ANTERIOR

ANANTARA - 39 Farewell

"You mean, you want us to split up?" Adam asked, as if he could not believe what he had heard.

I know this is all so sudden, but in fact my heart and mind are already very tired, tired of living a household that has been very destroyed.

"Dear of it! don't say nonsense!" Adam looks upset.

"I know you're very angry and hurt, and yet-" his voice choked, sounding stifling the pain now seen in both eyes.

"please don't say it like this" he continued pleading.

Adam stepped closer, holding these two shoulders, trying to resuscitate my lost mind.

However, if my decision is wrong, I have been very trying and patient all this time, it is natural that now I am very tired.

I shook my head, "Enough Mas, don't force any more of this, everything has been different!"

I let go of his hand, not wanting to go back to the melt with just a sweet, stinking persuasion.

"For what do you keep all this?!" I screamed hysterically again, not wanting to hear all the sweet words.

"The heart is different! in fact, I am the second person in this household!" my yelling.

"I'm the one you've always got a duet number for, he!" show me again to Erika's mother. "He's the one who always puts numbers together!"

"I'm so tired, I'm quite, don't force it anymore! why am I holding on just to keep hurting Mas?!"

"Have you never thought about my feelings?"

"Did Mas ever think of me who always waited for Mas all night, waiting for Mas to come home to this house, but finally this house is not the house where Mas returned,"

"Finally! Always with my beloved wife! not me!"

"What is conscious? what have you been doing all this time?"

"Just because of that woman, I forgot about me! I am your wife! not just him!"

"Then, why do you keep pushing all this! please go and live happily with her! let me go!"

"Look! in a moment, I will keep that woman locked behind bars! I'm gonna prove that all this shit is not bullshit!"

I kept shouting, taking out all the piled up hearts, propping up and stifling these chests.

"It's enough Ayesha! enough!" Adam shouted, he turned to stare.

"Don't keep saying like this is Erika's fault! he doesn't know anything!"

"I told you! Erika is not that kind of woman! there's no way he's done such a heinous thing as you say!"

"You're just jealous! don't act so childish! I know you're hurt, but if you continue like this, I can't keep quiet either!"

"If you want to split up! please, I'll do what you want!" Reply to Adam.

Although in fact I wanted this separation, but hearing directly Mas Adam who agreed to all this, made me feel weak immediately.

Until the end, Mas Adam still defended Erika, not realizing that what he said was very painful.

Now, I could only stare at him in a frenzy, knowing that right now, I did not have any position in my husband's heart.

I tried to comment on a smile on these lips, trying to be strong with all the arrows that Mas Adam put out.

As Adam ruffled his hair in frustration, he looked at me with those red eyes.

"Do you really want all this?" tanyakanya.

He looked at me with an annoyed look and was angry, as if he could not accept it. I could now only return that gaze, reluctant to take all these gazes away from her.

"Why do you ask like that? Obviously the answer is with Mas" I replied.

"Now I ask," I bite my lip, distracting the pain.

It was hard to say the words that would now come out of this mouth.

I finally asked a question that would decide how my household would end.

A question so heart-wrenching, that it made this body tremble, enduring extreme pain.

Adam was silent, looking at my index finger still pointing at the woman beside him.

This heart feels so sore, asking the thing that will eventually make this self more broken.

"How can I answer-"

"Ah, no, I retract my question Mas!" my hatch, cut his words.

I pulled back my hand, moving it as if saying no with my hand.

"I'm sorry, I just realized, I'm not a woman who deserves to be with a woman like her!" I said smiling bitterly, pulling back this index finger pointing at the woman.

Then, back to staring at my husband, staring at Mas Adam with a grin garnished with tears.

"So, all this time the choice was in my hands, I would choose, break our relationship Mas,"

"Because from the beginning, I wasn't an option!"

"I think" I said, stopping, trying to get rid of the heat in the eyes that would make a tear fall back.

"This separation is the best option" I said at last.

I looked into his eyes, convincing myself that what I had chosen was my best choice.

Although it is painful, but this long-established relationship must be destroyed. I have to be strong, because in fact, even if I survive, I'm the only one injured here.

"Let me go Mas, let me be happy."

Adam was silent, and both eyes were now dropping tears. Adam was crying, as if he could not believe what I had said.

It must hurt, I know.

In fact, everyone who was here, who had heard all this fighting, was also stunned by what I said.

Ummi, Abi, Father and Mother-in-law, they were all shocked by the words that came out of this mouth.

I'm sorry, I did break this wedding rope, but what can I do, why do I keep all this again. If a breakup is the best way out.

a smile just puffed up on these lips, a smile that was extremely painful, a smile that felt like it was slicing this heart.

Smiled at the man who had been my husband, but today, I broke off this relationship.

Am I wrong?.

Shouldn't I have made it this far?.

Seeing him speechless with his tears, was so heartbreaking, painful, but I could not continue to endure if I ended up getting hurt again.

I also deserve to be happy, I can't keep quiet in this unfavorable state of myself.

"Well," at last, Mas Adam let out his voice.

"If that's what you want" he continued.

"Let's do it,"

Now, I am silent, listening to every word that comes out of his mouth.

"We do, that farewell!"

"The parting you want."

Adam said it all very easily, agreeing to this farewell.

Should I be happy?.