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Dad's very sick

My father today will go to the health lab to check his health condition because in fact my father has long felt his chest hurts and difficult to breathe, but he never checked his health and only now he really wants to check his health.

After checking his health condition then a few moments later the health report brought by the lab officer appeared and it was unexpected that my father had long had coronary heart disease, and even my father turned out to have heart disease since 6 years ago, but then healed for 3 years, then it has been 2 years of heart disease back again and has even gotten worse, said, the doctor.

Hearing that information I really did not believe it because my father had never complained of pain all this time, he always hid his pain and never told anyone, he said, because he doesn't want to make everyone worry.

My body felt very limp and my chest felt tight and my breathing was irregular because I was still thinking about my father's state and I was still confused, not believing what had happened, not believing what had happened, I couldn't say anything and I couldn't even cry even if I wanted to cry, but it felt like these tears wouldn't come out if there was still someone near me.

I can only cry inside the bedroom/bathroom, and other rooms as long as there is no one at all, because it is very difficult for me to cry in front of a lot of people, indeed, from the past until now I always hide my sadness and do not say it to anyone because I am confused, and to whom I should say it.

But even though my father already knew the disease suffered by him, but still he did not want to just stay at home, he still often went out of the house on a motorcycle, he still often went out on a motorcycle, and still often work even though my mother told him not to go out often alone let alone use a motorcycle so as not to be too tired, said the mother.

My father really likes sweet foods like me, my father also likes chocolate, ice cream, cakes and other sweet foods that I like.

Even my father and I often hide when one of us is sick, we still like to drink ice cream and if you know it... mother will be angry because that's why I often hide and my father always supports me for it. because he said if people are sick and his desire is fulfilled then it could be healed he said siih like that, because my father also often did that, hiding only to eat ice cream, so the same salimg support.

My father and I do have a lot in common especially if in terms of favorite foods/drinks, almost all foods that my father likes I also like.

After my father had diabetes, other diseases were also suffered by him, and my father was exposed to complications because there were many diseases suffered by him...

By the time the diabetes suffered by my father was getting worse and more spread, my father could not go anywhere else let alone to go out of the house, walking in the house was no longer possible.