Between Me and Brother

chapter 36

The next day...

I know all about Brother Tery, he tried by all means to separate Me from Indra. Abi told me very sadly that day,

I can't believe that Brother Tery tried to sedate me by having Umi do something bad for me. If not the threat of his life, Umi would not have the heart to do all that.

Sesil's guess is right. And Anton too. I scolded her after she helped me, I slapped her after she made me realize a heartbreaking thing.

This morning I was greeted with bright sunlight and enveloped the atmosphere of Jakarta. I sat on the porch holding my pen and my favorite book.

I thought long about what happened yesterday, I screwed things up. Last night, after I slapped Anton. He left without saying a word to me. I feel guilty about him.

Brother Tery and Umi went to see Indra who was in the hospital. I would love to see him, hoping he's okay. However, Brother Tery is urging me not to see him again.

I can't argue, I hope Indra gets well soon. I could no longer look into her beautiful eyes because she was not mine since her wedding day.

Abi was still sound asleep in his room, last night Abi felt so guilty about me for doing me like an outsider. But behind all that, Abi cried, crying because he felt helpless at all.

I got up from my seat, and stared at the side of the house. There were neighbors who were gathering to buy vegetables, the vegetable maker was wearing a push cart.

"Eh, it wasn't that crazy girl yesterday huh?" the answer pointed at me.

Some people immediately looked for the source of my arrival who was staring at them from a distance away,

"Well! which one," he said in search.

"That's right, it's in the corner of his house. Who wears black dress." His nose stared hard.

They nodded at me, mouthed to talk about me. I just fell silent and smiled back at them.

It's only natural that they would call me a crazy woman. Because I'm crazy, even blind about love.

They're still talking about me, maybe they think I'm deaf. Though their gossip was very clearly heard, even one RT might hear it.

I don't care if people say insults and insults. Since my personality isn't one of them, I'll take it as a lesson to me.

I immediately ran into the house, I held back tears that almost spilled on my cheeks. I started to go into the room and lock myself inside.

I fell silent while thinking about this hurt feeling. The distance between Me and Indra has already begun to be limited.

Indra, if I wasn't amnesiac, I might have been by your side in the first place. I received various insults from people for the sake of you being happy with my Brother?

Really I feel disappointed and sad after yesterday's incident will not change anything, while you are already his.

I'm just disappointed in what I see now. Everything has gone dark. You got my love but you married my real sister.

Have you ever thought about my feelings? Did you ever think, how I would react to you like others call her is my sister-in-law?

I don't believe, that we love each other but live forever with others. You live wandering around me as my sister-in-law. I'm your sister-in-law.

If I really can't accept this harsh reality, I'll go.

I will go far, far away to forget this love. But I told you once. That my hand is incapable of it.

Goodbye, my lover, good luck with your new life, good luck with him. My only prayer is with you.

One message for you, Indra. Never forget I loved you. Assume that all never existed. Forget all our past stories.

I expected all that, but only in my dreams. I'll go far to forget you, for my brother's sake. I'm willing to give up your love for her.