Forgive Me My Husband, I Betrayed You

MAMA ERLANGGA

Stand up in the distant view. Lamenting the fate of your departure. Not to stay away from me but this is because of the miss that cannot be integrated. In the soul-stirring beat of taste. Awake in your beautiful shadow. It may be wrong but I have no power to erase the taste. The tongue taster is now swallowing his own saliva. Because of the endless desirability of reality. Anger and emotions run high. When the temptation of the play of the heart. Now your grudges are mounting, no one can erase your peaceful steps. What then?

What are you gonna turn this off with? Kill your race and my race with a dagger. Scratch a painful gaping wound. The more you sprinkle the salt of jealousy now. Did you realize? What does this revenge mean? Shut off your dwarf soul, freeze your heart. The bigger you want to hurt me, the more you feel that heartache. Do I have to be out of this universe? So you can come back smiling to this life. Your weapon is piercing your heart. Gnawing the body to dry now. Wanna run? I won't pursue it again.

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In front of Erlangga a woman with many strokes and wrinkles on her face. The woman was still with her smile. Her maternal soul was still clearly visible when her hand gently rubbed Erlangga's head gently. The longing is clearly visible. How long ago apparently, Erlangga did not visit his mama.

" If I see you, mama looks like a reflection of your papa's face, Langga! At the end of this age, my hope was always to be with your father. Sitting relaxing in the garden, while pouring warm sweet tea together. Joking around, chatting about the past that was still tumultuous. Adolescence, youth times that are still full of ambition and want." mama Erlangga's slow story.

" But, Papa you're tired enough here. Accompanying your mother so that your father departed also did not bring with him mama." added Mama Erlangga full of sadness.

" Mama! Don't talk like that. God has defined the age of man. And Papa must first receive a call from God. Mama don't think like that. The power of God to separate two people who are paired with each other" said Erlangga slowly.

" huh? You're old enough about life, Erlangga. Oh yea? Why don't you take Andini, your wife?" mama Erlangga said she still stroked Erlangga's straight hair.

" Andini? No Ma! I want to be spoiled and alone with mom first. I haven't been here long enough. Sorry ma, all because of my busy life. So that so put aside mama here." said Erlangga.

" It's okay! Mama's fine. There is your sister, Rosita, who always accompanies you." said Mama Erlangga.

" Roseph? How's he doing now? When will he marry after his girlfriend's departure? Has Rosita found the right man for her?" ask Erlangga.

" After the Dragon passed away, Rosita still has not opened her heart to other men. Some friends, his male friends try to get close to Rosita but mama see nothing can conquer Rosita's heart. It is possible that his heart and mind are still fixed on the Dragon. After the accident, dab Naga passed away, for Rosita this was a painful blow in her life. Well how else, a month's plan to marry the end is extinct too and fate says something else about their relationship." Mama Erlangga's story.

" Erlangga! You and Andini are okay, right? For five years, you have not been blessed with children. Do not let this be a trigger for your broken relationship and become a problem of the gap between you." advice Mama Erlangga.

" But ma! Like me and Andini won't last long. I don't think we're going to be a match until grandpa and grandma." Erlangga said.

Mama Erlangga slowly stroked Erlangga's hair. Her soft hands began to rub Erlangga's cheeks. Erlangga rose from her mother's lap and looked at her mother's face with love.

" If the problem can be talked about and forgiven, why not the relationship is maintained Erlangga. The sacred promise you said at the wedding was not just a toy and a conditional greeting. But that is your responsibility with family and God. You are the leader of the family who will take your wife to heaven. Kandasnya you, your wife also run aground" said Mama Erlangga.

" Mama, if the fields that I used to grow are now in the loot and in the plural people do I let it go. While his heart was now divided with the farmer." Erlangga story.

" My son. Is this just your guess or do you have proof? It's not good if you're prejudiced badly with your own wife. But if your heart and your wife can still be put back together, forgive all her mistakes. Please let everything go and re-establish your love from the beginning." advised Mama Erlangga.

" No mama! I actually still love Andini but if I remember when Andini betrayed me, I can't accept her. It's been two weeks since I've touched her on the reason of getting out of town. And this is a problem I have not disclosed with Andini. But mama, I really can't forgive even though I still love her. This is a betrayal that hurt me, Ma!" erlangga Story.

" So you started to betray Andini? What's the difference with Andini then?" mama Erlangga asked strongly against Erlangga.

" Yes! Sorry I ma! But the woman who is now close to me, at least never played with another man. I can guarantee that. She really likes me even though I always hurt her. And even though I don't love him. But I really appreciate that he still loves me." Erlangga said.

" You're too naive, Erlangga! You are too quick to judge people by one mistake and judge someone by one side of his kindness." said Mama Erlangga.

" But all this time, mama considered Andini was a woman who was full of determination. Didn't you try to look out for yourself? Do you as a husband not try to ask with Andini, why this can happen. So that Andini quickly easily turns away from you. Maybe, you lack attention or always go away from her" said Mama Erlangga.

" huh? Indeed, all this time I often do not return home on the grounds of service out of town ma. And I started to betray Andini. But that doesn't mean, Andini has to repay this with me?" Erlangga.

" Erlangga? You started burning that fire. And you yourself caused a family problem between you. Although you have given Andini everything, the facilities and necessities of life are more than enough but that does not mean he will not complain with his loneliness when you often leave him. Then did you say you didn't like the second woman besides Andini? You're too naive, son! Have fun with other women besides Andini? Not wearing your heart and feelings. You lie and lie to your little heart. If you love Andini, wouldn't do that out there, Erlangga. Astagfirullah My son!" mama Erlangga said at length.

" Mama! I just like Andini. Diana's? I don't like it." said Erlangga.

" Oh, that woman's name, Diana? Who is Diana?" mama Erlangga asked while glaring.

" Mama, I'm sorry ma. Diana, is a friend of Andini." replied Erlangga.

" Astagfirullah My son. It will be more painful, son." said Mama Erlangga while rubbing her own chest.