Combined In Marriage

A trip to the house of in-laws

The heart is so hard to guess that I don't know what I really want, I might regret losing a man like him. I'm going to give it all back to God, only he knows how this relationship ends.

I'm a woman I should be able to resist my wishes, "hmm" I took a deep breath because I couldn't actually let go.

I wanted to lie down on the bed immediately, only his face was visible to me in thought. Gawky

pa tormented her this, I missed her touch.

I'm lonely without her, no one hugs me with butterflies in my heart, maybe I won't feel them anymore.

I don't know when we're going to go see Mom, Mas Dimas didn't even tell me that. Does he really intend to take me? If so, shouldn't he be telling her the clarity. Even though she's not looking me in the eye anymore, I hope she'll still be able to talk things out comfortably.

I don't want to bother later, what if he suddenly invites me away tomorrow and I'm not ready? I should immediately pack my luggage now just in case.

The clothes are ready, am I ready? I have to be calm to face my Mother and Father-in-law, I also have to face Auntie, I can't look like there's a problem later. I have to control my expression and emotions, Mas Dimas would also want me to do the same.

My thoughts returned with the man, I was completely stuck. What's he doing now? Has he slept? Or is she with Sarah showing their love? I was sad to think about it, I actually mengikhlaskan both of them, but I also want to love Mas Dimas, although only a little.

I will accept it so much, am I now clear-minded? What do I mean to accept it? I also want to be loved completely, to be the only one for someone. Mas Dimas will not be able to be that person, again I have to accept the fact that he belongs entirely to Sarah, with all the love that is in him he gives to Sarah, I won't be able to be a parasite in it no matter how small I am.

I looked at the bed where he lay with my sleep. I inhaled hard trying to find the aroma left behind although it was difficult to get it, I kissed the former place where the body was, I was, where she hugged me tight. I miss that hug, I miss him so much.

I decided to go to bed because the night was getting darker, I had to go back in the morning, I needed to get up as early as possible to make sure everything.

*****

At four in the morning I woke up, I was still a little sleepy because I was late to sleep. I immediately walked to my bathroom, I cleaned my body and then took the water after. I'm getting refreshed even though some more time I might get back to sleepy.

I walked through the door floor of Mas Dimas and Sarah's room, I went down the stairs slowly. I didn't see anyone in the kitchen or the living room so I decided to just cook.

As I was washing my hands on the tap, I briefly saw a shadow from above at the end of my eye. How surprised I was to see Sarah and Mas Dimas showing their love, I felt a little jealousy, I did that with him, is this how it feels to be combined?

I bit my lips not to the point of bleeding like before, I tried to hold back the tears, both my eyes were already very wet, I tried to give it a little wind to dry. It's so hard to accept reality, it's so hard to see someone you love show their love to someone else.

"Ajeng, you take care of Mas Dimas well?" Sarah looked at me while tightly grasping Mas Dimas's arm like she didn't want him to leave, Mas Dimas just looked at his wife, I'm really just a mushroom here my position is very embarrassing.

The two of them actually managed to make me burn with jealousy, I still held back these tears. Finished cooking, the three of us had breakfast as usual and this was really as usual, as at the beginning of my position here, just like the first time I had breakfast at this table.

Seeing all their love made me want to leave quickly, we seemed to leave today to hear Sarah's words. I was a little hurt when Mas Dimas went straight out to finish breakfast regardless of me, while Sarah came out to follow him.

I quickly climbed up and took my belongings, I did not want to make Mas Dimas wait. I stumbled because I had to run from the room down the stairs to get out of the house while carrying a suitcase.

I saw Mas Dimas who was looking straight at the road while Sarah was looking at me, I immediately walked a little run towards the back seat.

I sat down in relief and put my suitcase down, not even Mas Dimas waiting for me to put the suitcase in the trunk or maybe I didn't ask for it?

The car drove up looking very sad Sarah, she waved her hands towards Mas Dimas, aren't they so romantic? I was a little sleepy too tired, I tried to close my eyes because surely the journey will be long plus the road will definitely be jammed.

*****

I dreamt someone was kissing me, warm hands were holding my hands and a blanket warmed my body gently. I woke up when I heard a very loud honking sound, it seemed like it was a big truck horn. When I woke up I was confused because the car was stopping on a road and Mas Dimas was not in the car.

I was looking around for Mas Dimas from the car, I didn't expect to see that the blanket was actually covering me right now, I thought it was just a dream but it turned out that the blanket was really on my body, I was shocked to imagine it, is it possible that Mas Dimas enveloped me?

After a while I saw Mas Dimas coming out of a minimarket, Mas Dimas caught a glimpse of me then immediately looked towards the street again.

I was so happy that Mas Dimas saw me even if it was only for a second but I was still happy.

Mas Dimas got in the car and drove back, Mas Dimas threw a lot of snacks and drinks from the front, I can't believe he gave it to me. I saw the strange pouch while Mas Dimas did not open his voice at all.

Because the bag was near me, so I picked it up and tried to eat it so that this trip didn't feel bland.

Seriate...