Between Me and Brother

chapter 20

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A very vague voice but it seems like I've heard it. Without any hesitation, I looked back and looked at his face.

"You've been healed?" He said as he walked closer to me.

Suddenly my head hurts, it hurts so much that the view feels blurred and the person's body feels like there is a shadow of him and runs towards me.

Suddenly I fell down and could not see clearly. I don't know what I'm feeling this is an event to recall. But if this continues I will be able to remember it again.

The nerves of my eyes stiffened and pulled back, my head hurt like a big stone.

Thank goodness my ears are still working. I still heard his voice and he shouted for help to people around.

I would have been very troublesome for them, had my parents come to see me again and take me in his arms. But for some reason, they did not come to see me at all and waited for me to come to my senses.

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The next day, the blind morning greeted the very cold air outside. The air went in over the window. I was still lying limp on a bed that was quite comfortable and soft this made me enjoy it very much.

The snoring sound of Willy is very unique, morning like this even accompanied by his distinctive voice. Maybe he's still tired, I don't dare to bother him.

Finally I got up from the super comfortable mattress, and walked slowly to the Princess' bed. That funny look made me want to pinch him. He slept like a 1-year-old baby.

Thank God my head is gone. It even feels light. I looked at Lela, she was still asleep with her book reading still in hand.

I was curious about the book, it seemed like it was very personal to him. Lela's son was very quiet on the appeal with Princess and Willy.

Her expressionless face always made me curious. Part of my memory of him is gone, I forget about his old self.

I only know him a little bit from Willy and Princess. Sometimes I dream of someone who is always with me, but his face is very blurry. I can't see his face.

***

Adhan dzuhur began to reverberate, me and my roommate rushed to the mosque while chatting.

"Mer, do you remember the recitation of Al-baqarah's letter?" Willy said.

"Huh? Memorize, when is it?" I was confused and tried to remember.

"You know he has amnesia. Yes where inget, especially memorization that really must be remembered" Upset Princess while hitting Willy's arm.

"Hehe, he'd take it one time. He also knows everything, right?" Willy said to the Princess and looked at me.

The princess sighed so deeply with Willy and only fell silent while putting on her pouting face. I did too, not frowning but upset that my memory had not returned to normal.

Arriving at the mosque as usual, saf Ustad and Ustadzah were waiting at the door of the mosque. He always welcomes the arrival of santri while serving santri who enter for congregational prayers.

"Loh, briefly. How do you pray Mery too? It's not that you're still sick" Ustadzah said, stopping me from getting in front of the mosque door.

"With papa Umi, mery has already done well. It doesn't hurt anymore." I smile.

"Thankful thank goodness. Hope you get well soon, Mer!" He said smile back at me.

I nodded then kissed her hand and started to go into the saf. I'm sitting next to Yana, Willy's friend. I remember talking about the ball. But some of me forgot about it.

Yana smiled at me and whispered to Willy who was right next to Yana as well. My line was very close to the Princess, while Lela always turned her back to us.

Willy nodded and whispered to me very quietly, he shifted with Yana and exchanged the positions of their places.

I'm nodding.

"He was the one who saved you from yesterday's danger. Remember not? His name is Indra, the famous guy in Pondok Darussalam you know." Whisper again.

I fell silent, staring at the curtains right in front of my eyes while remembering yesterday's events. However, I can't remember it at all. All it takes is that my headache will recur again and again.

Suddenly the Princess hit Willy's arm again while whispering a warning with him. Willy can't talk about weird things with me he said.

I glanced at the Princess at a glance and sure enough, her face already looked extremely annoyed. Maybe the Princess' goal is good, but I also need that memory.

With a whisper of Willy just now, I also felt something strange. My heart ached and this heartbeat was faster than usual.

What is this, do I know him more than they do. Or just my hunch? Thought I was passing by for a moment.

Iqamah began to reverberate, soon prayers will begin. I refocused on praying and returned to the Prophet like any other friend.

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Today's work is exhausting. Even my brain gets stuck thinking about difficult things. I was like a fool and didn't know anything Ustadzah taught me in class. Very disconcerting.

To make matters worse, Ustadzah tried to point his finger at me and told me to explain the matter in front. While I just nodded while frightened.

My romantic feathers seemed to stand up, creeped out for fear of explaining the wrong thing I made up. And sure enough, what I was afraid of happened.

I explained the matter in front of the class and looked at the faces of the santri wati with great hope I could do it.

Even the faces of Willy and the Princess twinkled at me waiting for her answer.

"Ahh, I'm ashamed to remember all that. Why am I like this?" I said, clenching my hands and trying not to remember what happened in class.

My amnesia really makes me look stupid in front of everyone. So embarrasing. But it is also a destiny that cannot be changed, the possibility of God planning something beautiful for me.

God's plan no one knows, not even angels. Sometimes fate only gives you the chance to know him, not to have him.

Even anger is useless to regret what happened. Because this destiny cannot be changed. Except the fate of poverty.

God created man not only to create him, but God wants to know how strong I am in a world full of direction.

There is no word if only, no word waiting beautifully in time other than trying to put in the effort and be patient. Then the waiting time, sooner or later will come too.

And I've been destined for amnesia with things that would be legendary. But God does not expect me to give up trying to remember.

Allah waits for my efforts, the patience and sincerity that I have. Maybe destiny wrote it down to make me out of step with all the means and the million reasons "Why?".

I'll try to fix everything I've done before, shouldn't I be complaining today.

Suddenly my spirit rose again and from today I, Mery. The kid from Jogja will be excited even better.

#*Small dialogue scenes.

"Well Mer spirit, spirit!" Shouted Willy patting the Princess' shoulder very hard.

"Well Mer, spirit." Shouted the Princess flicking Willy's forehead.

"Woi sick!" Said Willy furrowing his brows.

"Bodo very!" The princess said a glance.

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