CHOOSING IN LOVE

Trying to lose heart

At the boarding house, I chose not to enter my room because honestly my boarding house was only one room for two if there were guests we were forced to enter the room by sitting down with the carpet and the door open.

After Icha and Tian entered the room I chose not to enter the room, it felt like I could not see the interaction of the two of them.

While waiting for Tian to come home I went into my friend's room next door I was just hinting with lips for my friend to be silent not to ask anything.

" may I ride here until the guest in my room comes home", I clean I hold the nelangsa in my heart, my boarding neighbor also just nodded in agreement even though he might be disturbed by my existence, it is stupid that I just wait for Tian to go home so that my friend can sincerely give his place while I am.

My kosan neighbors peeked, "you're not your boyfriend, you're left?", he asked me with a slanted eyebrow omens He was very curious and wanted answers from me.

" I'm sorry to see him again he let Icha meet him", I replied, I don't want to make the name Icha ugly in front of my boarding neighbors let me understand this situation myself.

" That's what they're so familiar with!", he wiggled my shoulders with the intention of inviting me to peek as well.

" let's say he wants to be familiar even the door will be closed so I'm tired I just want to stay here" I replied Lirih.

My friend then closed the door of his room not paying attention to them anymore.

Apparently Tian was looking for me, probably not wanting to be considered bad in front of my other boarding neighbors so he pretended to look for me either pretended or actually he was looking for me I don't know either, I just want to be alone, to curse my stupidity for accepting himself again after so long no news and he found me, stupidly I want to accept it again.

One week after the incident I got word that my mother was sick and I went home to see my mother, as I was about to go home clean in my heart to say goodbye to Tian and give her news, But when I called it turns out he was not in his office, I only ordered to his friend if flow called Tian and wanted to say goodbye because he was going home because his mother was sick as soon as my message through his friend.

I hope he understands, if the message was conveyed to him, I thought Tian would call me and pay attention to me but I was wrong, he did not call me at all even my message was still tick one.

When I arrived at my parents' house, there were already many people apparently 2 hours ago my mother had left me.

My screams were stifled and caused tightness in the chest I fainted back then due to so much shock and unexpected, she said, my mom's going home so fast I just became a regular employee and haven't given her anything she's gone.

After the funeral I also sent a message to Tian hoping that he would also know the news of my mother's passing.

Apparently for up to three days my messages were just read, though, strange indeed in today's days people who always see this gadget at any time are only three days my message is conveyed I don't know what my message is that goes first, the streets first, or maybe my message is sleeping so it does not arrive until it takes 3 new days There is a two check.

Tian replied to my message at length with a crying emot. I don't know because I didn't read it doesn't matter it's too late or my mother's cry has gone too late I've set my heart to not drag on crying.

Let someone say what, I'm not a loyal woman or what I don't care about, in this relationship I feel I've tried my best, I've been faithful I always contact her first, I always contact her first, I always pay attention to the little things about him but when I go through big things he doesn't have the slightest bit of empathy for me.

After my cut I returned to the city where I worked, whether he would come to comfort me or take a walk just to give a drink to strengthen my heart, here I want to test what he looks like.

Yes, she finally came after I was two days in the boarding house, who said her condolences, she also gave me some food that I liked, too, But at that moment my heart said another I felt he was not sincerely paying attention to me.

Until the time goes by, he again got a mutation indeed the way of working where he like it will always be moved around until really get the position that Seattle will just stay in one office.

When he was away from me he rarely came to my boarding house, even then I used to know other people even though there was no breaking word or whatever our relationship was all that I thought when he said goodbye to move was not 1 word spoken about our relationship.

And again I was reunited with Desi's friend who I don't think is handsome.

I do not dare to refuse unpleasant with Desi, later it was thought I did not appreciate his efforts

Forced me a little want to open my heart to this friend Desi. first invited to walk me the way far apart, it feels embarrassed, crazy just time yes I walk with him, it's not very, very, my mind thrashed, like an ABG child who n***s if approached with a guy who wasn't his taste.

Apparently he knew if I walked slowly behind him, he protested.

" deck how the road is far away the longer the slower, embarrassed yes the same way me?", he asked seemed to know what I felt.

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Although yes, in fact in the right place my heart dag dig dug as well, not because the guess he was right just confused looking for what reason not to mind his right guess.

" I'm in front of you slowly, no one will kidnap me anyway", I chuckled, to cover my nervousness.

When we got to the restaurant, I just ordered a drink while he ate it.

After we finished leaving the restaurant he took me to the park downtown.at that time I was willing to walk side by side with him, only I looked down I wanted to quickly go home, although the park looks beautiful at night but for me the road with the guy who is beside me is really not seen the beauty of this city park, what is there is a feeling of wanting to run as fast as possible to go home until kosan continues to sleep soundly forgetting tonight.

Seriate....