Harboring Flavor?

First time feeling love

 

On this sunny morning I left for school excitedly, before leaving I did not forget to say goodbye to my parents and kiss their hands. While pedaling a bicycle and feel the breeze so refreshing, enjoying the natural scenery is so beautiful because there are so many trees and green rice fields make my body feel the coolness that so penetrated into the body.

Arriving at school I went straight into the school through the school gate and parked my bike in the parking lot, then I entered the classroom while looking at my friend who was not far in front of me, then I greeted those who were sitting in their seats.

I sat in the number one seat next to Anisha, and Ummah sat behind me next to the Princess, and we talked about each of us, moments later .... the entrance bell rang and the lesson began.

At the time the break bell rang I and my friend decided to spend some time in front of the class while chatting with each other and enjoying the view from above as the class I was occupying was currently on the floor two, a gust of wind that was so refreshing made me feel at ease.

Many other friends passed by in front of me because I was right in front of the classroom door, I sat looking up at the sky so bright and a few moments later I suddenly felt my heart pounding and even made myself misbehave because someone passed in front of me who was none other named Adi Kurniawan with a smile and said "excuse me passing by" directly at that moment also it felt like there was a lightning bolt that struck and made me unable to say what and just looked at him.

What kind of feeling is this, what has happened to me, I have never even felt this before.

After I thought every day, I finally knew for sure that the feeling I was feeling right now was love, which I myself do not know the reason why I should love him and why should he who I like.

At that time, I even knew that he had a girlfriend, but still I could not change the feelings I felt at this time.

I want to feel like I'm taking away the feeling I'm feeling right now but I can't do anything about it, because this feeling comes with no reason and I can't change it even though I try to forget all these feelings still I can't even just this feeling is increasing.

Finally I decided to accept this feeling and tried to hide this feeling from my friend, especially from Adi because I also did not want to be a bully of the relationship between Adi and her boyfriend, she said, especially to ruin it because I don't want to be an actor who ruins the happiness of others for the sake of his own happiness, actually, I was also confused about what to do because every time I met him especially when I looked at his face, I became misbehaved and it scared me so much that my feelings would be known to others.

I'm really crazy now, because I've liked people who already have girlfriends, is there no one else but him, why should he be the person I like, why not someone else.