For You Little Girl's

CHAPTER 10 REMEMBER THE PURPOSE

I was silent listening to the words after the words that Doni had spoken to me. What Doni said is the truth. He only worries if I forget my true purpose.

Just now that it's grown, it's made me forget. If Doni wasn't with me, maybe I'd be asleep with a new taste the first time I felt.

Doni turned on his laptop and went back to playing a video. This time, the video played managed to make my forehead frown.

In the video, I see a place that looks like a village. The situation in the village is very chaotic. The sound of screaming, and crying mixed with laughter who knew who the owner was.

I sharpened my eyes and hearing, until my eyes were fixed on a ring that was coiled on the ring finger of a woman.

The woman looked hysterical and called out to a man I believed was her husband. However, I could not see clearly how the woman looked like.

The atmosphere in the village was so dark that I could not guess who was there.

The ring...Why is it so similar to the ring I've seen in mom's desk drawer?

Is it possible because the place they bought the same?

But, why do I feel that something is awkward?

In the past, I was asked by my mother to take her glasses in her room. Then, I accidentally saw a box in an open desk drawer. I grabbed the box and took something inside.

What ring is this? Is the ring mother's? Why is it kept?

Could this be the wedding ring that belonged to father and mother, then, was this the ring that Dad was supposed to wear?

But, why does the ring look different to the one worn by the father I saw on the album?

Questions popped in and filled my head. Questions I didn't find the answer to. Until the video was over, I was still drifting with my own thoughts.

Actually, what mystery should I solve?

“Based on the video, I draw the conclusion that we must find the ring that the woman is wearing or a ring that is the partner of the ring that the woman is wearing”, said Doni while looking at me seriously.

“You're right, Don. You remember, when I finished explaining the conversation between your mother and father that was about my father, I accidentally saw a ring similar to the one in that video in mom”'s room, I saw,

“Maybe, the events in this video are related to the death of your father”, said Doni while closing his laptop again.

“Libur next semester, we will check your mother's room, I'm sure many mysteries that your mother hid in sana”, continued Doni while standing and returning to her dorm.

After Doni's departure, I fell silent again and recalled what I saw in the first and second videos.

The first video, showing a – blood-soaked man who I believe is my father. Ah, it feels like my chest is back in a state of confusion.

Then, a second video that found no explanation. God, what really happened before I was born?

My eyes were now fixed on the circular bracelet on my left wrist. I opened the bracelet, then I looked at the bracelet with mixed feelings.

A beautiful bracelet, but not as beautiful as my story. Only sadness is wrapped in smiles and laughter behind wounds.

It felt claustrophobic as I kept trying to look happy, especially in front of mom.

It would be a lie to say that I don't want a father's affection.

Lie, if I don't miss her figure. Choosing to keep it is so that I don't see my mother sad again.

Still fresh in my memory, when every day comes the anniversary of father's death, mother will lock herself in the room. I cried again without ever seeing her cry. My brother and I always let my mother to vent her longing.

Now, I no longer wish that the angel that I was going to be, was still on the same earth. Want me to just know the truth, even if it's gonna hurt.

With all the pain that not only I felt, I was determined to find where the village was in the video. The village I believed in was the village where my parents lived, before the chaos destroyed everything.

Yes Rabb, help me. Show me where the village is located and where can I get a clue of its whereabouts?

I looked at the beautiful sky. So charming to every eye that looks. My memory came back when Rauf gave me this bracelet. There is a feeling so foreign to me.

Comfort grew as I talked and discussed many things with him day by day.

I was amazed at the way he thought. And also, he greatly appreciated women. He never made physical contact with women.

However, the taste of it certainly should not be fertilized so as not to bloom. It's not too late for me to stop this feeling. Is it love or is it just being comfortable with her. I can't define it at all.

...***...

Under the same sky, quite far from where I was. Male – man named Rauf was also seen staring at the dark sky twilight that is getting dark. He seemed to be daydreaming and busy with his own thoughts.

Then, a speck of clear grain fell. However, he never wiped and precisely the clear circle was increasingly flowing.

His breath up and down, it looks he is holding back the turmoil in his heart. His eyes reddened and occasionally closed as if trying to neutralize the taste that made him tight.

Should I continue with everything? Will I be able to see it, when it's all revealed later?

Oh my God, I really want to give up. However, a promise required me to keep fighting. Allow me to do it, even with myself ending up leaving her.

...***...

Azan prayer magrib echoed making me rush to the room to clean myself and perform the magrib prayer.

Just as I was about to get into the elevator, I again met the woman who made my mood worse.

On purpose, he nudged my shoulder roughly with his foot stepping on my foot, then barged into the elevator when the elevator door was already open.

“Aduh ailing”, I shouted as I stared nyalang at the woman.

“Oh, there are people yes, kirain only shadow”, he said while staring cynically at me.

I wanted to feel like I grabbed her hair, but tired of the thought made me choose to face her calmly.

“Yeah, it turns out to have eye disease yes, the road slides. Poor thing, sorry ya”, my lips while entering the elevator one more.

“Badness, here do not run away you!”, he yells and wants to break through, but the elevator door is closed immediately.

“Basin mental illness, not sane tuh orang”, grumbled me while trying to neutralize the annoyance, because the act of the woman earlier.

To be honest, I don't know why she always looks for trouble with me. Since the beginning of entering the dormitory, he had been looking for trouble first with me.

While in another elevator, the woman continued to curse me and occasionally vent her frustration to one of her friends.

“Awas you, wait for my revenge”, he said as he clenched his hand.

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