Harboring Flavor?
Disillusioned
On this day, my school will hold a race to commemorate the Indonesian independence day which is celebrated on August 17, me and another OSIS friend who had prepared some races for the event.
Me and my other friends are members of OSIS except Ummah, Putri is a secretary of OSIS, while Anisha and I are a scouting section.
After all the race preparation we prepared was finished, finally at 08.00 wib the race was started, and today many children bring mobile phones to take pictures together, no exception me and my other friends we did not waste this moment of togetherness, which is why we decided to take pictures together in the park next to the field.
The competition was held in the school field in the middle of our school building, and the competition was attended by all students who were in the school, except the members of OSIS.
We have also prepared several prizes to be given to the winners of the race.
The competitions we hold are like football, volleyball, sack racing, carrying marbles, and many more.
After a while there was one of my friends who wanted to borrow the phone in my hand, and I gave the phone to him.
Without me noticing that I was keeping Adi's photo inside my mobile gallery, and it turns out that when I wanted to take my cellphone that was borrowed by him it turned out that the cellphone was not there for him but was in another friend of mine, and it turns out my phone has been seen by some of my other friends.
On this day we went home from school early unlike usual, we came home at 10:30 wib so we performed the dhuhur prayer in our respective homes.
Arriving at home I immediately changed my clothes and waited for the dhuhur prayer time, after the adhan in my kumandangkan I immediately went to the bathroom for ablution and performed the dhuhur prayer in the room.
After performing the dhuhur prayer I decided to open facebook and I saw that there was already an inbox coming in, after that I opened it and it turned out that message from Adi.
My body feels very weak and my chest feels tight, my breathing is irregular after seeing and reading the writing on my phone screen "Now that you delete my photo in your gallery it is shameful shame in aja" Adi said through a message sent by him.
It feels like this heart is really broken and disappointed because I didn't think that he could ever say such a thing, I want to feel like I returned the message if I can also find another guy who is much better than him but it feels like this hand can not be lifted, he said, all I could do was look at the screen in my hand.
And ever since then I've been trying to get over it, and find another guy who can accept me for who I am, and can be a good priest for me.
After that incident I felt annoyed when my friends mentioned Adi's name in front of me, because I did not tell them about the incident, so they don't know if I'm not interested in him, often the three of them even mocked me when Adi passed in front of me, when he passed in front of me, wanting me to slap him in the face, but I didn't do it.
