Fragrant For Galih

Ep. 73 Worry

POV Galih

I never thought my life would be okay after Sinar's departure, even hoping to live happily I didn't dare. My days are empty and I always blame myself, as if life means nothing more without the Light that always shines on my days. Until one day I met Wangi. Beautiful woman full of energy. At first I thought she was just a new ABG girl growing up with an appearance that can be said to look younger than her age. She always surprises me with her funny behavior and sometimes she also acts more mature than I thought. It is the fragrance that makes me aware that life is not our own. Everything can be taken back by the Almighty even though we do not want to. Such a Light may be much happier after returning to its Creator. Like Sinar who always wanted me to be happy, Wangpi also wanted my life to be much better than before. And it was Fragrance that brought back the smile I had long forgotten. As if fate was on my side, it turned out that Fragrance was a long-prepared soul mate that my parents had prepared long before I met Sinar. I am happy because Wangi is the woman chosen by my parents to be my partner. Day after day I passed with him in the color of happiness until an unexpected news came today. A news that made me unable to breathe for a moment, my heart pounded violently and the fear I once felt came back. Could it be that I was too greedy with the happiness I had been feeling all along? To forget the stupidity I used to do. Long ago... As I felt myself slumped in the void after Sinar's departure, a year ago I volunteered to join as a peacekeeping special forces in Lebanon. I had forgotten about it for too long without any answer and did not expect it to be approved this year. It was as if experiencing de ja vu that fear was coming back, leaving loved ones to serve for an indefinable amount of time with life at stake makes me afraid if the events of the past repeat themselves. Will I lose Fragrance this time too? Just thinking about it made me unable to breathe properly. Stifled, I was really afraid of leaving hope for Fragrance when I might not be able to make it happen. She's a nice, jolly woman, around her there's always something amazing. How could I destroy the joy in his life with this news when our engagement day was just counting days? Oh my... What am I supposed to do? Fragrance deserves to be happy, how can I possibly take away that happiness? While I myself can't leave it with just a promise until I come back later. I was afraid that I would not be able to fulfill all my promises like what I had done to Sinar. Although I know this is the destiny of You that I must pass but still the fear of loss is always there. Why was I too stupid to do something I wanted to do without thinking twice? Yeah, sorry it's no use now. Now all I have to think about is how do I get all this to Wangi? I knew Fragrance would definitely not hinder my steps in carrying out my duties as a state servant, but who knew what anxiety was in his heart? I just don't want to make the woman I love sad because of me. One time I regret a decision, not twice, let me bear the pain as long as it is not him. Fragrance is a new breath for me, I'd be very, very sorry if it made him sick. Om Rendra deliberately did not tell this news to his daughter because he left all these problems to me. I myself also asked Om Rendra not to mention this to Wangi because later I myself will say to Wangi. However this is my problem, my way of life that will affect the way of life Fragrance in the future, so let us both will solve it.

I was stunned when my phone rang. I saw the name 'Papa' there. I'm sure Rendra's already delivered this news to papa. Inevitably I had to face papa first before facing Fragrance.

"Hallo... Assalamualaikum pa." I said as I picked up my phone call.

"Wa'alaikum... Galih, you know why papa's calling you right now?" Ask your father after receiving my greeting.

"Then I know." My answer.

"What were you really thinking about at that time? Why haven't you told me about this before? You know how surprised papa was when Rendra delivered the news to papa?!" Papa sounded angry and worried. Yes I admit I was wrong because I never talked about this to my parents.

"Sorry pa, at that time Galih did not think long." My regrets.

"Papa knows you did it because you wanted to avoid your sadness first, but did you forget that you still have parents who are worried about you and care about you?" Papa's words seemed to slap my face. Why was I so selfish? Why didn't I think about my mom at that time and make my own decision?

I was speechless, unable to answer papa's words because what papa said just now was true. I'm a brash kid who had forgotten his parents and attached great importance to his own ego. At that time I was just thinking about my own sadness without thinking if mom and dad might also be sad to see me sad at that time.

"Son... Can't you back off from this task? Your engagement and Fragrance are just counting the days, how would she feel if you left her on your engagement day?" Papa's words just now make me feel guilty to Wangi even though the task I asked far before I met Wangi.

"Sorry pa... There is no right reason to step down from this task, it is impossible for Galih to step down on the grounds of wanting to get engaged right?" Answer me for what it is.

"Bright..."

I heard Dad breathing across there. I know what Papa's thinking. Papa must feel bad for Wangi and his family because at first it was our family who wanted this matchmaking. But we can what?

"Pa.. papa don't worry too much, this problem let Galih who solved it with Fragrance because this is the problem of Galih, Galih who started it so let Galih find a way out." I said to calm down a little papa's heart.

"Alright, papa believes whatever your decision is but I remind you once again... Never take a rash step a second time! Remember cf. Matt, whatever your decision is never to hurt Fragrance." Said the father who had warned me from the beginning, but sorry pa... I can not promise, because it does not rule out the possibility that my decision will later break the heart of Fragrance. But I make sure that Wangi will not regret it in the future after accepting my decision.

"Yes pa." My answer is short because I don't want to promise anything. A promise can sometimes hurt.

"Yes pa, Galih will talk to Fragrant." My answer.

"Yes, papa hang up. Assalamualaikum."

"Wa'alaikum..." Papa immediately disconnected his phone after hearing my greeting reply. Now only Fragrance problem, later after he works we have to talk. I'd better make an appointment with him in a message.

^^^Galih:^^

^^^Hai darling... Go home you work we date for a while yuk? There's something I want to talk to you about.^^^

No butu long time I got a reply from Fragrance.

Fragrance:

Tumben come home I work to date first, miss ya..?? Yeah, well, since I miss you, too, so be it...

I smiled reading a reply from Wangi, he always had a way to make me smile, but I knew if he was also busy with his work, even often I saw tired strokes on his face. He always smiled and made me smile. Oh my... What if I lose a woman like her?

^^^Galih:^^

^^^Dear, I miss you today.^^^

Fragrance:

Okay, see you letter baby...

I saw the clock in my hand showing the punch. 14.00 WIB. It was only two and a half hours before I met Wangi. I can only pray that my decision this time is not a decision I will regret later on.

POV Galih.

Seriate....