Between Me and Brother

chapter 18

It was so dark, I listened to the sounds of various sounds from my ears. There might be some people at the side and waiting for me to wake up. Unknowingly I slowly opened my eyes and there was a very dazzling light.

My body feels stiff and limp, no energy until I want to lift a hand feels heavy. When I opened my eyes, I arrived around me in the crowd of many students and the two Ustadzahs sitting next to me. What's the matter? I thought in my heart.

"Well! Mery is conscious" exclaimed Willy smiling happily.

Instantly everyone looked at me blankly and the one that was far away became close just because I was conscious. I don't know why I'm suddenly on my dorm bed.

"Mery! Are you okay now?" Tanya Ustadzah broke my reverie.

"Eh? Why me Umi?" I asked slowly, the voice that arrived just became hoarse and painful to let out a long word.

I just sat there looking at those who looked at me with pity, the table beside was full of drinks, fragrances and fresh fruit.

"You passed out when you were screaming yesterday afternoon. No time for fun?" The princess suspected.

"What's? Fainted! Ma's.. Any time?" To my surprise, looking at the Princess who was holding her arms stood up.

"Ah, yes it is. Mery better take a break. Umi and others won't bother you just yet. Rest up!" Ustadzah said as he got up from his seat.

"You take care of Mery well" continued Ustadzah while pointing me with full decisiveness.

I was still questioning and starting to remember what happened to me this afternoon. But my head hurts so much and it's so hard to try to remember what happened that made me forget all of a sudden.

"Sst! So hurt. What time is Will?" I asked while holding my head in the affected part.

"Hour 11 noon, where the time to rest and start to pray dzuhur. You passed out for a long time, or did you get tired, Mer?" Willy asked me and squatted down in front of me.

"Huh? That long? What happened to me. I really don't remember at all. How could I forget like this" I said confusedly.

"You remember me, I'm the Princess!" The princess said while patting her chest.

"Dad, I'm Willy. You remember me, right?" Willy said the same word.

From their words I was silent in astonishment, they made sure themselves that I would forget them. Hengs! Not likely. Thought.

"Doctor said, you're amnesiac but that's just the part that's making you depressed. What is it with you, Mer? If anything makes you feel sad try to tell me" Willy said confidently.

"Yes right" continued the Princess agreed, said Willy, lela just nodded and smiled at me.

The missing part seems like a lot. I just remember that I met with Abi and Brother Tery here. After that I don't remember it at all. What's wrong with me? How bad my depression is so many important things I don't remember.

I tried to keep remembering but my head was so dizzy and hurt, it felt like it wanted to break. But on the back of my head was heavy and it was like a thick bandage. Did I fall or slip in the bathroom? I think it's getting worse.

"Forget it, don't remember it. If you try to remember I'll be hard with you to say NO. After all it doesn't matter, what matters is your health first." Said Willy furrowing his forehead and pitched high with me.

"Can you not yell at me, I really hurt Will" I said, pretending to be sad.

"Willy! You!" The Princess and Lela both shouted at Willy.

I laughed at their similar behavior as a child defending his oppressed friend. Even my head was so agitated to hear their screams because it was upset with Willy.

"Will, Put, La! Did you see my parents come here?" I asked full of curiosity.

Willy immediately choked and the Princess immediately looked at Lela sharply. They're like hiding something I shouldn't know.

I was silent for a moment and stared at the window that pierced the light from outside. As far as the eye can see there is also a wide field.

The princess looked at me doubtfully, it seemed to be my guess. They're hiding something unnecessary I know. All right, I understand them.

"Have it, don't be so awkward. I'm doing fine. Say it!" I said with a sweet smile.

"Actually!" Willy began to open his conversation.

"Actually your parents have come here, but they've come home early before you know Mer!" The princess smiled at me.

"really? Hm..Too bad." I said lethargic.

The Princess explained blatantly with me but Willy and Lela seemed unhappy with the Princess' explanation for me.

Willy immediately pulled Princess out and told me that there was something to be done in class. I also nodded while smiling.

Lela sat down next to me and grabbed the fresh fruit and she peeled it off with her full attention. After that, Lela gave me an orange.

"Well, so you can heal quickly" said Lela

I nodded and said "Thank You" to her. Lela smiled and reopened the book she often read whenever she had time to spare.

"I feel something is lacking" I said to spread the seriousness of Lela reading a book. Instantly Lela raised her face and glanced at me quietly.

"What's that?" Said Lela probing.

I smiled and chuckled at him then Lela just raised her right eyebrow full of weirdness from me. But my gut felt like I wanted to question him. However, I was really confused as to what. I don't remember anything from him at all.

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Now I am like a dry leaf blown by the wind, implied here and there, not a certain direction. The world is silent about my memory.

Even the clouds supported the mute that made me like a dry leaf. But I cannot hate this amnesia, for the fallen Leaf has never hated the wind.

I learned from some of the best novels while in Jogja. Remembering the memories there is also very longing. I started to remember Mbok Sirah who always accompanied me after school.

He was very smiling and I learned from him. Mbok Sirah never gets angry even if it's my fault. The things that make me complain about the hard work of Si Mbok always make me rise up to get excited.

Then how is Mbok Sirah now? Because he is alone at home there are only neighbors who always visit Mbok Sirah. I'd love to go home to Jogja.

"Mery! Are you that?" Shouted the middle-aged figure behind me. My heartbeat suddenly came to a halt instantly upon hearing that voice. A voice very familiar to me. Who her? I thought muttering in my heart.