Harboring Flavor?

regrets 1

"love is a taste that comes by itself even sometimes we are not aware of its coming, love is present without any reason why and how that feeling arises, because if love has a reason, love has a reason, so when that reason disappears then that love will also disappear; love can make the person who feels it go crazy because of its presence, such as: smiling when imagining his face, jealous when he is with others, and so on, acting silly when dealing with him, insomnia, not much to eat because of thinking about it, even to dream about him while sleeping and can not focus on the lessons given by the teacher, and there is much more madness experienced by people who are in love".

I wanted to feel like I was taking away the feeling I was feeling right now, but what was my day because every time I met him and saw his face I felt something strange inside of me, and it felt like I couldn't help but feel this feeling, I actually wanted to forget about it as well, but even me and her were first class mates, so it was very difficult for me not to think about her, actually, because every day I meet him, and every day I meet him I feel my breath tight and my heart beats faster than usual so how could I forget that every day I always meet him.

All I know is that she's someone who only puts her outer beauty first, and is just looking for a beautiful woman to be her boyfriend, so how could he like me who even only has the right face and is not comparable to his girlfriend or his ex now.

I myself also do not want to be an actor/pho who ruined his relationship with his girlfriend.

"How can I love Adi Kurniawan, a man who never even spoke or greeted me, then why should he be the one I love, even though I myself have never been close to him even though we are classmates, why should he and no one else why... though there are still many other men but why the hell should he who is even very far from the type of guy that I wanted all this time why. why?" I keep asking questions from my heart.

Because the man I've been craving for all this time is :

1. Clever in the science of religion and can be a good and responsible priest

2. faithful man, the,

3. The man who can accept me for who I am,

4. a man who does not see women from outside but also from inside his heart,

6. the handsome not only from the outside but also from inside.

Actually there are many more types of guys that I want, but too long to explain.

Of the six types of guys that I just want.

There are so many reasons why I want to forget it, but only one feeling suddenly appears and makes all those reasons seem meaningless, namely love.

Love that is present without any invitation, and has overcome all existing reasons.

And all I can do right now is pray, so that I can forget about it and so that I can find another man who is much better than him and I just want to harbor this feeling, she said, and trying to find someone who can make me forget.

"Jealousy is a heartache when we see the man/man we love with another person, it is even difficult to get rid of it, as is the love that is present without us wanting it".

When I saw Adi with another woman somehow my heart hurt so much, even though I myself knew that I had no right to be jealous or angry with her, because even I'm not who to him just limited to a classmate who is not familiar at all, let alone chat greeting never.