HATE VEILED WOMEN

#45

I set my foot on the green expanse, which was near the housing that I had visited with Silla and Rasya long ago.

The sun that shows itself in the eastern horizon, has illuminated the world that fits not excessive. Droplets of sweat flowed all over my body.

Along with the wind groping the skin layer, the, a look that is not strong for me to not close in the blazing sun that shines bright like a king of the universe who seems to not care about the sadness of his people by still emitting rays of happiness this morning.

The radiance of the sun accompanied me in the middle of the process of charging energy, which had been drained out after running this morning, I stood up to run out of mineral water wrapped in a transparent bottle inscribed tupperware.

I straighten my legs, I take off the long cloth on my shoulder, I pull it out of the hole to the hole until the bond breaks, and made it easy for me to free my left leg to feel the outside world is very cool and shady, as well as the same treatment on the right leg.

After removing the thing called shoes, then I leaned my body against a large tree that fit perfectly against the river, as the wind gently gusts wiggling the oversized clothes I was wearing this morning, wind blows with the effect of inviting a bunch of leaves and twigs swaying right to left without shame.

Today I took a break to teach, to accompany my two children at home, and deliberately make me spend it to win my heart and just forget about the sad incident. There is no end to the incident, there is no end to it, and the police have not found my wife who makes me almost give up.

I hope that this gentle wind can also blow away all those terrible and miserable shadows a few tens of hours ago. The invisible abstract shadows in the retina's shadow are not a matter of pitagoras, logarithms, or geometric series that are really challenging but can be solved with formulas and wills.

All this time the shadow kept wandering in my mind, like a ghost that constantly haunted my life.

The shadow continued to shine in every step I tried to tread in every flow of my activity, I admit that the incident made a special impression in my life.

Please forget, but instead move back, which is the event that the woman I have become so dear to has left me alone in this vast and alienated world.

The woman steadfastly left me without a word of farewell, and I don't know where her body is now..

My heart that was originally good was immediately broken without permission until this self does not know when it will be treated. Maybe even a specialist's medicine won't be able to treat my broken heart in that instant.

My world seems to have stopped rotating, just waiting for time maybe the earth will stop evolving.

The apocalypse, perhaps the one word that I think right now, is not a shock of the earth like in Surah al zalzalah. It is also not like anai-anai flying on surah al qari'ah. But the apocalypse I feel right now is the inner apocalypse, the apocalypse that shook my body until I drowned not knowing what I was going to do next.

Time to forget the figure of the woman who has been my backrest all this time, I don't know. Am I able to forget it? Am I able to live and raise my two children without him? That kind of question keeps on ringing in my heart.

He is like my life being a booster, a crutch, an encouragement in my life, I am desperate for him to have gone to Almighty God, and left me alone without my permission.

I close my eyes, with a dam of sadness slowly petrifying in the recesses of my heart. Even this drop of tears I couldn't bear, I currently seemed to turn into a pitiful crybaby figure.

This defense began to collapse, the tears that I had been holding countless times had hatched again, I was no longer strong.

I hardened my crying voice so I felt relieved, I ignored the situation around there.

I pull my legs together, I wrap my hands into a hug, I drown my face between my arms and legs. I embrace my body firmly so that the pain I feel can be felt also on my body. My mind has been broken, do I also have to destroy this soul of God, so that I can be with my wife?

My mind drifted, I thought I was crazy, I was not strong for the trials God gave me. I hold my body, I take off my arms, I lift my head, I look at the river in front of me. I decided to end my life with all consideration let me come with you baby.

I tried to stand with my hands holding up a tree that I had placed on the back. After this body is upright, I stretch my legs with a shunt towards the vast expanse of the river, which is often said by people if the river is very deep.

My mind was chaotic, my eyes were straight fixed on the abundant water in front of me. I made a happy face, shouldn't I please?

One step of my feet can touch the cold water that there is a large pool, before I move, I close my eyes I say in my heart :

"God forgive me. I'm aware of the mistake I'm going to make right now. To you angel of death, take my life, make it easy for me to meet my partner, whom I will always miss for the rest of my life in this world.

Honey, are you happy with what I'm doing right now? Soon Mas will meet you, and we can be together there, "

not strong these eyes to stem the tears in the coldness.

I thrust my body forward, to relax my body in front of this river. The abundant water in front of me at this time will probably be a silent witness to my departure.

Before this body fell in the water, there was a strong hand that grabbed me. I turned my head to the master who pulled my body away from the river.

"You who? How dare it bother me, go you!!! " push me firmly on a foreign woman who looks the same age as me.

"I'm sorry for your disturbance, sir, for my actions. But what are you going to do in that river? People say the river is very deep. What if you drowned there when no one could help you, sir?" softly said the woman in front of me.

"Why would I drown and die? She has left me, my wife has left me,

I. I just want to die, I can't live without it,"

I said softly and I bowed my gaze and came back crying.

"Are you sure that after you die, you will be reunited with your wife? Are you sure your wife, not disappointed in what you will do? Do you not fear the torment of God for challenging death? Please think and ponder, sir, I'm sure you can decide something right, " said the woman with great enthusiasm and calmness that made my mind clear again.

The woman I saw was about to step foot in my death, before I asked her.

"Can we get acquainted?"tanyaku who only got a nod and a sweet smile engraved on the lips of the woman.

" What's your name?" ask her.

" Diana, your name is sir?" askinya.

" Zaed, can we just talk formal?" I asked what he was calling.

" thank you Diana, you have opened my way of thinking, maybe without you I have been drifting in vain in the river.." I said thank you with a face that is still damp.

" yeah, can I have your number? Maybe if you are lonely I can accompany.." he said while thrusting his cellphone which I just fill the number in it.

" ohh yes sorry yes I have to go, because I have been waiting for Mother at home, byee.." he said leaving me without greetings, he said, if from his appearance he seems to not understand the religion but I am very sure he is a good person. Don't judge others by their appearance.....

After his departure, I looked up like a wisp of blue-striped cotton that added to the calmness, I smiled, I said in my heart.

" Sil, I can't catch up with you today, maybe someday when the time comes we'll be together again, for you this implausible angel of death forgive me, perhaps the time is not yet right for me to meet him, I send my message to You Lord, please take care of my wife wherever she is now, in the world or has been quiet by Your side, and strengthen her love for me, so she won't forget me easily.

Honey, I promise I'll take care of and educate our children as well as you used to get💓"