Alia (Are you okay?)

Should I give up again?

"Of course papa is very curious about it, Bian alone who stands on his own feet can get an exclusive contract with VH company, but you.... you who are supported by the name of papa just can not get it. How papa was not excited when he heard the news." said Zayan then who then made the atmosphere of dinner that was warm turned tense.

"Pa.." call Arsa to warn her husband.

"What else ma? isn't that the truth? mama was too pampering him all this time, he was the eldest son should be able to be more in front and can be trusted to hold the leadership baton, but in fact, how do you start a great partnership?" said Zayan increasingly hardened his voice making Ardan's hand that heard it then clenched tightly but could not do anything.

"This dinner table you should be more able to appreciate it than discuss the unimportant here!" arsa said she didn't want to lose.

"You were always like that even five years ago when Ardan and Fabian were in an accident you were." said Zayan but was cut off because he heard the sound of falling objects which then stopped the debate.

Fabian then got up and stood up from his seat when he saw his third eye was staring at him with a confused look at what Fabian just did.

"I'm sorry on purpose" he said in a flat tone. "Next time mom and sister don't have to ask me here anymore, this is why I don't want to go home. Honestly, I'm sick of continuing to hear the topic of your quarrels has always been the same since long ago" Fabian said in a stifled tone because honestly here the one who was injured was not only Ardan but also himself.

"Bi.." called Arsa softly but Fabian just smiled at a glance looking at his mother and then came back flat again.

"I know what papa meant to say to make brother Ardan come forward and follow my example, just don't you know that me and brother Ardan are injured because of the word papa said. Since long ago until now papa always just like that and never changed, in fact my departure did not open the eyes of papa's heart to the mistakes that papa did without papa intentionally." said Fabian back which then makes Zayan silent a thousand languages because this time Fabian looks so angry about the words Zayan just now. " One more thing you need to remember, I achieved my success is not instant, I also struggled and tried again I went to the point of success not to be praised, not to be praised, I'm not crazy about compliments. So I beg you to stop comparing the two of us because it will never have an end, I'd better just go home from here thanks for the food." he said then waltzed away from there leaving a silence left at the dinner table.

After the departure of Fabian from there Zayan then rose and wanted to step away from there but stopped and turned to look at Ardan.

"You see Ar. 'cause you're all fucked up like this. If you can't get it back the way it was at least try to get better. Papa never asked you to be like Bian just to get better, can't you?" zayan said annoyedly while Ardan sat quietly at the dinner table staring blankly at his plate. "Forget over talking to you is like talking to a wall, it never does any good" Zayan said again and then stepped away from there.

"Son.." call Arsa softly while holding Ardan's hand tightly clenched from earlier.

"I'm going to go to the apartment for a while ma, don't look for me or contact me for some time to come" Ardan said in a tone that was held.

"I'm not going ma, it's just that I need time to calm down, Adan please ma.." said Ardan in a pleading tone.

Arsa, who saw her son pleading, began to take off her hand. "Go away son. Call mom if you feel better" said Arsa in the end.

Getting approval from Arsa just made Ardan then get up and immediately leave Arsa alone at the dining table. Arsa's heart was completely broken when she saw her two sons leave just because of this matter. It looks trivial but it turns out the effect is very large for both.

"How should you ease the burden on both of you?" said Arsa softly while staring softly at the food that is still neatly arranged at the dining table.

***

Meanwhile Fabian who was driving his car at high speed then immediately stopped suddenly and covered the roadside. Fabian rested his head for a moment on the steering wheel of his car while tapping the tap of his finger on the dashboard. The shadow of the incident five years ago about the accident suddenly crossed his mind. Fabian is really tired of the attitude of Zayan who always compares compared to himself and Ardan.

"Aren't you tired of going on like this? I'm really tired of discussing this again." Fabian said softly to himself as he slowly got up and massaged his temple slowly.

Fabian is really not out of thought with the attitude of Zayan who always compare the two in everything. Not only Ardan who was depressed about the attitude of his father but also Fabian, Fabian always hurt when he saw his brother like depression and not strong menhan demands from Zayan. Initially Fabian thought that his decision to leave the main mansion was the most appropriate move for him. But in fact, even though for many years his father's attitude has never changed and even more so.

Fabian has often given up on this and he does not want it again this time. Because the brother who always felt depressed about the pressure given by Zayan, in the end Fabian again became a victim of it.

Without Ardan and Zayan also know Arsa always just stop by his room when the comparison between him and Ardan again discussed by Zayan. Yep when Fabian was still there every night Fabian always got a message and also a request from Arsa so that he would give up for his brother. Once and twice Fabian was able to handle it, but after many times Fabian was no longer able to withstand the burden and in the end decided to leave the main mansion.

"They'll never know what it's like to be me? at a time when everyone including papa praised and proud me. But mama..mama instead told me to give in and take a step back behind Ardan's brother. All you think about is Ardan's brother and always Ardan's brother, and then you never ask me how I feel?" said Fabian in a soft tone.

Seriate