CHOOSING IN LOVE

Decisions

When this friend of Desi drove to my boarding house I told her.

" we are friends, I still have a boyfriend because of it, and I love my girlfriend, while I have no taste" I said at the time without thinking about her feelings, she said, in fact I wish he was hurt and didn't see me again.

Oh yeah, that guy's name is Prima Tirta, he's a contractor, he's 8 years older than me, he's 3 years older than Tian.

A man who is mature enough age is even ready to get married, I wanted to match him with Icha, but my little heart said no, let him find it himself, he's a teller at my work place he should also have a lot of acquaintances, let alone the existence of his work in front of surely he already has a collection of many guys, I thought like evil at that time huh.

I think people always think for themselves, draw their own conclusions, so yes, I am actually a person who likes to be obedient and can accept people's opinions well.

The man smiled at my confession and replied, "it's okay with time that I can get that love" she said calmly with an unmade smile.

" Well strange, he didn't seem upset or hurt just seemed to relax so good he hid his feelings", my mind at that time heard the answer from him.

because I am often lazy and not excited if I will meet with Mas Prim, finally the meeting is only occasionally if I am really loose time.

But Tian still occasionally came to my boarding place, maybe if it's a holiday, whether to meet me or meet Icha or maybe both, Strange as well if thought, now he's out of town, why is it still coming.

My response wasn't as warm as it used to be, obviously! I'm a little selfish, stupid woman, but I have to think, 'even if it's too late what I think but I still think.

I better start letting go of my love for Tian, maybe with the arrival he will be able to more easily I let him go from my heart.

Right now Tian is coming to my boarding house after almost 3 months we have never met, he is taking me out to eat, he said, I welcome her with pleasure today my resolve is unanimous I want to express my heart's decision about our relationship.

At the place we joked as usual not ahir at the end of the meeting I revealed if I wanted to break up from him.

" How long is our relationship? you remember?", I pretended to ask the length of our relationship.

He seemed to remember something and then replied

" Yes, we are eternal lovers for almost 9 years" he replied.

" No, yeah that long? and during that time also you hang this relationship, to make my heart tired know no, should we not break up?", said I really from the heart.

" Hah!", Tian was very surprised, his face showing dislike and even this time I saw his angry face.

" You're cheating?", the question came out of his mouth.

" Fearless, I never charge anything about this relationship why you should be tired unless you already have another guy" Tian said, his tone cynically full of hatred towards me.

" the 9 years we've been together, wasn't there any intention of you to marry me Tian?", well, finally the question came out of my mouth it felt like the turmoil of the 2nd world war, 2nd world war, I can get rid of my ego and prestige.

" Not yet wait" he replied, looking at me like he did not like my question which was still clearly visible in his eyes.

" I have to wait until when? how-how long? please say!", ask I'm lucky to want clarity.

" Yes wait, my mother hasn't given me the green light if I have to get married any time soon my job for my own life is still mediocre" I don't know that's the answer I heard from Tian's mouth, he said his salary was just enough to live alone, and he never bought me anything except occasionally to buy food when he met.

" If you want to get married find a man who can suffice you" Tian said so loudly not thinking about my feelings at all.

hearing Tian's words like that, my chest instantly asphyxiated my eyes heated up, my lips tilted with a slanted smile to myself, Miris once almost 9 years I didn't expect this to be in vain this is my time.

" Yeah." answered the smile on my lips, a smile full of wounds.

" Of course, every woman must expect to have a husband who loves her so much that she adores and makes the queen in her household", I answered I swallowed deeply my disappointment I just showed you my charming smile.

Tian just looked down not to respond to my words, I don't care what he thinks, I consider his words anyways, it's a breaking word for our relationship.

" Oh yes Tian, I'm full Thank you for the treat, I can go home by yourself do not need to deliver" I said as I stood leaving our table.

no Answer or response whatsoever, until I walked a few steps leaving him still bowed there no intention to follow my steps, finally I didn't choose the way to the front of the restaurant I ordered a taxi to go home to my boarding house I didn't want him to teach me must be the direction directly to the road, and that, and that, I don't want to.

Sure enough until I got the taxi for almost 10 minutes he did not move from his seat still down there.

I don't care anymore, though, in that cab I blocked all the numbers from all the accounts I had in that cab I promised in my heart to throw his name in my heart I would bury it deep it will never grow again.

Arriving at home I saw ija was on the phone I don't care who I'm with anymore, I intend to move kos left Icha throw all my memories about Tian.

I immediately contacted Desi, I asked for an empty room in the boarding house where Desi was snekos, and thank God there was one room he said, tomorrow I intend to see.

Nearly two hours later Desi contacted me by sending me pictures of the empty boarding room, he informed me that if the room is in clean condition if you intend to move, it is ready to be occupied even for tonight. after asking for the price and facilities and I felt it was right I decided tomorrow to move on Sunday.

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