitri at the school gate.

I started down the road I used to walk. The cold wind made me tighten the cardigan that wrapped my body. The leaves were falling, making my mood more painful. Without even looking I knew someone was walking behind me. And I know it's Harry.

I walked as usual, without speeding up or slowing down. Harry simply followed without saying anything. We walk with our own minds.

And we arrived in front of my alley. I stopped waiting for Harry to get to where I was standing.

He walked with his hands into his jacket pocket, as usual. With a flat face without expression.

"Thank you for your time" I said as he stood before me. I try not to have any vibrations in my voice.

"Don't worry, I won't spend your time in vain. I just wanted to say what I should have said since yesterday."

I took as many breaths as I could as I could thus let out all my heartache.

"From this moment on I've cut off our relationship. All of our relationships, including the friendships we have made. Thank you for everything you did for me. I really appreciate it. And I will return all your gifts. Please go ahead, don't greet me, don't rebuke me. Consider me the wind. Because I would do the same to you. Please do whatever you want, with whoever you want." I end my words.

I waited. Harry said nothing. But I could see him rubbing the corner of his eye before he turned his back on me.

It feels like saying this. But I'd rather end it than hang on to a relationship that only hurts my heart. I don't know what he's thinking. He hasn't turned around to face me. He was still faithfully staring at the passing vehicle in front of us.

"Aren't you going to say goodbye to me?" I don't know why that line came out of my lips. A sentence that I think dropped my pride.

He turned. His face was flat as before. It was as if what I had said had not affected him at all.

"You're the one who wants to talk. I'm just listening. If that's what you want, I will." That's all that came out of his mouth.

I smiled cynically.

"I think I'm talking to you like this. I still want to think positively, but it turns out that what they all say is true. You're just benefiting me." I held my tears so as not to spill in front of him.

"You are good at acting. Congratulations, you've made me really hurt." I immediately ran towards my house without looking back at him again.

I immediately buried my face into the pillow as soon as I reached the room. I shed all the tears I've had since. I bit my lip so that this cry would not be heard. Enough of this room to witness how many tears I have shed for her. From this moment on I will not mention his name in my prayer and there will no longer be his name in my heart.