Finossiah

chemotherapy

fino and I went to school together today.

I sat in my seat as usual, while fino, fino, sitting next to amelia waiting for the bells to come ringing, seeing fino laughing loosely with amelia was more than enough for me.

"yes"fino called me from the back desk.

I just looked up and raised my eyebrows.

"at night, Sunday night how to celebrate so we all three of us go to dinner together" said fino.

"sory's so fin but the cave can't, the cave's no business" today is my first chemotherapy schedule.

"well, you're not cool enough"fino said

"you're both gone, you're new" I tried to persuade fino.

"hmm yeah, the cave went both equally lia"

"that dong, smart boy" I gave a smile and pointed my two thumbs at the fino.

the lesson hours started, fino just focused and I focused on learning this time, he said,

"uhuk, uhuk, uhuk, uhuk"pliese why it's okay to study this again anyway.

fino efficiently gave me some water to drink, but it didn't seem like this time, I held my mouth, and I think my hands are covered with blood right now.

because I can't speak a word I left the class without asking permission from the teacher.

it was so much blood, it covered my lips like when someone was using lipstick.

I was immediately washed not caring about my blood phobia anymore.I cried grasping the bitterness of reality, not until when I had to survive under these circumstances.

I stopped my crying, and headed straight for the classroom, when I got to the front door of the classroom, all the eyes of the class children were on me, I headed to the teacher's book table apologizing for not excusing it earlier.

after apologizing I went straight back to my desk.fino looked at me, a worry in his eyes.

"yes, I have why this is why your face is pale, you hurt us to uks ya, yuk cave antarin"

I refused the invitation of the raw fino finally me and fino just continue learning until the subjects were over.

fino immediately drove me home today to see my condition is not healthy, fino did not want to take me to go to the lake, but I really wanted to kedanau, at least I could feel peace while on the beach.

tonight is a Sunday night, a night that I and Fino usually run our routine, but unfortunately tonight is very much different from it all, tonight is the first night I run chemotherapy.

papa and mama accompanied me while the chemo process was going, while fino, fino must be having fun with amelia.

chemotherapy started me who was calm a little tense looking at some tools that seemed quite painful

the doctor told me to relax I took a deep breath, when the chemo process wanted to start, the kemopun began, a few minutes of chemo process had made me very, very upset I did not like all this, my tears are not stopping from my eyes.

do I have to do this painful thing just to survive longer, I'm tired of all these needles, this room.

I want to live like my god.my inner heart screams great, hoping for this test to pass quickly.