CHOOSING IN LOVE

Early Story

TAURINE FLOWER (FLO)

This is how I always felt when I saw the sturdy man "TIAN "smiling, Somehow seeing his open lips and neat teeth order I was really hypnotized.

His crisp laughter always makes my heart rustle and continue to ring in my memory.that's from the beginning I see until this moment is not diverted from the age of moving ABG until now I have been in college.

The man was so perfect in my eyes, and perhaps for the women around me too. his tall posture with slightly curly hair, thin whiskers, a pointed nose, thick black eyebrows, and, his round and sharp eyes, his sensual lips, what a beautiful sculpture and perfect masterpiece of the creator that is so eye-catching.

His exotic skin, muscular body, and his fondness of wearing slim fit clothes and jeans and his leather jacket do not miss the fantofel shoes make more plenary.

Supposedly with the perfection he has he can choose any woman to date, but in fact he has approached me since he was 17 years old and I was only 13 years old when it was only 2nd grade Junior High.

Until the time goes on we always spend time and date like a pair of lovers and indeed I am the lover he chose.

even though compared to the girls who approached him, chasing after his love, what am I, there is no more than them all.said beautiful even I am not as beautiful as the girl, the girl, my body is also ordinary my height is only 158 cm, my skin is not white only yellow, and my hair is not beautiful, either, normally my nose is not so sharp but somehow he always boasts and admits that I am his lover, anywhere, with his friend, he said, his brother or anyone he knows he's always been proud of me.

at first, when we were just beginning to date, we just sent each other a message still shy to spend the first year we never dated like a couple.

After he graduated High School then he went to college and I was only in 3rd grade at that time, he never invited me to play or even flank to my parents' house, but every night he always texted me, he always said wait for me later when we're done school, we can already make money by ourselves, I'll propose to you, I'll apply, he always sent the words through his message or through his phone.

It was as if everything was so beautiful, as if it were going to happen, in my mind and in my heart one day Tian would propose to me and would be my husband we would definitely be happy, she said, that was my wishful thinking.

I don't know, time goes by I used to be relaxed, never jealous and always protest if Tian was jealous of me, I used to dislike if Tian was jealous, even if Tian was possessive I didn't like it either, I always press that

" you have to believe me don't tell your friends to watch over me, reassure your heart if I'm always loyal to you" I told Tian, because it's true, although many men approached me they all I considered friends not as girlfriends, Because my heart had Tian grasped.

The more days the months change from ABG to adolescence and now towards adulthood from me who feels only monkey love with Tian, changing years even the bond of love is stronger, the more, my love for Tian deepens.

The ups and downs of my relationship with Tian were sometimes spaced apart and time because Tian finished college straight away got a job, and back then I was just starting college.

The length of the relationship whose name is dating did not increase our identity, I don't know me like more and more do not know Tian, if we were teenagers, we rapt with friends, we rave with friends, hanging out in a coffee shop joking, even we sometimes play music rent a studio, or watch a movie, everything feels beautiful in togetherness.

My love is growing more and more, every beautiful memory of our story journey is engraved beautifully in my heart and mind.

The ripples of jealous ripples sometimes adorn relationships that have been many days past year after year, the more mature my mind is growing, and I have now changed both in thinking and the way I dress up, everything was slowly but surely the change was real, but not with my love, in this heart the stronger my love for Tian became.

But it was inversely proportional to Tian, whether this was just my feeling or it was real.

At the end of his college days, Tian was not as intense as before, only once a week he would send messages or call on the grounds of busy doing college assignments.

at first I never thought, I just believe what was said, will I give tolerance to it, I must understand can not be many demands so that he calmly do the task of his college assignment, will I be tolerant to it, I thought at the time.

there were never the slightest negative thoughts about him, despite the many admirers around him, I strongly believe that Tian's love was only for me.

I assure my heart at all times that Pian has always been faithful to me.

I even tried to shut down every incident that disappointed me, because what? yes, all because of Love.

the love of my ABG that I nurtured through my teenage years, was so fertile, it really grew thick, flowering and blooming filled my whole heart and soul even into my mind, I keep the fire without blame.

Not that no one wants me, even though I feel ordinary, but who came to express love to me is not 1 2 3, but there is, there is, there were even some who came up to the old man to propose, but back then my heart was really dedicated only to a Tian.

But ever since Tian had gotten a job, he was getting further away, which usually sends messages every night now such things are rare.

Even just taking a meal to enjoy his first salary never happened.

But I still wait faithfully, jealous.certainly, the more love, the more fertile, there is also accompanied by suspicion and jealousy, even arguably very jealous.

And so this heart begins to think and sometimes it is embedded in prayer, "Lord, if I may ask for a mate is a servant with someone who never makes me jealous, sick God, very painful, very, very painful, I don't want to mate with jealousy, I don't want to be selfish of God", the lyrics of my prayer before I went to bed that night.

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