HATE VEILED WOMEN

#25

Though hearts are anchored long, in your docks,

Even though love is only prepared for you,

But in an instant, only a tiny bit of truth could tear everything down,

Promise me. I'll try to make this feel will disappear even though the pain will be a threat, he said,

~Zaed

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Finally I arrived here, in the city where my future wife lived we had a chatan to meet in a park that I have now been studying, really I did not expect if God would make things easier.

It is seen that the woman I have been waiting for since has appeared wrapped in a long black cloth wrapped intact all over her body with a woman in a long hijab beside her with a baby sling in her arms.

My heart was pounding as he began to step closer on the reclining of the chair I was starting to occupy.

The spirit!!!!!

I mentally strengthened to be more confident about the purpose I was going to tell him.

It began to walk right beside me, the shape of his body that remained the same as before, with the beautiful eyes that look stunning as before.

Her smooth white face remained a radiant beauty that was still clinging to her father's face. But instantly my body flinched when I heard a voice that really surprised me.

The speech made me who immediately fell silent stiff while translating it.

“ Here mba, let me carry Rasya, please,

Here dear,ohw..anak mother,”.

he said when the baby in his sling squirms.

“ An...ak?” my words still look stupid to digest every word he says.

“ yes Zaed, he is my boy named Rasya,” he said so relaxed to me.

As if it was intercepted by electricity, my body was only able to freeze silently with a red look that had held back the disappointment and sadness of the truth he told me.

“ You are married?” my question looks stupid, yes he must have been married he had a child, but why is this brain difficult to digest and accept the truth.

“ya as you think,” he said that was so calm.

“ How about your reply when we graduate High School? Did you forget?,”

my words raised the voice that immediately made him tell the woman who was beside him to stay away from us by carrying the baby in his carrier.

“ Sorry Zaed you are longest, I first owned and found by someone else,”

he said, but I can still listen.

“ Are you happy?” my words weakened impressed resigned with the teardrops that I could not bend again.

But for quite a while there was no answer that made me want to say another word, but I immediately paused when I began to hear the words that were thrown on his lips.

“hmmm...yes I must be happy,” he said that sounded bricky and left water marks in front of his veil.

“...okah if you are happy, I promise you will forget you, good luck with your new life may you always be happy Silla,

and I'm asking you to leave here now, because that's all I want to talk about,”

I said with a bitter smile on my lips.

“ thank you Zaed, I pray that you can get a good woman soon

Assalamualaikum His words finally left.

“ waalaikumusalam..” said I have no power to cry as it happens.

I bowed my head, I covered my face with my palms, now I feel this heart is so broken that it breaks.

My heart felt disappointed by his betrayal.

“ Lord, is this my isikhara answer? Is this the best answer you gave me?”

I said to hold my head up in the sky that still looks bright even though dusk may have darkened his body, the sky also looks so charming with the openness of some small birds that make me a little more calm.

I assure you that this is the best answer from the Giver of Power. I close my eyes, enjoying every wind that calms my heart and soul.

“ MUST BE STRONG, YOU MUST BE STRONG, GOD HAS PLANNED THE BEST WAY BUT NOT WITH HIM, maybe with another angel I do not know who,”

my words encourage me to always be positive thinking with all that God will test and give.

I kept my heart set on accepting the fact that he was happy with his household ark, but why did Rifqi and his family not obey him.

" oh God I'm sure I can, help me God to forget this feeling" I realized I had to forget it immediately

Until the beautiful chant of the Maghrib filled my ears, the chant of the Adhan in an instant spread all the anger, disappointment, and sadness that I experienced today.

“ ASTAGFIRULLAH.”

I said I just realized she's somebody's wife, so it's not good if I like her.

But I didn't know why when I focused on unbinding every rope that was stuck in my shoe,

I felt like someone was watching me that I guessed Silla, but I ignored and let it go because it was not good to also reply to the glance of the woman who had married.

“...apparently the face of the baby on the album this afternoon that his son Silla is not his son Rifqi but why is there no picture of her husband?" thought curious.

"ohh yes..meaning he has rarely played sosmed this late, it turns out the reason is because he already has children so he focuses on taking care of his baby who is like one year old,”

I thought I was starting to realize when I stepped in the ablution place.

" astagfirullah, why should I think about the lives of others," I realized if it is not good to take care of people's lives.

After the prayer I prayed, and the prayer I prayed, I prayed,

somehow this self feels comfortable and wants to stay a little longer in this very comfortable mosque, by continuing to recite the dhikr that I always say to Allah swt.

I say a dhikr to lift my heart, I'm in, I respond to every word I say, I say, what I want is that this dhikr can make me stoic and sincere about everything that has been in his way.

Long enough these lips chant every word dhikr and long enough to settle in the mosque until finally heard the sound of a phone in my gaze that has been printed clearly the name Sabrina,

I stepped my feet out to answer the phone so as not to disturb people who teach in the mosque.

“ assalamualaikum sab,”

“ wa..ala.ikum..musalam zaed, “ he said brick and sound crying is quite clear in my sense of hearing.

“ you're okay right Sab????” I said at once worried to hear his cries.

“ Zaed..ayah, Zaed, I have no Zaed,” he said who continued to cry which made me shocked and more panicked to imagine the situation now.

“ you are calm..I will go directly there, you are patient yes wait for me,”

I said while stopping the taxi to take me to the airport as soon as possible.

“ tapi..mu dealings Zaed?” said Sabrina who makes me anxious can usually be in this state he still thinks about my business.

“ already you do not need to think about it, the important thing is you are good both there I try as soon as possible until,” said I who immediately decided the call unilaterally, to quickly arrange my return.

Finally I arrived in the city yard, I footed directly in the hospital that had been sent Sabrina.

I set my feet fast with a feeling of anxiety about Sabrina's very fragile situation when it comes to her father's problems.

I increased the speed of my steps when I saw that Sabrina was already in the arms that I thought was her aunt.

“ Sabrina...” called me when she was nearby, she turned her eyes to me and finally she ran to hug me.

But for a moment he just let go when I realized by not returning his embrace but also I did not refuse his embrace.

“....maaf Zaed” said lowered his head.

“ yes no papa, ayok sit you calm your feelings first,” said me who still saw him crying.

I stood next to myself near him but there was still some distance.

“ Zaed, I really don't have anyone else, myself...” Her voice continued to cry in a lowered head with a gentle clap of aunt on her back, which hinted at calmness.

“you are calm, I will always be near you, I will marry you,” I said sure, which even made the two women beside me surprised.

“hah... say what you are, don't joke in circumstances like this Zaed,” said Sabrina annoyed and surprised.

I step on my feet to be right in front of him, I squat my body in front of me and I look gently at his face and eyes.

“ I can't say romantic, but I try every word that comes out of my lips is not a joke or a lie, I just want to say….Will you accept my proposal? Will you be my wife, Sabrina?”

I said confidently because I realized how the pain of love clapped one hand, after all I was very sure that Silla was happy and I had to find my happiness without her.

“ how about Silla?” he said full of confusion.

“ I have no business with him anymore, I am currently convinced that I want to marry you immediately and take care of you forever,” I said confidently with every word that was thrown in my aunt.

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