A Story of the Haram Child

Chapter 5 Anarya's Regrets

A bright morning, the sun was not covered by clouds. Warm rays of light are radiating across the universe. The chirping of birds added to the atmosphere of the morning when a tall man was crouching in front of the navel.

Long he was stunned in front of a tombstone bearing the name 'Daneesa Khaerani'. A clear thread flowed from the corner of his closed eyes as if enduring pain and profound loss.

Many times he hugged and kissed the tombstone and called out the name. The more guilt in his net, the words of regret continue to flow from the mouth that does not stop apologizing.

"Neesa, forgive brother, yes. Brother is useless. Brother can't take good care of you." Back he sniffed the sedan, he hit his head, grabbed his hair.

"That's sorry, Neesa. Very, very, very sorry. You shouldn't have left at that time. You shouldn't have let you go through everything alone." Narya brushed away the tears, her gaze turning to the sky.

"Look, Neesa. God is punishing me now. God did not allow me to meet and rest at your feet. God will not allow me to embrace you anymore. Look, Neesa." Narya's voice sounded trembling. His chest became even more stifled with all regrets.

"Eight years I've been tormented, Nees. It is so painful to always miss you. I don't know how long this feeling will continue to torment me."

"I'm sorry, Daneesa. Brother will always love you." Narya dropped her head onto the tombstone.

Long Narya put her head down, without realizing in front of her stood a sweet woman who had just witnessed her pill cry. The woman looked at him with a cynical look.

"What are you crying about, Anarya?"

Anarya who had been busy with regret was aghast. The head that had been bowed was now looking up at the source of the voice.

Anarya was further aghast when she found out who had come. He fell backwards. I rubbed my eyes many times to make sure what he saw.

"Da-Da-Daneesa?" Anarya's face changed pias saw the figure of the woman he was so familiar with.

The woman was still smiling with a cynical look, staring fixedly hatefully at Anarya.

"I'm Daneela, not Daneesa."

"But ...."

"Yes, I'm Daneesa's twin. My twin sister whom you hamili and after you leave."

"But Daneesa never told me he had a twin brother."

"Have you ever asked?"

"No." Narya shook her head weakly.

"Of course you will never ask because you are just busy seducing him. Are you also trying to recognize the Daneesa family?"

Back Anarya just shook her head. He's been feeling stupid all along. During knowing Daneesa never once he tried to get to know the family of a woman who until now he was unable to get rid of from his heart.

Only twice did he dare to enter the house of Daneesa. When permission wants to marry Daneesa and last for a week after Daneesa's death.

The last visit left a million regrets for Anarya. He had no chance to look at his beloved.

Even the news of Daneesa's death was too late to know, if not from Daneesa's friend who gave the news, perhaps she will never know that Daneesa died after giving birth to a small baby who is now an encouragement for Anarya's life.

"I didn't mean to leave her," Anarya argued.

Anarya still seemed confused, confused as to how to explain that she was not what she thought she was. There were many causes that made him have to leave, never terbesit want to stay away from Daneesa.

"My departure was not to leave Daneesa, but because ...."

"No reason can change my view of you. To me you are an irresponsible man."

Anarya rubbed her face again and let out a strong sigh. There is a sense that he wants to escape so as not to continue squeezing in the chest.

"Why silence? Your regrets are useless. Not only will God punish you, but I will also give you even more pain!" daneela said, full of pressure and threats. Highlight his sharp eyes slammed towards Anarya.

"What are you gonna do? Killing me? I'm sincere if it can atone for my guilt on Daneesa."

"Hahaha ..it's too light for you, Anarya."

"Then what do you want?"

"I'll take your son!"

Anarya was stunned, she got up from where she was sitting. He looked at the woman in front of him again. The face of the woman he once admired, even greatly loved. But unfortunately, the face is exactly the same but not with his heart.

He's not a Daneesa, he's a Daneela. A woman full of hatred and revenge. That net look was completely different from Daneesa's.

"Daneela, please don't punish me like that. It's the same you're gonna kill me slowly."

"That's what I want."

"I've been tormented enough by this regret. Don't you add any more by taking Nesa from me. He's all I have." Anarya's eyes were in tears again.

"Aren't you married and having children?"

Anarya. He fell back into the Daneesa. Seemingly filled his handsome face. It was like losing strength, the heart that had been shapeless was now increasingly losing hope.

"I never loved him. I just love Daneesa, and I never had any intention of leaving Daneesa. All because of my mother." Still with his face bowed deeply, the clear drops fell back.

He looked back at the tombstone, then hugged the tombstone back. Bak was hit by thousands of stones on his body, so heavy a burden he felt.

"I will take Nesa from you" said Daneela as she left Anarya.

"You can kill me, but I won't let you take my son!" yelled Anarya, but the woman had walked away.

Daneela's words left fear for Anarya. Soon he got up and tried to chase after the woman, but it was too late. Daneela had gotten into the car and disappeared in a corner of the road.

Anarya stepped gontai, occasionally he grabbed hair. He feels hate with himself who is never able to be assertive against the attitude of the mother who continues to manage his life.

Now, he fears that Daneela is really taking Nesa. He could not afford to lose for a second time. Fear began to run in the heart. Soon he got into the car and headed home, hoping Nesa was still there and squandered into his arms.

"Nesa, don't leave father, son," she asked in her heart. During the journey, Anarya was only able to pray that this time God would not punish her again, she wanted God to give her the opportunity to make amends for every mistake she ever made.

In the heart of Anarya there is only one desire, which is given the opportunity to always take care of Nesa. The little girl was the only spirit she had to live her life. The baby who always reminds him of his memories with Daneesa.