Finossiah

I'm scared

not knowing what happened again I woke up in a foreign room, this time not like before, this time with a more sinister feel, there was only me here with some gripping tools, he said, I needed people to accompany me, I was afraid, but still no one came to me.

until finally there was a nurse who came to me to see my condition and left just like that. I want to complain to fino, I want to whine to papa, I want to tell my mother that I suffer.

it's his fault they're not all here with me, I want to feel like I'm yelling, this whole thing is too torturous.

after a long time in the room, papa came to enter my room, papa cried and then stroked my head which is now covered with hijab.

papa whispers.

"patience dear, papa is sure you are a strong child"papa kissed my head, I returned papa with tears, then nodded with a steadfast smile.

papa comes out, now it's my turn to go in, mama does the same with papa.

"sick huh? baby mama must be strong, mama sure it, you must be spirit!!!"mama kissed me, gave me spirit and then left like her papa thing.

finally it was Fino's turn to come in.

fino came in and his eyes were a little puffy he swept his tears using his elbows.

fino was standing right next to my bed.

my tears could no longer hide, the tears that I had once kept inside now flowed like endless streams of river water. Fino wiped my tears, then shook his head, and then shook his head, as if to signal me not to shed tears.

to say a single word is very difficult.

"ffiii... "

"it is not papa, if it can not be forced first, you have to be strong, you are the strongest cave friend you must be strong"fino just keep standing while giving me spirit.

oh my god, what kind of situation this is, I'm so helpless, all of them can't feel what I'm feeling, all of them can't hear my pain anymore, my mind was screaming out there.

I just asked one of them to help me get rid of these tools, these tools torture me so much, get me out of this room this room is so quiet, I'm scared, but no, no one will hear him, no one will obey him.

soon after, a sister came, and told fino to come out because the bad time was up, fino also obeyed the sisters.

luckily my hands were still functioning well, I was holding onto fino's arm.

fino smile.

"the cave is in front of you must be strong, you must be strong anyway"fino let go of my grip and then go like the others.

I don't want to suffer anymore, I'm tired of anyone wanting to hear this poor boy's scream? ls it? I asked myself in my heart, then smiled like a madman, and again cried.

I'm tired, I want to go home, all this hurts me all this tortures me, doesn't anyone care about me anymore? does no one want me to be happy anymore? whatever no one else loves me, all those questions I repeat while crying until I sleep soundly.