ANTERIOR

ANANTARA - 34 I Who Defeated

Like what Mas Adam promised, after returning from the office, Mas Adam immediately invited me to pick up Ali.

Glad, Mas Adam came home alone, without the brother of Erika who previously liked to stick inseparable like a stamp.

"Mas, alone?" my words feel weird.

Adam nodded, "Yes, I'm alone, who do you expect me to come with?" reply Mas Adam while frowning.

I quickly shook my head, continuing to develop a smile.

"Nothing, yaudah let's pick up Ali Mas," I asked, directly holding Mas Adam's hand towards the car.

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Finally after passing the journey a little far, we arrived at the house of my Father and Mother-in-law.

I saw Ali sitting on the balcony with Mom and Dad. He looked so happy when he saw Mas Adam's car entering the yard of the house.

"Umma! Abi!" his screams sounded clear.

I could only chuckle, anxious to see my son's behavior. Immediately I stepped my feet running small while stretching this hand towards him.

Prepare to receive a hug from my little son.

"Mom!" Ali shouted running towards me.

Finally, even if only one day did not meet, it was very longing for this one little boy.

"God willing, the son of Umma is not the same Umma?" I asked Ali as I continued to hug her.

"Ali kangen Umma, Umma is healed?" sahut Ali, he let go of his embrace, then brought the tiny hand to my face.

Ali looked at me with a face that looked sad as well as worried.

I repeat a warm smile, "Umma gakpapa dear, Umma is healed, already healthy." Reply, while raising the hand like a person who is showing his muscles.

Ali laughed, seeing my behavior. I smiled happily at the adorable laughter from her.

Finally, after picking up Ali, I asked Mas Adam to stop by for a while at the supermarket. To buy all the needs of a house that has been exhausted.

"We all eat here well, we haven't eaten outside for a long time." Mas Adam asked.

Of course, Ali and I nodded in agreement with no intention of resisting in the slightest, feeling happy to finally be able to spend time together again.

After all the grocery list was fulfilled, we just went straight to the nearest dining place, and this is where the three of us are now.

Sitting together while listening to Ali's babble that was telling what he had done with his Grandpa and Grandma.

"Ali play ball with Grandpa, Ali also play chase with white rabbits" he said.

"Keep, Ali's down..." Ali changed her face sad.

Me and Mas Adam now focus on listening to all his words, being faithful listeners of his short stories.

"Ali cry no?" ask her Abi.

Ali nodded still with the lips that he bent down and the eyes that were now glazed, as if to recall the incident yesterday when he fell.

Me and Mas Adam who saw it even chuckled small, anxious to see the funny behavior.

"I-iya, Ali cry..," he replied. "ta-but Grandpa immediately carried Ali, wash Ali's wounds, continued Granny plaster deh," he added.

Not felt because too focused on listening to Ali's chatter, now the waiter comes to our table with food in the tray.

"Excuse me, Mr-Bu, the order is ready" he said.

Adam immediately invited the waiter to move the food in his tray to our table and thanked him after everything was presented neatly.

No delay, I, Ali and Mas Adam just ate the food at the table, filling the stomach that had been rumbling from earlier.

A small chatter becomes a distraction when this mouth is busy chewing. The atmosphere was so calm, it was warm with the gathering of my little family.

Several times this heart gives thanks, can again feel the togetherness that has long been lost.

"Yes, yes, we'll be home soon" said Mas Adam, replying to someone across the call.

This heart again felt sad when it heard that speech. Just now everything feels better, now it must be destroyed again just because of one phone call.

"Yes, Mas's coming home now," Mas Adam continued to answer the call, not realizing that his answer made me feel disappointed.

"Again, I will be left behind," my mind was disappointed.

Appetite just disappeared, I finally finished the meal event. Choosing to feed Ali, because they know that soon Mas Adam will definitely end this meal together.

Seen from the edge of this eye Mas Adam ended his call, he did not continue to eat. He turned to look at me, I knew it but, I kept focusing on feeding Ali without even turning my head.

"Aisha," call Mas Adam at last.

"Yes Mas?" reply slowly without taking my eyes off Ali.

"We had the meal first well, in shaa Allah, the next day we go out to eat together again" he said.

"All right!" my inner.

Now I take this face to look at him, Mas Adam looks guilty, but does not make this heart melt.

I always patiently feel tired, as if I should continue to succumb. Why isn't Erika the only one giving in, I thought.

"Kalo Mas wants to go home, please. Let me stay here with Ali. Look, Ali and I haven't finished eating." I said a little cynical.

I saw the look on the face of Mas Adam who was increasingly feeling guilty, hearing my answer that seemed insinuating.

"Aisha, I'm sorry, Mas knows you must be upset. But, Mas promise next time we go out to eat together again," he said.

"But, now that we go home first well, it's impossible to leave you two here." continued Mas Adam.

I chose silence, ignoring Mas Adam. Not that I do not believe in Mas Adam's promise, but why should I always give up.

I did not ask Mas Adam to promise such a thing, for what promise if it will finally be like this again.

I mean, I just want to enjoy this time without having to give up on another woman who needs my husband.

Can't Adam just put me first and cherish his time with me.

Of course, it was always Erika and Erika's mother who Mas Adam prioritized.

"I told you, if Mas wants to go home please. Ma'am Erika must have waited, just let me and Ali here, besides me and Ali are still at home and have not finished eating" I said again.

"Aisha," called Mas Adam in a gentle tone.

But sorry, my heart is so petrified. It doesn't melt with just such a trivial thing.

"Please go, I can order GowCar. No need to worry." I said without looking at him.

I heard Mas Adam who was now sighing a little harshly, maybe annoyed with my attitude?.

Let it go, I don't care. Adam just doesn't care about my feelings, so why do I keep caring about the feelings of people who never care about me.

"Aisha, please..," Mas Adam carried his body slightly forward. "please understand, do not provoke Mas's anger," he said.

The deg!

Fishing, who did Adam mean to provoke his anger?.

I took this face to look at him, tired of this heart, very tired of it. I've always been the prime suspect, when in fact I'm the victim here.

I wanted to scream, screaming that I was tired. Where the promise that said will try to be fair, if in fact I continue to be the one who must always give up.

I clutched my clothes, holding back the burning anger. I realized where I am now, I continue to be privileged, holding back the fire that is fueling this anger.

I must remember that if Ali is beside me, be patient, be patient.

Finally, I relented again, stepping on this leg following Mas Adam behind with Ali.

Again I lost, I continued to sacrifice my feelings, for the sake of another woman who took the first place in my husband's heart.