ANTERIOR

ANANTARA - 20 Fear

After performing the Isya prayer, I immediately took Ali to his room. Accompany him, to just read a story that finally made Ali sleep.

"Thank God, sweet dreams, baby." I said, before leaving Ali's room.

I went to the middle room, where I saw Adam watching the television show. Instead of approaching her, my feet stepped back and walked away.

However, as if already knowing my presence, Adam turned and called out to me. "Aisha," call him.

Inevitably, I finally stopped my steps, and turned to look at him. "What's wrong?" My answer.

"Let's go for a minute, accompany me." He asked me to accompany him.

Before walking closer, I turned to the right and left, looking for the whereabouts of someone, but in fact Adam was alone in the living room.

Finally I walked up to my husband, and I saw Adam patting the sofa beside me, giving me a cue to sit next to him.

Without resisting, I sat my butt next to him. "What's wrong?" Ask again.

Adam shook his lips. "Mas just want to be with you, can't it?" He answered with a face like a child who was squeezing.

I chuckled a little at her face, "no!" Answer's kidding.

He further opened his lips, with sparkling eyes. "God, whose child is this?" I joked while pinching both of his cheeks.

"Hahaha," my laugh.

Seeing me laugh, Adam now began to comment on a smile on his lips. "Well, that's dong, laughing. Time from earlier mas see the beautiful wife mas pout continues." Her speech.

I laughed a little, it was so easy that Adam could make me laugh and forget my sadness before.

"Who's really pouting?" My elak.

Adam smiled and took me into his arms, into his warm embrace. I feel, all the turmoil and sadness that had been stuck now instantly disappeared.

I returned the embrace, putting my head on his chest.

"Don't pout, it'll be old spit." Adam said, still hugging me.

I smiled again, hearing his joke. It was like entertaining me in a simple way.

"Who is old too, old!" My reply, with a rarity.

"Gum!" A voice that suddenly shocked Adam, and made his embrace escape from me.

I saw Adam looking at the man behind me. I looked up and saw who it was,

Of course, she is Mba Erika who is now standing with her waistline looking not at me and Adam.

"Oh good yeah, can hug! You forgot there was me!" He said in a tone that sounded insinuating.

"It's not like that" Adam replied, but Erika seemed not to want to hear what Adam wanted to say.

"St! Already mas, don't talk nonsense! I'm lazy to hear it!" Sela mba Erika's.

Adam finally chose silence, I became misbehaved, even though what I did with Adam was a common thing we could do.

However, with the situation mba Erika who lives in my house, now me and mas Adam seem to have to keep their distance, even though we are both husband and wife.

"Tonight, Adam slept with me!" Erika said suddenly while looking at me.

He was back in the arms of Adam, and I realized that Erika was wearing a dress that I thought was inappropriate to show in front of me.

Mba Erika is now wearing chili red lingerie, with a short cut above the knee and showing her cleavage.

My eyes turned back, feeling uneasy to see that. Seeing my husband who is now in the middle of the sexy dressed woman who is his wife as well.

"Tonight, Adam's mas will sleep with me, you know that Aisyah, me and Adam's mas do not have a baby, so we both have to be diligent in doing husband and wife relations, you understand." Evidently.

Verily, the words of Erika that entered my ear, made a fire burn in my heart.

"Erika!" Tegur mas Adam's.

It appears that Adam tried to release Erika's hand, but Erika held Adam's arm very strongly.

"What's up? Indeed the reality is so right, anyways we are husband and wife, Aisyah also must understand, is not Aisyah." Say again.

I raised my face, looked at Adam and Erika, and then I repeated a smile with a false look. "Please, I can take Adam's mas. Hopefully, Erika can quickly give God the confidence to have children." I said, with a smile that looked insinuating.

I immediately turned around and walked away, leaving them both, and I heard a little loud stomping, coming from Erika's leg, maybe she was upset.

"What did you say! You're insinuating me who's not pregnant right! Yes, Ayesha!" Erika exclaimed in a high tone, as if she did not accept my words.

I who had stepped away did not intend to turn my head, and continued my steps towards the room.

Erika is now screaming at me, with Adam busy trying to calm her down.

"Revelation you Aisha! You're insinuating me who's not pregnant right! Your outrageousness!"

"Look at it later! I will get pregnant soon! Give Adam a son who will love Adam far from your son!" His shouting.

I who heard that can only close my eyes for a moment, hold the annoyance in my chest and try to be patient, I better immediately go into the room and lie down.

That night, I went back to sleep alone. Adam is back with Erika. However, different from usual, now even though he is not with me, he is still in this house, just a different room with me.

Finally, instead of spending a night alone, I walked out to Ali's room. I thought it might be better to sleep with my son than to sleep alone.

Arriving at her room, I immediately laid this body beside her, staring at her innocent face, rubbing the top of her head slowly.

Not feeling, a single tear just fell. There's this heart-wrenching pain, "sorry Umma well son, Umma can't be a good mother yet, a perfect mother for Ali." My speech.

"Can Umma survive? Can Umma be strong, son?"

Drop by drop kept coming out soaking my cheeks. I, who always tried to be strong, now crumbled in front of my sleeping son. Just by looking at his face, my heart ached.

Afraid, if only later this weak me could not survive, making Ali a victim of my broken home.

"Umma too bad Ali, Ali don't leave Umma well son." I said again, in a soft tone while rubbing it with fear of losing it.

Somehow, since this afternoon saw Ali sitting together with Adam and Erika mas at the dinner table, making a great fear.

Afraid of losing Ali, I don't know why I could think that. But this heart cannot be lied to. The fear that inexplicably came continued to settle and fester in my heart.

"Am I finally going to be alone?" My speech.

"Don't leave Umma well son, Umma too bad Ali, if Ali left Umma, Umma don't know what will happen next." Continue with tears growing.

That night, I kept hugging Ali, to the point that these eyes were tired and finally asleep, while hugging my son.