Finossiah

darkened

only darkness is my loyal friend at this time.

I was just lying in a quiet room and if there was any sound, it was just a gripping tool.

"i want to go home" said it kept on saying brick, for brick by my lips, my eyes were crying. I don't know where fino is, I don't know where papa, mama, mama, I don't know where I am, all I know is that I'm just a pain connoisseur for now.

every hour there are only doctors and nurses who come to my room to check my condition, not infrequently they inject me, not infrequently they give me pain.

I hate this situation, how can I extend my life in this way, it only accelerates my death, I murmured inwardly.

soon I fell asleep again.

I woke up, there was a mama, papa, and also fino, I tried to clarify again, is this just a dream? but it's not, it's not a dream, it's a reality, they're here.

I gave my big smile to the little ones who were accompanying him. They greeted me with a smile, but there was something that made me a little uncomfortable, the painful tools were still stuck around my body.

"yes, finally you can be moved in the nursery" said fino with a smile.

papa held my hand.

"did you say your son must be strong, papa gave me his sweet smile.

I cried in papa's gate.

"pa, papa please help me yes, papa please, please take off all these tools, it hurts so much, I want the rest of my life to be happy pa not with kayak gini"I said groan to papa.

papa cried, then quickly wiped his tears.

"yes pa, I understand, I understand, but pa, already when we all accept the reality, this is the reality pa, we have done everything for my recovery pa, pa, but if it's my destiny..."

"ngakkkkkkkk lo silent, cave please be silent enough already silent lo"mama papa a little stunned by the loud cry fino.

"fin the cave has told you how many times are you? "

I tighten the tone of voice.

"gua has also said how many times is the same? we change the destiny, we change the destiny you do not understand also ha? "fino yelled while pacing the wall, no matter what mom and dad were watching our argument.

I smiled at the fino who looked so scared to lose me.

"fin, here, near the cave here" I called out to the fino who was emotional and pacing in my ward.

fino approached, then stood firmly on the right side of my bed.

"fino, gua tau lo sad cave tau kok, but you can not be kayak gini also dong, cave understand from small we already together, but you can not be like this, from a small we have lived like grief together, we fuss with pr together, play together, cave understand the pain" I cried sobbing until my words also faltered, too, thinking there's a lot of things I'm gonna stay away from.

"caves, caves, caves cannot be yes, we are used to together, school together, playing together, everything together, and suddenly the cave has to do everything without lo, the cave has to lose lo, lo, the cave can't be sya"

unfinished fino put out his entire argument mama had first hugged fino, fino cried great in my arms.

"tan, please fino tan, please tell frisya, fino need frisya tan"

mama just fell silent and just kept gently rubbing fino's back so she calmed down.