HIM, MY BEST FRIEND

Be late

Tonight I can't close my eyes for a second.

The pain in my chest made me keep hitting my chest. Hope this pain goes away in the night wind.

I regret. Really sorry. Regretful for Harry's betrayal, also sorry for the breakdown of our friendship. Me, Harry, Kurnia and Ayudya.

Of course, it hurts to be betrayed, especially by people we trust very much. Plus my heart is starting to receive all the attention and affection that might also be fake.

"I'm stupid." I said in my heart, beating my head.

My tears are dry. Leaves a sticky feeling on the cheeks. I don't know what my face is like now. My eyes could barely see because of her swollen petals.

I took a deep breath, trying to make peace with my heart. Started to examine one by one the mistakes I might have made until Harry could have done this to me.

Our memories came one by one, like a film that played alternately.

So many sweet memories I have with him. As long as we were friends, even after our status turned into lovers. Butwhy? It was always the 'why' and 'why' questions that kept crammed inside my head without getting a single answer.

"You said you loved me long ago. You said you wanted to be first and last for me. You said, just look at you, not the other way. You said, no matter what happens, I have to trust you. But now what?! All you said was bullshit! You just want to hurt me!" I still sobbed while looking at our photo that I took when we last took a walk together on Braga Street.

She still smiles sweetly. With a loving look. Is that how you act, Har?

I still want to think positively, but I can't. The shadow of Harry holding Gita and Gita holding Harry in his arms continued to disturb my thoughts.

I'm the one who can at least fool a lie, let alone a betrayal.

I have to take a stand. Even if it would break my heart. But at least not with my pride.

...

This morning I went to school as usual. Even if I can choose, I want to stay home.

School is still empty. I chose to lean against the front fence of my class on this 3rd floor, rather than sitting sweetly in class.

I cast my gaze towards the cloud ahead. The sky seemed to understand my feelings. I closed my eyes, letting the cold wind crumble my face.

"Ri..," called out a voice I've long avoided.

I looked at the direction the sound was coming from. Ahmad was standing behind me. I threw a small smile at him.

"Yes." Yeah."

"May I stand here?"

I nodded in favor.

Ahmad stood next to me, concentrating his weight on his hands, which also leaned against the fence.

"Are you all right?" ask carefully.

"Yes, I'm fine."

"But you look out...."

"You people?"

He was silent not answering my guess.

"That's how the bike is, huh?" I laugh, laugh at myself.

The cold wind blew quite hard, blowing away my hair that I had let break.

"I'm so sad to see you like this."

At the same time, he stared at me.

This time we were in a position like this. Looking at each other without any intention of taking our eyes off each other.

When this happened a few months ago, I could be sure my face would turn like a boiled crab. But not this time.

"Don't always be tough. I know you are not okay" said Ahmad.

I'm not trying to deny.

"I saw everything that happened yesterday. Not only when Harry came home with Gita, but also when Kurnia hit and cursed Harry."

I bite my lips. Trying to get rid of the annoyance and anger when you remember the incident.

"And I also saw you crying on Kurnia's back."

I'm woken. I thought there was no one else around. It turned out that Ahmad saw it. Seeing how fragile I am.

I'm still quiet. Not responding to everything Ahmad said.

"Ri, I'm sorry. I'm late. If only I had been more sensitive and more courageous, you would not have experienced something like this."

I pulled my lips up.

"Sorry. I'm afraid I misinterpreted your words just now. But if I can GR, you mean that...."

"Yes, when you say you like guys wearing glasses, I should understand that you mean me. But I still maintain my folly and consider you an unreachable star." Ahmad took a deep breath as if in his lungs there was no oxygen.

I realized that this guy beside me needed a lot of courage to reveal what he had just said.

I patted her shoulder slowly.

"Thank you" I said. I want him to know that I understand what he means.

"So, can I be by your side now even if I know it's too late?" ask him expectantly.

I looked back at the darkening sky.

"Slow, Mad. Very late. Because in my heart now there's only Harry's name" my inner self.

"You're right, Madame. You're overdue. If you had said that a while ago, I would have been the happiest girl in the world."

Ahmad gulped. Not a word came out of his mouth. Looks disappointed there.

"But even now I would be happy if you were beside me" I continued.

The look on his face changed immediately. His smile was perfect. A red hue was seen on her white cheek.

"Hey, I'm not done talking. Don't be so cool!" I laughed amusedly. This is the first time I've laughed after Harry's betrayal.

"The tunnel beside me currently only exists as a friend. Not more. Yesterday I lost a friend. Interested in?" candaku.

And an unexpected answer I got.

Ahmad took a step forward and immediately pulled me in his arms! He hugged me!

My eyes wide. I was surprised amazingly. No one has ever dared to embrace me like this. Even Kurnia and Harry never dared to be this sassy.

My eyes were more perfectly rounded when I saw Harry standing over Ahmad's shoulder with a crimson face and clenched hands. And of course with that woman behind him!