Because I'm Not That Happy
#apology
at the end of a cold night, when the slumbering man knits a dream to welcome a tomorrow that is still a mystery, we just sit curled up on a mattress in his mother's house.
tears still flowed from the clear lake that did not go dry, he sobbed without a voice, fear and guilt were perching in his head and heart.
the little baby who fell asleep next to his mother, as if to make room for the mother to release all the heavy burdens she was carrying on her shoulders.
she did not wake up or cry even after midnight.
wita kissed her baby while whispering an apology over and over again.she felt very guilty to everyone at this time.
feeling her baby will not wake up, she steps out
towards a room that was right next to his room.
he knocked her several times before his feet stepped in.
a woman who was in the room, was seen sitting with an empty face.she did not respond at all to the arrival of the owner of the house.
wita sat down next to her and began to cry bitterly, so the woman began to take her eyes off and stare at him wita witu.
"sorry I am arini.., I have destroyed many lives, please forgive me. I beg you"
he said in between Isak a heart-wrenching cry.
her eyes looked swollen and red due to too much crying, but how many tears had spilled since noon after the event.
the woman who turned out to be arini, finally took a sob with wita.he understood what was being felt by the wita at this time, he had to hurt someone he loved so much, in order to save himself.
"a.what must I do in order to atone for all these sins arini.., I really cannot bear this guilt any longer, please help me"
connect with a barely audible voice.
arini shifts her body closer to the willa and hugs her.
"i've forgiven you, even your help today I can't pay back just by saying that I've forgiven you, even though at first I really hated mukarena has destroyed my household,but it's a long way gone.I no longer want to hurt myself by holding a grudge.I've found my own happiness"
"from now on, just assume you've never done anything to me other than your kindness today"
wita grew sobbing to hear the words of arini, the woman who had been hated and had ruined her happiness, easily forgiving her and telling her to be happy.
then the two hugged for a long time, accompanied by a cry of regret..both of them are very sorry about the things that happened today.just like Nanda can be grateful for his life and no longer disturb arini.maybe the bad event will never happen.
but the rice has become porridge.As much as regret, it will not be able to change everything that has happened.
"how is mas nanda now wit"
arini asked after the two felt calmer.
"i don't know arini.., I haven't received any news from the person I told to treat the wound"
he answered with a trembling voice.
"you're very lucky arini.many people love you and worry about you.while I. I only have a mother, only she really loves me"
sahut wita with a smile that is forced right.ya.wita always feel jealous of the happiness of others because they have many people who love.while he, he,ever since his father died he only had a mother who still really cared about him.
that's because his will become a actor and disturb the happiness of others.he hopes that by replacing the position of the person, he also gets what he has including people who love him.
but it turns out he was wrong in that, not his getting affection, he was increasingly ostracized and hated because it damaged the happiness of others.
"i'm not so lucky wit.I'm just trying to be grateful for what God's destiny has for me.I'm not as lucky as you are to have a mother who loves you so much and always takes care of you"
wita directs her gaze at the arini.she looks at the beautiful woman who is in front of her at this time.although the appearance of arini looks chaotic, but it does not reduce her beauty radiated in the least.
"you mean?"
ask arini.
"yes..my relationship with my mother is not worthy of her mother and most children.she always felt if I was a burden and always avoided her status as my mother.even at the toughest time when I parted with mas nanda, he didn't say anything to me other than the word, don't come home to trouble"
"that's why I didn't go home despite being separated.I chose to survive here by all means, which is important halal.and fortunately, God eases my path by giving me a friend as good as just"
he said with a warm smile to the widow.
wita was silent moving and continued to look at arini with a difficult view.
in her heart said that arini is a woman who is almost perfect, it is only fitting that her husband still wants arini back.
the two exchanged stories in many ways.wita already felt much better because the main burden had been reduced.arini said she wanted to go home soon because she missed her child.
but the willa forbid, because given the condition of arini's body has not fully recovered.
willa promised to drop Arini off tomorrow morning and told him to just rest for the night.
arini can only resign and agree to what was said by the widow.
after the two forgave each other, he left to rest.
she said that Arini needed something to call her, because she was right next to the room that the arini was wearing.
after the departure of wita.arini still can not be closed, but,her memory of this day greatly frightened her.The image of nanda touching her body wildly made her very depressed and traumatized.arini again cried and hugged her own body.she can not imagine what would happen if nanda managed to prank her.
he can still face reality and the people around him, even though he and Nanda have done it, but all of it with a completely different status.
and moreover, at that time arini did it because of an obligation as a wife.
arini finally fell asleep because he felt his body was very tired and somehow his way arrived just arrived he was already in the dream realm.
there she saw ibra smiling at her while holding her cute daughter.
until unknowingly, his lips joined in smiling to see the person he so loved in good condition is fine this sat.
