Alia (Are you okay?)

The feeling of wanting to kill

A few years ago

That afternoon after school Alia came and went straight into the room with her face bent. Alia threw her school bag in any direction then sat down curled up below. Alia was really unable to bear it anymore, the pressure that everyone put on her was simply too great. Alia always get bullying at school because her brother who has autism, to be honest Alia never complained about it because she was never once embarrassed to have a sister who has autism, but the problem is that the bullying that initially only mocks his brother's ridicule autistic long ago turned into mental and physical direction.

Going home with a wet situation or fishy smell from the garbage can seems to have become a routine every day. Alia was really tired of facing all that, the family that Alia originally thought of as a place to pour out, in fact also became the place where Alia least wanted to set foot there.

Alia really can not talk or ask for help to anyone, her mother always put Allea in every situation and condition, making Alia's condition worse. Alia cried without a sound, she really did not know how else to withstand the turmoil in her heart. Until then a sound of an object falling into the water sounded so loud, making Alia who was the position of her room was next to the pool then immediately ran out to check what sound just now.

Alia who was running wanted to see what sound just now, then stopped her footsteps when she saw Allea fall into the pool.

"Sir Lea!" he said in his heart right when he saw Allea who had difficulty to rise to the surface.

Alia's footsteps stopped right in the doorway, for some reason when Alia saw Allea almost drowning like that, her feelings were really full of bad prayer that contained Allea to not survive after drowning.

Shadow after shadow of how deafening he got in school and also the torment after torture he got from Tiara, slowly began to spin in his head making Alia's ears then ringing suddenly. Alia is seen starting to step back slowly when her whole heart is filled with hatred for the presence of Allea before her. Until then the voice of Allea who asked for help to him suddenly sounded in his hearing, making Alia then stop her footsteps who was about to leave Allea there.

"Al please.." cried Allea as she tried to rise to the surface but continued to fail.

Hearing Allea's scream just now, made Alia then stop her steps. Alia was really confused as to what path she would take this time when she saw her own brother drowning in the pond.

Alia was really worried, half her heart said to let Allea drown but the other half said to help Allea.

"Arg" he cried out in frustration as he grabbed his hair in annoyance.

Until then when Alia no longer heard the sound of hand flapping against the water, making Alia without a second thought then ran and went into the water to help Allea.

Alia swam hurriedly while trying to lift Allea's body up to the surface as strongly as possible.

Uhuk uhuk uhuk

The sound of Allea coughing made Alia smile when she heard it from the water. Alia who was at the bottom trying to push Allea's body to go up, but unfortunately when Allea was about to go up above Allea instead kicked Alia quite hard, but alia was quite hard, to make Alia accidentally choke and drink water.

"Silver.." called him inwardly as his body continued to descend to the bottom of the pond due to the cramp caused by Allea's leg kick when it was about to rise to the surface.

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Back to Resto

"He wants to kill me!" yelled Allea again while pointing towards Alia.

"Ti.. no sister no.." said Alia stuttering.

Alia was really shocked when she heard that straight from Allea's mouth. Alia who heard Allea's words could not deny or agree because it used to be the feeling of wanting to let Allea sink really filled her whole heart. Making Alia can only stare in disbelief at her brother because it turns out Allea knows everything.

Alia looked back slowly with a surprised look, making Fabian who was behind Alia then looked at Alia with a confused look at the expression that Alia just showed.

"He wants to kill me! you're evil! I hate you.." he yelled again while pushing Alia hard enough, to make Alia stagger a few steps with a face that still looks shocked.

After pushing Alia just now Allea then ran without direction while continuing to say out loud that Alia wanted to kill him repeatedly. While Alia only looks pensive in place while staring blankly in the front without moving a bit.

Fabian who saw Alia was very shocked, then approached towards Alia and shook Alia's body slowly to resuscitate her.

"I don't intend to kill him. I really don't intend... really.." said Alia repeatedly while still staring blankly in the front, making Fabian who saw Alia like that then held tightly Alia's head to look at the bead of her eyes, as if trying to resuscitate Alia who was surprised at this time.

"Stop Al! I know you never really wanted to do that. So stop it, don't keep blaming yourself." Fabian said as he stared deeply into Alia's bead eyes.

"I.. I.." said Alia again but could not because it felt very choked and could not come out of her mouth at all.

"I know it's so stop it okay?" said Fabian again while removing his hand grip on Alia's head.

Alia who had just regained consciousness after hearing Fabian's words just now, then rubbed her face violently then lowered her head for a while. He was really too washed away just now to lose his composure and get out of control.

Alia who had felt a little calmer then began to stare around looking for the existence of Allea there, but Alia did not find Allea anywhere.

"Where is Lea's sister?" alia asked softly while still looking around for Allea's whereabouts there.

"Isn't Al here?" said Fabian who was also confused when looking around turned out there was no Allea anywhere.

"Don't joke Bi.. This is starting to not be funny!" alia said with annoyance.

"I'm not kidding Al, you think my face would be like this if I was joking?" fabian said as he pointed towards his face.

Seriate